Timeerificationisms

third world politics.

2008-12-27T21:34:00.000-08:00

i reposted this from a friend's multiply. i do not know what else to say. all i can do is repost this and hope people come to their senses.

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Friday, December 26, 2008

The world has gone crazy.

So, I just had the worst day of my life.

At around 1:30 PM today, at Valley Golf and Country Club, Antipolo City, Mayor Nasser Pangandaman, Jr., Mayor of Masiu City, Lanao del Sur, his father, Secretary Nasser Pangandaman of the Department of Agrarian Reform, and company, beat my defenseless 56-year-old dad and my 14-year-old brother to a pulp because of some stupid misunderstanding on the golf course.

This is a golf course. I have been a golfer all my life, and I have never seen anything like this. NOTHING. This is hard to comprehend. And it happened to my own father and my own brother too. Right in front of my eyes.

My brother and I were playing golf at the South Course of Valley. We were on the 3rd hole, and we see two golf carts going past us, overtaking our flight, and setting up to tee off on the next hole. My dad goes up to them and asks them why they would do that, why they would overtake us without even asking for our permission. Golf etiquette 101. One of the guys says that they're with the flight in front of us. (So what? That doesn't give them the right to just pass us WITHOUT asking.) So, we go to the 5th hole. The flight behind us catches up with us, and asks us what caused the hold up. We said that this flight just slipped in front of our flight. So we complained to the marshall. We play the 5th hole and walk towards the next hole, where there is a teehouse, and both the flights in front of us were there, talking with the marshall. The mayor of Masiu City, Lanao del Sur talks with my dad. Things get heated up. Voices were raised. But never, in my wildest dreams, did I ever imagine that someone would pull out a punch. Apparently not. He attacks my father. His flightmates, maybe 2 or 3 of them, rush to his aid and beat up my father. My 56-year-old father. My younger brother and I could not just watch. We rushed to break the fight. My younger brother pleads to the mayor to please stop it. To not hurt my dad. To just stop. His words still ring through my head..."Sorry na po, sorry na po...tama na...tama na po..." With his hands in front of his chest in a praying position. PLEADING. The mayor socks him in the face. My brother defended himself. My dad is still on the ground getting clobbered. My brother is the same way. I try to stop the fight, but all I can do is stop one person. There were 4 or 5 of them attacking now.

Someone breaks up the fight. I thought it was all over. The mayor shouts to his caddy: "Hindi nila kami kilala! Sabihin mo nga sa kanila kung sino ako!" And believe me, I had no idea who this person was. But now I know. He's the person who, with 4 other men, beat up my 56-year-old father and my 14-year-old brother. He's the person who sacks a pleading 14-year-old kid in the face. He's a person who, I am sure, is gonna rot in hell.

I lash out, but my dad held me back. I was screaming my lungs out, shouting to this mayor, telling him about what he had done. I said: "Nakakahiya kayo. Singkwenta'y sais anyos ang tatay ko. And kapatid ko kakatorse anyos. Anong ilalaban nila sayo?"

The mayor looks at my brother, point to his face, and says, "Tatandaan kita!" And he tells me that my brother has a bad attitude and that I need to watch him. WHAT THE HELL?! So, my brother's bad for defending his father?!

We leave. We walk to the clubhouse to file a complaint. My brother asks for a doctor. My dad could barely walk. Their group comes to the clubhouse, sees my brother. Once again my brother pleads, says sorry, and is crying. He was CRYING, for crissakes. But no. The relentless mayor still punches him in the face, and then sees my dad and goes after my dad again. Him and his friend pull my dad to the ground, pulls at his feet, and steps on him like he's dirt. I run to him and try to hold him back, holding him back by his shirt, while this other guy and this girl tries to stop me. She tells me to just stop it. I scream in her face "they're beating my father up and you want me to stop?!" I pull at his shirt--I don't let go. All I can see was my dad being trampled on. I didn't even see my brother getting beat up.

People pull them away. I get my dad, and I saw my brother. His right ear was bleeding. I freaked out. I told the receptionists to bring my brother to the clinic. I pull my dad away. People were separating us.

My mom and my older brother come. I tell her Bino's right ear is bleeding. They both look like they could kill. My dad holds my brother off, I hold off my mom. When I finally got my mom under control, my older brother gets away and I hold him off. Two of the mayor's bodyguards pull out guns. I embraced my brother from the back, just holding him back, crying. The receptionists came to us, crying, hugging me, my dad, and my mom, whispering to us to just leave. "Maam, umalis na po kayo, may mga baril sila...Maam...umalis na po kayo please..."

I am pretty sure the Secretary of DAR did not take part in the fight, but he just watched all this happen. He watched two of his sons, as we figured out, the other guy was his son, too, beat up my father and my 14-year-old brother. He didn't do anything to stop it. And this person is what now? A cabinet member. A politician.

Sounds like something out of a movie, doesn't it? But this is what happened. TODAY. The day after Christmas. To my family. And all I ask for is JUSTICE. The people at Valley Golf did not seem to want to help us. None of the security guards even tried to stop the fight. Right in the clubhouse. I came back after the fight was over and talked to the receptionists. They say they did not see anything. The general manager of Valley Golf would not give us the names of the men who made my brother's ear bleed. It took him an hour. Maybe even more than that. He seemed to not want to help us. Because, we were against the SECRETARY OF THE DEPARTMENT OF AGRARIAN REFORM and the MAYOR OF MASIU CITY, LANAO DEL SUR. They were all scared.

The world has gone crazy. Two politicians beat up a defenseless 56-year-old father and his 14-year-old son. At a golf course. I swear to God, I thought golfers were decent people. You would think politicians were decent people. I guess not. I guess they gang up on 56-year-old men and beat up pleading 14-year-old kids.

Please pray for my dad, my brother and for my whole family. Please pray that we get JUSTICE. Oh God, please, give these people what they deserve.

http://vicissitude-decidido.blogspot.com/2008/12/world-is-fucked-up.html

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ggrrr.

parating na siya!

2008-12-24T23:49:00.000-08:00

home. :D

2008-12-21T15:40:00.000-08:00

gahd, i realized i haven't touched anything in here. yeah, i dropped by to greet my friend, but nothing new in here. so. before the break, before i lose the net, before i get really busy, imma blooooog!!! :) yaaaay!

what have i been up to lately?

- gazillion papers, projects and tests
PSYCHTESTING - we get scared everytime our prof opens her mouth because she begins to give us paper after paper, and homework after homework. last monday we took a test, STAR36, and we thought we were done, then she started telling us to make two reflection papers about it. "oh i think the test was amazing." that's all i could say. boo. and then our psych report is due next year, meaning we have to do it over the break. and then our group project which is to develop our own test, is also due next year. we have to come up with the items na. and then we have to go to this institution which uses psych tests and make a paper about it. SO. YEAH.
SOCIAL PSYCH - hated the test. 40 items identification. 20 point essay. stupid stupid.
INDUSTRIAL ORGANIZATION - oh i didn't understand the test. haha. even if i studied hard, i still wouldn't know what to say. hahahaha. but. hahahaha. i can do this. next test! hahahaha
HISTO- i love histo. long test next year, but chill. haha
PHILO - i loved our philo test! hahaha it was the first time i finished a whole chapter!! and i'm so proud of myself because i knew what i was saying in the test. this time, no bola. :)

my teachers decided to give it all before the break. which is okay so that i don't have to study over the break. except for histo though.

and then i have...
- NO SPEED LIMIT stuff
it's the funrun i'm heading for SPEED. so. there. everything's been a blur. just happening quickly. i did my first meeting... and i love my team. haha. i have to finish the paperwork.. marketing and stuff. i need sponsors! huhuhu

- NSTP
for the past 2 saturdays, i've been waking up early for this. but nevertheless, it has been fun. :) we're now handling grade5 kids which makes it funner! haha. compared to the grade1 kids we had last sem, they're definitely more discliplined. from 19 nstp students, we're down to 12. but that's okay. :) we're helping the kids produce a play for their recognition day. :)

- ISAW i could probably do papers, and finish my no speed limit stuff on my freetime, but no. i had to schedule these isaw dates with KAINGIN (gar, sob, shar, etc!) because it's worth it. UP ISAW is the best dirty isaw in the world! WOOOH

all the stuff i mentioned above has been eating my free time. the time during the day that i don't spend in the classroom.

of course, my evenings are blocked off. because i have...
UNANG BABOY SA LANGIT rehearsals. (i don't have pics!BOO)
rehearsals have been fun for the past weeks. :) blockings, music rehearsals, dance rehearsals. :) i love the Babuyan Island scene with Butsiki, Butsukoy, Beki, and Batik. I'm Luwela btw. haha
and i love the song "Awit ng Paglilinis" hahaha. i love the choreography too. i get confused sa "itaguyod naa!!!! itaguyod naaaaaa!" we suddenly forget to step back or go forward. haha

once again, it's cruuuuuunch time for the UBSL people. if you take away the christmas break, we're two weeks away till our critic's night. there are till songs to learn (oh dear) and dances to finish. i hope people get to rehearse over the break. WE NEED TIME.

i'm sorry dearies if i cannot go to rehearsals. i just think that i've given what i can for the meantime, and i think now, this break goes to my real biological family. Thank you ENTA for being my family and for making me feel at home. :) i truly know where my heart belongs to. and it belongs to him. CHENGKE!!!! it belongs to entablado. to the stage. :)

after rehearsals, we go to the BEL FIELD for some simbang gabi food. hahaha. belfield food is love. there's a-shop and jescom stuff, balot, dulcenitas, fish and co., isaw, puto bumbong, bibingka, lechon baka, fruitas, inengs, monster burger, rice toppings, and a lot more!!! the mass ends at 930, so us, since we don't get to go to mass because of rehearsals, we rush to the bel field before the stampede of the mass-goers begins. :D (boo i don't have pictures too)

i ended my week in manila with the formations(a committee in enta) picnic. which wasn't really a formations picnic because everyone who didn't have class was there. hahaha. it was fun.

what is jumpshot. HAHA

it's been 2 days palang, and now i already miss enta. especially jose, riz, jika, bianca, ate virr, sir jet!!!! dianne, pao and a lot lot lot more. i probably got used to seeing these people everyday, and now i miss them!! booo. can't wait to see you guys on jan!!! WOOH!

i slept at 230 and woke up at 4 to catch my 9am flight. HAHAHAHA. i love naia3.
the departure area had gonuts donuts so i bought a box of 3 pastillas de leche, yum. and then they had jamaican patties. :) cheezy beef is love. and i loved the walkalator. HAHAHAHAHA

i hate waiting. in all aspects of my life, i hate waiting. i texted kaylle that, and she replied "be patient". hahaha. i'll probably write a blog on waiting when i have a realization, but for now, i hate waiting. hahaha. i spent forever in the airport watching people, foreigners waiting to tan their skins red to bora, or kids running around. tried to sleep but i couldn't. i wanted to sleep in the plane. my flight got delayed. my family was already in the iloilo airport when my plane was about to leave. as soon as i sat down, i dozed off. i didn't even feel the plane leaving. i didn't even feel the plane landing. hahaha. i was asleep the whole time.

i'm so glad to be back home. i didn't think i could last for 7 long months in manila. but the stay there was great. and coming home never felt as good as this. :) the house looked the same, even after the flood. haha. everything looked good. :) my room still in place, i miss the feeling of staying at home. :)

my tita promised to give me my own QUESO DE BOLA when i got back. and true enough, she handed me this during dinner. oh and look. after just 2 days, this is what's left.

just the wax.
don't leave cheese lying around just anywhere. the next thing you'll know, it's gone. :)

i spent my first day eating cheese and sleeping forever and ever. when i woke up for dinner, i was sneezing, my eyes were all red, my nose was stuffy. i was sick again. i drank iterax, it's an effective medicine for all sorts of allergies but it makes you terribly sleepy. when you're already asleep, you're going to have a hard time waking up. :) i drink it when i don't have classes the next day or i don't have to do anything important early the next day. i had to drink iterax that night because i'd rather be sleepy than sneezy. (cool i just thought of that rhyme. HAHA)

on the same evening was ENTA SYMPOSIUM... enta's christmas party. BOO i missed it. i missed this party:
but i didn't miss THIS PARTY:
you think you're the only ones who know how to partay. hahaha. i MISSED THE AC GIRLS! WOOOOH!!! pototan you're up next!!! december 28!!! text me if you want to come with us!:)

what i'm up to now:
- just preparing the house for christmas. my mom has been the queen of the house, so she's cleaning up everything. EVERYTHING. she's throwing away the old vases which have been superglued back together, cleaning all the figurines, changed the screens of the windows, changed the coves of the sofas, she even wants to renovate the CR. hahaha. so i'm (trying to) help her. HAHAHA.
- TITA ATI, TITO JAP, ALYSSA AND AVA ARE COMING!!
i miiiiiiiisssss them so much!!!!! HAHAHHAHAHHAAHA i'm sooo excited naaaaaa!!
- BEACH. i don't know when but i know i'm going to the beach with my family first, and then with my friends! WOOOH
- LA CARLOTA / BACOLOD woooooh! it's been years!!!! the BAGAs SURE KNOW HOW TO SPEND THE NEW YEAR!!!!! that's why we're going there! WOOOOHHH!!!!
- POTOTAAAAN!!!!! i'm just excited. CHRISTMAS is not complete without going to POTOTAN!!! WOOOH!!!!!
- FOODTRIP. nuf said.
- missing him. CHENGKE! kidding. hahahaha

i'm so sure i'm going to have a great Christmas.
I HOPE YOU HAVE A HAPPY CHRISTMAS TOO!!!! ENJOY!!!!!

mr. paolo banaga

2008-12-14T03:07:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAO!!!!
(wag ka nang magalit na i used this pic. it was just too funny! haha)
ang tanda mo naaaa!

my Christmas Wishlist!

2008-12-02T22:47:00.000-08:00

here's the real wishlist. :)
(some items in here are copy pasted from my birthday wishlist, but mostly, these are new stuff. :)

- Guitar. i feel like a cavewoman. atat na akong kalabitin ang mga kwerdas ng gitara at ihabi ang mga salitang 'di mabitawan ng pusong naghihilom. (CHEKE) i wanna write songs na. for the longest time. i just feel that i can be good at playing guitar if i kept playing it. sigh. but must find space for the new baby first! hahaha

- a Magic 8 Ball. i really really really want one! i'm an indecisive person, and i could really use some help. i'll bring it everywhere i go. i don't have very good decision-making skills you know. HAHA. i'm not gonna rely on it all the time, it's just gonna. HELP ME. GIVE ME AN IDEA! hahahaha (oh if you want specifics, i want the HighSchool Musical Magic 8 Ball. same price!)
- hand-painted flats by Jika Regala. (look oh, your name sounds like Marc Jacobs, Vivienne Westwood, Rajo Laurel. HAHA) hey jeek, i know i've told you this before, and i haven't bought the shoes yet. HAHA. so. i love you. soooon!!

- Philippine All-Stars Special Edition Metallics: Rainbow on Black shirt. visit http://allstars2005.multiply.com/market to see their site. i'm a medium. HAHA

- A dogtag with the ball chain. why is it so hard to find one. i'm not after the engraving and stuff. well, yes maybe i want to engrave my name or something on it, but i can't find a decent dogtag. argh. i saw a pretty gold dogtag at the all stars' site too. of course, with the stars and the sun. it's pretty. but i don't think i want to spend 600 on just. a. dogtag. HAHAHA

- a charmbracelet. if i knew where to get the charms and the chains and stuff, i'd make my own. i want a personalized one. boohoo. i got this idea from jika though. charmbracelets with lockets so that i could see pictures of people around my wrist. cool noh?

- a laptop bag. my old laptop bag is pretty. if only it weren't heavy and if only it had more space so that i could put the wire, and the notebook cooler, and the mouse inside. because the only thing it could accomodate is the laptop. and a few papers. plus there's no handle, it's a sling bag. i don't like slings. it makes. the bag heavier. HAHA

- a lomo camera. i just want to take pretty pictures. :)

i don't know what it's called, i know there's different kinds of lomo cameras.. like fisheye and stuff... but i want the lomo camera that takes this kind of picture. help me figure it out. :)

pretty picture noh?

- internal hard disk drive. i just have sooo many files, i don't want to get rid of it all. burning it all into a dvd is just. hassle. what if i need something from my old files, i still have to find that cd?! i'm trying as hard as i can to minimize the files and photos i'm storing. i just need more. because i'm planning to change my system into Vista.

- anything that's CAREBEAR. :) you can be very specific too. :) *wink wink* HAHA

- but you can make me happy with anything that's CHEESE. :) the common cheese products that is. :) (please let me taste the blue cheese, and the smelly cheese at my own time. there will be time for that. HAHA) i eat anything with cheese. cheese floss, cheese naan, cheesecake, cheesebread, cheese, queso de bola, white cheese. you can skip the processed cheese, unless you're buying me one big slab (?!) of quickmelt. i'm good with that. HAHA

- a make-up brush set. :) i don't need the professional set, just the basics. :)
- but then what am i going to do with a brush set if i don't have the cosmetics?! hahaha what i need now is a blush-on and an eye-shadow palette. as much as possible i don't use liquid cosmetics because they irritate my skin. (nakakairita! HAHA)

- barbie/disney princesses/high school musical/carebear baonan with matching tumbler! because i think it's time i support the school's BYOB (Bring your own baunan) policy. HAHAHA. fun kaya, i mean. i don't know. the concept is just cool. hahaha. SAVING THE ENVIRONMENT!! SAVING THE ENVIRONMENT! :)

- Philosophy flavored lip shines, at any Beauty Bar branch! :) they come in different flavors!

(hahaha i posted all the flavors i wanted. HAHAHA i just saw these online so i don't know if they're all available in beauty bar. but i'm gonna collect, so i'm buying one per month. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ADIK.)

XPRES : Entablado's first ever applicants' production

2008-12-02T09:44:00.000-08:00

photo taken when i went back to the RMT for the strike-set. Meaning, we had to take out the stage, clean up the backstage and rehearsal room.

What's special about this production is that everyone is a newbie. The actors aren't the only people new at this. Entablado picked out newbies too to head the different committees. Everyone was new at this game. So were the directors.

The planning of this production took Entablado two years. And i think this is the most perfect time to put up a production like this, now when there are lots of newbies in ENTA. The good thing about it too was that the newbies from last year got to audition too. :) That was my batch. I was a newbie last year. :)

Jika Regala, my dear jikapoop, was also invited to join XPRES.
Old members who didn't really act during their stay in ENTABLADO were invited to join.
Thus Riz Paras as Dulce, Geoc Battad as Balae 1, Kayzee Fama as Manang, and etc.
(picture taken during one of the rehearsals. we were lipsynching "JUST STAND UP")

It's now December 3, 2008. Exactly 4 days since XPRES ended. and usually, it takes a week for everyone to heal from the prod fever. everyone has been blogging about XPRES and how they're bidding farewell to it. I've been thinking about how i'm going to blog about mine, and so this is it. This blog took me two days, and a gazillion of drafts to create a shorter but meaningful blog about XPRES. :)

photo by Cam Ronquillo, when i tried on St. Anthony's halo. :)

this is the shortest i can get, so forgive me if it seems lengthy. :)

I remember last year when they announced that the newbie production rehearsals were over the sembreak. This just broke my heart, as i was going to prepare for my debut that semestral break. It was an unfortunate news though for most of the people in ENTA when they learned that the newbie production could not be pushed through. For me, i was hoping that i'd be given a shot at this newbie production.

During the first semester, I remember during that EB (executive board) and deputies meeting when we were giving updates about the projects of each committee. When they brought up the newbie production, they were planning on allowing only the newbies of this year to join the production. Well, some of us didn't agree, and demanded, fought, spoke up that the newbies of last year should be allowed to audition for the newbie production.

Thank God, He let the stage welcome me.

XPRES poster

The newbie production was called XPRES, connoting how quick instances can be a catalyst and change our lives.

The whole production featured plays from the PETA Writers' Block's 10x10x10: Sampung Tigsasampung Minutong Dula ng Sampung Mandudula (Ten 10-minute plays by 10 playwrights)

I remember that day when i auditioned for the role of Eileen in Alvin Dacanay's Eyeball.

I wanted the role because i felt that should be easy for me. I believed i looked the part. I believed i could pull it off. I was so ready to be Eileen.

my good friend dianne scored the role of Eileen. and i must say she did a good job. :) Opening Night photo by Kevin Tatco

But instead, i saw this on the bulletin board the following day:

St. Anthony, Pray For Us ni Liza Magtoto
Toinette - Emelou Therese Gorecho

i quickly picked up a copy of 10x10x10 at the ENTA Room and scanned through toinette's lines. sure, i skimmed through the play, and even wanted to audition for the role of Angel in that play. But i didn't notice how long and monologue-ish toinette's lines were. This intimidated me. Perhaps because i was never good at memorization, and the whole thing was a monologue for me. I got through the first script reading, and the first script analysis before finals week started. After that, i left my script somewhere, and has not touched it till sembreak began. I tried memorizing the prayer so that it would appear "automatic" when i orate it on stage.

first day of our rehearsals. we still had our scripts.
we rehearsed at the Colayco Pavillion.

We kept rehearsing and rehearsing. I kept on postponing my rehearsals because i wanted to distract myself from depressing myself. I stayed for a whole month in the dorm, all alone. I stayed over the sembreak to rehearse for this newbie production, which, at first, didn't seem appealing.

one of the days when we used the SEC FOYER for rehearsals.

our director, Kuya Kalil, decided to put lipstick on our faces everytime we did something wrong. miss a line, wrong blocking, forget blocks and stuff. and yes. that was how messed up i was. HAHA

I was re-thinking if it was all worth it. I had to do something to distract myself from feeling depressed being away from my family, missing out on vacations and stuff. This went on for almost a month.

during the XPRES photoshoot. everyone was waiting for their turn.

with my co-actors, John Carlo Dulu as the Angel and Gabby Gonda as St. Anthony

When we moved in the Rizal Mini Theater, things began to change.
The date of our Opening Night moved closer and closer. Tension was in the air.

we each had our own spaces in the long table. and if you know me well enough, you'd notice my spot over there. where my inhaler is. :)

a few times during the production i've probably lost passion in what i've been doing. I probably have said a few times that this was a wrong move, that i should've never stayed in the first place. And that probably, theater is not for me. i've been through good runs, and bad ones... i've lost my voice, got sick, had petty misunderstandings, and problems and stuff. before opening night, i still didn't really understand how i've managed to stay up to that point.

Opening Night photo by Kevin Tatco St. Anthony, Pray For Us was the first play of the opening night. technically, the play opened the production. pressure. but i think i handled it quite okay. haha

during the ENTABLADO plevsem, we were asked to write a one-liner "blog" on paper and have people comment on it. my last phrase was: "...i hope it's all worth it." and people who commented on the blog seemed to have a common theme... that because i chose to do it, it means it's worth something.

Like Toinette, thank you for letting me find myself too. XPRES. photo by kevin tatco

"...thank you sa lahat ng tao na kasama ko ngayon sa bilog na ito. salamat sa pagpapakita sa akin na ang lahat ng ito ay totoong worth it..." (thank you to everyone gathered in this circle... thank you for showing me that all this is truly worth it.) - this was the first time i spoke in a BILOG althroughout my stay in enta... this was also during XPRES' last show.

XPRES, thank you for proving to myself that i can be more. photo by Kevin Tatco

"...sa pangungulila, higit na nadarama ang halaga..."
- Sir Jethro Tenorio on my PLEVSEM blog

Thank you XPRES for being my family.

photo taken after the first gala night. everyone was in bliss. it was a succesful night. :)

During the sembreak, i've been desperate for some family loving. I've stayed over my tita's house, traveled to and fro Tandang Sora to visit my other tita, and worry sick about my lola who got hospitalized, and my sickly little sister. I've been desperate for some family loving, that i have failed to see you guys as my family too.

"...eh minsan naman kasi nasa harap na niya, di pa niya makita!!"
- Angel, St. Anthony Pray for Us
My family. :)

Thank you XPRES for making me feel at home. for making me feel secured and safe in the corners of the stage. Thank you for making me feel that i belong. Thank you for every single day that we have spent in preparing this production. This is the prod that we can truly say it was "ours". Every 10 minutes spent during the preparation of this production has been special. People have put in their efforts, time, talent, passion just to create this. XPRES is OURS. :) It was OUR TIME.

the whole XPRES team.
it was OUR time. :)

Most people think that theater is a lair of lies. People go on stage to pretend to be someone they're not. It's all fictional. Nothing is real.

The XPRES stage set design by Jesus Joseph Ignacio (http://jesusignacio.multiply.com/) photo by Kevin Tatco

No, i don't think so. I think theater is a beautiful avenue for expressing the truth. People just want to see what they want to see. That's the beauty of it all, that theater is able to send across it's message subtly. It's not just a hobby, or a sideline, or something to do with your free time. It's a lifestyle. It's not a joke having to juggle academics, theater and one's own life altogether. But i guess it's what theater people get from this love and passion for this art that makes them stay.

It was a fun journey. Now i'll always know that wherever i am, the stage is always my home. That ENTABLADO will embrace me for whoever i am or for whatever i chose to be. That despite the lack of an intimate relationship with the opposite sex, i will always be contented with my life, with my family, my friends, and theater. :) Thank you for showing me that, XPRES. :)

Thank you to everyone who have made XPRES a very memorable experience.
I cannot believe it's all over.
But i guess this is just the beginning of something better. :)

Thank you
Kuya Kalil, Dolly, Gabby, Jose, Fred, Ekha, Harald, Geoc, Ryuji, Jika, Riz, Judge, Pedro
Leinard, Danica, Papa Z, Kz, Miguel, Karl Louie, Yves, Terri, Jen, Meeyo, Pam, Portia
Pat, Dianne, Robert, Mich, Cute, Vian, Omar, Ia, Bruce, Cam, Condom, Tonio, Lem
Sir Jet, Sang, Miko, Dick
Pao S., Nicole, Aaron, Karl Beki, David Beki, Bianca, Say, Andrei, Sam, Kaila, Mike

if i forgot anyone, forgive me. :) i love you all.

December 1, 2008

2008-12-02T09:37:00.000-08:00

Some of the cast from ENTA's UNANG BABOY SA LANGIT (www.entablado.co.cc) went to Mang Jimmy's for dinner after the rehearsals. If any of you guys live near Katipunan, or in UP Diliman, they said it's impossible for you to miss it. HAHA. Apparently, that was my first time in Mang Jimmy's, and in fairness, they serve good "lutong-bahay" food at very affordable prices. (especially when you're with 20 people) Mang Jimmy's is the place to be!!!! :)

After dinner, some of us headed to Trinoma to catch Twilight. I wasn't a fan or anything, it's just like watching Spiderman or Batman even if you're not really into it. You're just into the "fad". hahaha.

Sir Ariel mentioned earlier that the moon was making a smiley face with Jupiter and Venus. The two planets were beside each other, and the moon coincidentally situated itself under the two planets. It was a pretty sight.

like karl louie fajardo's blog, it's a beautiful reminder for us to smile. :)

still up.

2008-11-28T08:25:00.000-08:00

gahd.
one rough night.

when i got off that stage, i just didn't feel good about it. i knew something was wrong, although i did all my blocks right, tried to stop the crib from falling, tried my very best to take care of my baby and treat it like a human, missed just one line and managed to keep my voice intact even if it felt like cracking toward the end of the play...

i got of that stage with a heavy heart, and a part of me knew why, a part didn't understand why, a part of me was confused.

i must say, for me, that was one of the "clean" runs dolly, gabby and i ever did.
still, it didn't feel right.

got through the company call smiling a little, clapping with my prodmates, laughing at little...
trying to stop the tears.

i was planning to detach myself from the world for awhile..not blog in my multiply... not go online.. do my homeworks... get through with blue christmas tomorrow and just get my mind off the recent show. i just wanted to get away.

it was a long walk home, really. from the RMT to ISO. it was the longest walk home i've encountered so far. i was starting to doubt whether i was in the right place, whether i had made the right choices, whether i was good at this or not. i was thinking about quitting, or maybe leave for awhile, or find something else... i don't know. i just didn't trust myself anymore.

i'm gonna prove myself wrong.
tomorrow.
i do trust myself.
i believe that this is all worth it.

gahd.

2008-11-28T05:33:00.000-08:00

GOD. BRING ME HOME. I BEG YOU.

XPRES. :)

2008-11-27T09:13:00.000-08:00

we just had the best show ever!!! ever since we started a week ago. :)
and i'm very very very proud to say that although sick, i did quite well, even better during the show awhile ago. :)

(gahd. by blogging this, it only means i'm procrastinating again, with the million of stuff i have to do. and i need rest.)

Balang Araw did a great job on stage.

I hope St. Anthony can top that. :)

i'm positive we will. :)

and in desperation, i finally went to the doctor to have myself checked up. it has been a long time since i last visited my doctor. haha. i like going to tito rey's clinic because he doesn't make me feel bad about my condition, unlike some doctors there. and he explains to me everything i need to know about my condition. which is. wonderful. :)

and so. here i am again, on medication.
he put me on steroids for 2 weeks. (dianne and gabby, quit insisting that i'll grow an adam's apple and have a deeper voice, because it doesn't make sense. i don't think steroids work that way. HAHA) and he said, if the symptoms of my usual allergies don't go away, i'll have to continue with the steroids. not only that, i'm back on seretide. seretide is just the expensive inhaler that i used to have. i like seretide because i don't get asthma attacks in like, 4 days. so yeah.

(this is educational) coz he explained that asthma attacks go in two ways: the blocking of the airway, the swelling of that membrane of the airway, which simply makes one have difficulty in breathing. the other one is the late phase of the asthma... there's inflammation and stuff involved... not only does the membrane around the airway swell, there are stuff in the airway that clogs it. swelling+clogging=hep hep hooray! making air difficult to pass through. and apparently, that's what's happening to me now.

i've been using my ventolin inhaler for maintenance. as what i've always known, i'm supposed to use it WHENEVER I NEED IT. apparently, my doctor thought "that's bad." because the ventolin pump should be used only every 4 hours. and taking it 3-4 times an hour is really. bad.

so tadaaa. :)

hey, a plus to why i can never be a nursing student. baka ako pa inurse ng pasyente ko. :) haha

Atty. Nick Pichay watched the show today, and he loved it!!!!!! :) Thank you for watching!
For a newbie production, i must say, WE'RE DOING REALLY WELL. :)
(newbie actors, directors, committee heads, etc)

i heard a few other playwrights are watching our remaining shows, and i hope the other plays do well too. GOOD LUCK TO ST.ANTHONY PRAY FOR US! gahd.

i've been thinking about this for awhile, i've shared it to others as well.
how a playwright must feel seeing his/her play being brought to life. :)
putting myself in the shoes of a playwright, and maybe i will be more biased because i'm a newbie at writing plays (no, my hs plays were. a blah. haha),
i'd feel honored and consider it as a favor for me, that these people are staging my play..
i'd be ecstatic seeing the characters born out of my imagination, coming to life on stage, seeing them in the flesh... hearing them...
i'd be roused hearing the background music, the sounds, the lights of the play i've written..
i'd be thrilled to see how the director understoof my play, and how he/she brought it to life.

this reminded me of the play i was writing for entablado's writers' bloc. :)

(i love this photo. this is going to be the cover)

i'm actually more excited seeing it on stage than finishing it. HAHA.
i'm not yet done, not even halfway, not even 1/4. HAHA.
scene 1. that's all i have. out of 8? i forgot.
it's a short one act play. a psychothriller. watch out for it. :)

to be able to see it on stage, i have to actually finish it. so yeah, i WILL finish it. :)

gahd i love theater. :)
it rouses me. :)

ano nga ba ang pwedeng mangyari sa loob ng 10 minuto?

2008-11-23T09:37:00.001-08:00

hindi ko hiniling na mahalin mo ako.

2008-11-23T09:28:00.001-08:00

Kahit ilang electric fan, stand fan at aircon ang nasa bahay mo, mahirap palamigin ang isang mainit na ulo.

Kailangan mo pa bang magkape sa umaga kapag ang headline naman ng iyong araw ay sobrang shocking talaga?

Ano ang halaga ng isang pangako kung wala naman itong anumang bahid ng katapatan?

Buhay ka bang talaga kung puro lihim na lang ang bumubuo sa pagkatao mo?

Wala na ang lahat sa iyo. Kanino ka pa tatawag kung puro answering machine na lang ang sumasagot sayo?

Maghihintay ka ba hanggang sa taong 3000 para lang iwanang muli?

Paano mo ipapakita ang iyong pag-ibig sa isang taong hindi naman tumitingin sa direksyon mo?

Maaangkin mo pa ba ang bahagi ng buhay mo na nabili na ng iba?

Aaasa ka pa ba sa katotohanan kung ang katotohanang iyon, pag nagpakita na sa iyo, ay hindi mo pala gusto?

Hanggang saan mo madadala ang sarili mo para lang makakuha ng trabaho?

***

Xpres
Nobyembre 27, 28 (7pm)

Nobyembre 29 (3pm at 7pm)

Php 120

Rizal Mini Theater

Ateneo de Manila University

xpres2008.multiply.com

ANG TANGING HILING KO LANG AY PANOORIN MO ANG DULANG ITO.

St. Anthony, Pray for Us ni Liza Magtoto

2008-11-23T09:21:00.000-08:00

alam ko.

manood ng XPRES para malaman mo rin.

burara ka ba?
palagi bang may nawawala sayo?
kaw kasi, kung saan saan ka tumitingin, anjan lang naman sa harap mo.
(andito lang naman ako sa harap mo. BILANG PERSONAL TRUTHS. hahaha!)

ST. ANTHONY, PRAY FOR US
ni Liza Magtoto

patron saint for the recovery of things lost.

panoorin para malaman kung pano sha icontact.

bahagi ako ng play na ito, bilang si toinette,
ang single mother na burara.
tulungan si toinette na mahanap ang totoo niyang hinahanap!!!!

INIHAHANDOG NG ENTABLADO
ang XPRES
Nov 27, 28, 29 7pm
Nov 29 3pm
RIZAL MINI THEATER, AdMU

tampok ang mga dulang

St. Anthony, Pray For Us (ANDITO AKO!)
Balang Araw (ANDITO RIN AKO!)
Isang Libong Tula Para Sa Dibdib ni Dulce
Eyeball
Trabaho Soliloquies
SBF (Single Brown Female)
Walang Iwanan
Over A Cup of Coffee
Tingnan Natin ang Mukha Niya
Nang Dahil Sa Init

10 PLAYS
5 PERFORMANCES PER SHOWDATE
8 SHOWS

sa halaga ng P120.
OH DIBA. MURANG MURA LANG!!!!!

KUNG GUSTO MO AKONG MAPANOOD, ay nako, nagtanong pa ako, i know you want to.

ito ang showdates ng St. Anthony, Pray For Us:
November 27, 7pm
November 29, 7pm

showdates ng Balang Araw:
November 28, 7pm
November 29, 7pm

SUPPORT ENTABLADO'S NEWBIE PRODUCTION!!!!
for tickets, CONTACT ME!!!!
timee gorecho iamtimee@yahoo.com

visit www.xpres2008.multiply.com for more details

XPRES behind the scenes

2008-11-22T16:55:00.000-08:00

i don't know how to blog this, so. i'm just gonna post pictures and stuff. :)

so the reason why i haven't blogged was because i was busy with XPRES.
It's ENTABLADO's first ever applicant's production. :)

i'm part of the play BALANG ARAW written by Chris Martinez

CAST:
Pumpkin - Jose Tanjuan
Mama - Ekha Villasanta
Papa - Harald Tomintz
Balae 1 - Geoc Batad
Balae 2 - Timee Gorecho
Kardinal - Jika Regala
Sakristan - Ryuji Santisteban
Cupcake - Fred Herrera
Ninong Alien - Gabby Gonda
Make Up Artist - Dolly Dulu

jika regala in her decent red kardinal costume. :)

mama and balae 2. :)

dolly and timee in BALANG ARAW costumes. :)

i did my make up all by myself mom!!! haha

ninong alien as gabby gonda. ay. HAHA!

But the play where i play lead in is St. Anthony, Pray For Us.

internalizing my 'stressed' and 'tired' role.

I play the role of toinette, a 'burara' single mother who is desperate in searching for peace of mind. She has an angel, sent by St. Anthony, who is following her around and helping her find stuff. :) WATCH!!! My shows are on the 27th and 29th. :)

CAST:
Toinette - Timee Gorecho
Angel - Dolly Dulu
St. Anthony - Gabby Gonda

"...alam kong wala jan si ate marites, pero pwede ko po ba sanang iwan yung baby ko sa inyo??"

"hindi ka rin pala papayag!!!"

"ang hinahanap ko lang naman sa tatay mo ay siya mag palit ng lampin mo habang nagtitimpla ako ng kape niya!"

"tingin niya lang sa anak, kalaro. yon ang idea niya ng quality time. gusto niya 5 years old ka na, 5 years old kasi ang isip niya! "

"di niya alam na bago magiging 5 ay magiging 1, 2, 3!!"

"hello mrs. crespo, si toinette po ito maam... baka mamayang hapon nalang po ako papasok.. kasi po.. kasi po... may LBM po ako maam!"

*silence*

November 22 - Saturday
i didn't have a show so i spent my morning till around 5pm with my tita and tito. :) i went to richmonde hotel in ortigas to meet them, ate breakfast, and while they fixed their stuff ready for check out, i slept. i was sooo tired. HAHA. then we went to trinoma to eat again. HAHA. went around. we were fetched by tita bebet's driver, and they took me back to ateneo just in time for the Gala Night.

The Gala Night plays were
Eyeball by Alfonso Dacanay (who by the way watched the play)
SBF or Single Brown Female by Jose Victor Torres
Tingnan Natin ang Mukha Niya by Nicolas Pichay
Nang Dahil Sa Init by Rody Vera
Walang Iwanan by +Rene Villanueva

I was an SM that night. (Stage Manager!) wooh. and. i must say. WE DID A GREAT GREAT GREAT JOB. the set changes were clean and quick. we were very organized. we did well. :) hoooray! i hope we get the same notes on our company call. :)

Every Gala Night of any production, everyone on the prod gets to bow, from the production team, artistic team, to the plays that didn't perform that night. :) everyone was required to wear black and red that night. :) i was in my black attire because i was an SM right. but i was very resourceful with my red accessory. :)

i pulled a lindsay lohan. PETA is going to kill me.

design by Tanjuan

concept by Gorecho

now below is a picture of me and dolly on the set of St. Anthony.
notice anything. familiar? HAHA

HAHAHA i'm creative like that. and yes, i bowed looking like that. :) it looks like a real coat noh? thank you to my sponsors, Stage and Props Committee, design by Tanjuan, concept by Gorecho. :) HAHAHAHA

here are other pics from the backstage. :)

how the RR (rehearsal room, where we do our make up and costume changes) looks like. :)

condom lafuente showing off his boobies. :) they're new. :)

miko amante wearing kardinal's. uhh. hat? cap? crown? haha

Nang Dahil Sa Init cast
(L-R Terri, Yves, Miguel, Meeyo, Jen, Karl)

boyfriends. nicole being the boy. HAHAAHA kidding. Nicole our make up and costumes head, and Vian. just a bystander. KIDDING VIAN. :) playing the role of Gervis in the play Trabaho Solliloquies. :)

David Cammayo. bow.

After the gala night, we exited the theater and found, i dunno, 4? 5? boxes of KRISPY KREME DONUTS. everyone hoarded over the donuts!!! THANK YOU VIAN FOR THE DONUTS! WOOH!

the donuts weren't the only ones hoarded by people. we were all camera-hungry, so wherever the camera was, specifically ekha's camera, everyone crowded to that place. HAHA.

Sopas Sisters! Dianne, Timee (my eyes wide open), Ekha

Kuya Kalil's Cast!
from the plays Isang Libong Tula Sa Dibdib ni Dulce, St. Anthony Pray For Us and Balang Araw!

jose tanjuan as mich nebres' eye patch. :)

camera hungry people. :)

just happy happy happy people. :)

see. i told you everyone was rushing to the camera. spot me.

now can you find me? whattafez. HAHA

what. the.

totoy and angel. :)

just one of the pictures where people didn't have to rush to the camera. :)

condom, eli, mich, dianne and timee. i just popped my head in. HAHA

after everything, i grabbed ekha's camera and took a photo of myself.
no one rushing, no one in the picture but me. HAHA

We went to querico after for dinner and some. social drinking. HAHA but i didn't drink. :) neither did jer. because we were good kids. :) saving our liver for PROD PARTEY!!! YAHOOO!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA we went home early too, cam brought us back to ateneo at around 11:30.

here's the coolest thing ever. jer and i walked back to the dorm. outside the gate of our dorm, we found this snail creeping silently and slowly, so i did what i was dying to do ever since forever. (also the reason why i bought salt for the dorm). because mika, my ex-roommie said that if you sprinkle salt all over a snail, it will burn. and die.

oh it didn't burn. HAHAHAHAHA. i sprinkled lots and lots and lots of salt. it didn't burn. boo. it just died. i don't know why, it just died. jer and i took a twig and flipped the critter around to see his other side, the one not covered by the shell. no. it wasn't moving. nada.

may his soul rest in peace.

it was a good night. :)

Entablado's newbie production XPRES

2008-11-21T07:08:00.000-08:00

i haven't blogged in a week. ?
what's keeping me busy lately is ENTABLADO'S applicant's production XPRES. :)
i'm not a newbie/applicant, it's just that last year, the newbie production wasn't able to push through because of failed plans and stuff. BUT NOT THIS YEAR!

this was the moment we've all been waiting for since last year,
and now it's finally happening. actually, it already happened yesterday at our opening night. :)
St. Anthony and Balang Araw, both plays i'm in, opened yesterday and had a good show. :)

it's just ironic that i'm blogging about XPRES just now, now that the show awhile ago wasn't really a "good" show. but nevertheless, i saw my improvement in St. Anthony, and i plan/should/must/will keep it up and even better for the remaining two shows. :) i can't believe i'm halfway done. since each play gets to perform 4 times for the whole production, St. Anthony and Balang Araw is halfway done, with 2 shows left. :)

Lord.
this is the production that i've sacrificed a lot for. i stayed for a month here in Manila, went on a whole month not seeing my family, deprived of vacation and stuff. and now i'm halfway done. i just hope that by the end of this production, i could completely say it was all worth it. :)

so far, i'm happy with the way things are.
my academics. despite the intense rehearsals (even rehearsing whenever we have free time and even on our own), i have not neglected my studies. my first quiz ever for this semester was an 8 over 10. Which was not bad for someone who DID NOT READ A HUNDRED PAGED ASSIGNMENT. :) well maybe because the test was easy, and required only common sense and stock knowledge. :)

my health is doing fine. before, i was so afraid that during the show itself, i'd have an asthma attack and just stop the run (knock on wood). Thank God, it has not happened, AND I HOPE IT DOESN'T HAPPEN ANYTIME in the future. :) even though i take a few puffs right before i enter the stage, i have not experienced difficulty with my breathing. :) even my nose! usually i have a cold, which is why i could not smell anything most of the time. but now, my nose is perfectly fine.

basically, i'm doing okay. :)
tomorrow i'm meeting my tita and tito somewhere in ortigas.
been desperate for some family lovin. :)

will be posting photos of the play soon. :)

my first week in recap!

2008-11-15T18:44:00.000-08:00

it was a normal first week. felt like a normal day with lots of readings, homeworks and stuff to do.
however what made it more fun was that it was my birthweek, we transferred to the Rizal Mini Theater and we rehearsed everyday for two productions, XPRES and UNANG BABOY SA LANGIT. :)

Monday - November 10

I turned 19! I wore a simple dress to school, went to all my classes from 930 a.m. till 7:30 in the evening, but good thing the teachers didn't really end their classes on time, since it was the first day. :) I met my history, philo, psych testing and io teacher that day... the only teacher i haven't met was my social psych teacher. :) (her classes being a TTH class only.:) I prepared a basket of candies for ENTA and left it in the Enta room. When i went back after my lab class, what was left was a handful. WOOH. haha. After my io class, i went straight to the Unang Baboy rehearsals. :)
When i went home, i celebrated with my roommies and called up Yellow Cab for pizza. :) see, nothing really special about my day. :)

Tuesday - November 11
Lei and i met up at Xavier to pay for our tuition... After that i waited for Gar till 10:30 because we were going to gateway to have our 1x1 id picture taken. :) and then we went to our psych testing lecture class, and then to our social psych class. our socpsy prof, Dr. Miren Intal was nice. She reminded me of Dr. Ramos during our perso class, soft-spoken, kind, and quizzes every start of the chapter (which is probably every meeting). :)

AFter classes, i went straight to the RMT to prepare for rehearsals. and look who i saw.

WELCOME BACK PAO!!!!! WE MISSED YOUUU!!! :)

we rehearsed on stage for St. Anthony, and then i rushed to the Unang Baboy rehearsals. :)

Wednesday - November 12
Argh. History. i cannot believe that he's asking us to pass an outline of our research paper on Monday. THAT EARLY? but. but. but. okay. after, we went to our philo and our prof was still talking about first sem and second sem topics. haha. because i'm a natural stalker (meaning, i don't intentionally stalk, the stalking just comes naturally. hAHA) i now know the names of my lover seatmates, Ralph and Galvin. HAHA will take a snapshot for you when i get the chance. HAHA

you see, Galvin and Ralph seem smart and kwatro kids and all that. But i don't see them taking notes, or even listening to our philo prof during class. hahaha. what do they do in class? well, it's either they're playing tictactoe, or studying their matrices for their math class. math majors i guess. they're so close (literally) they look like an item. :) aww. but ever since the start of the sem, i haven't seen Ralph, the one beside me. Gar was telling me to ask Galvin (wait, if you think i know them personally or acquainted with them, no. i just saw their names on the seat plan. HAHA) where Ralph was. for the first few minutes i didn't want to because Galvin might think i like Ralph. HAHAHAHAHAHA. and was looking for him because i missed him. HAHA I'M TORPE LIKE THAT. hahaha. but no. i'm not torpe. i asked Galvin just before the class ended. HAHAHAHA Ralph was still in class but sat somewhere else... oooohhh. LQ? hahahaha

After our Philo class, me, lei, gar, deni, oli and keshia went to Trinoma and had lunch at CPK! had pizza and pasta and stuff.
AND THEN. AND THEN. HUHUHUHU THEY SURPRISED ME WITH THIS!!!!!! HUUHUH.
THANK YOU FRIENDS. you don't know how much i loved it. WOOH!!

we went around trinoma, found these cute toys that moved and danced around. lei and deni went crazy over them. HAHA. we went back to ateneo around 4:30, i was running late for rehearsals. Ricky Abad was watching the runs. huhuhu. pressure. after, i went to the Unang Baboy rehearsals. :)

Thursday - November 13

It was a Riz, Timee, Portia, David, Omar, Mitzi DAY! We ordered Pizza for everyone. HAHA. And then a cake arrived at the RMT addressed to Riz, Portia, Timee, David and Omar! love SECRET ADMIRER. whoever you are, thank you. :) ang sarap ng chocolate caaake! :)

nothing really special that day, i was just wearing my carebear shirt. that's all. :)
oh oh oh, and.
freudian slips. :) :) :) :) define please. HAHA

Friday - November 14
NO CLASSES FOR ATENEO YO!!! WOOOH!!! It was Faculty Day!! But i attended the RE-KAP of Enta SocPol... left after lunch to interview winnie for our psych testing psychological report... and then went to rehearsals.

Now here's the funny thing. Because the other day at rehearsals, our director SIR kalil almonte shot us with a watergun everytime we made a mistake. But today, for every mistake we made, he would mark our faces with lipstick. HAHA.

St. Anthony, Pray For Us first few runs

AND BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING, MY ROLE ISN'T THAT EASY! IT'S A BIG MONOLOGUE AND I'M TALKING ALL BY MYSELF IN THE PLAY, AND I HAVE TO MOVE THE CRIB AROUND! so before you say that i'm not doing a good job, take note, the job is not even easy!!!!! hahahahaha

i went to the unang baboy rehearsals, but realized that i didn't have a part in the scenes, so i waited for jose and the other people to finish, had dinner at KENNY ROGERS with pao s., kalil, nicole, jose, kate, cam, omar and karl louie. hahaha. don't even ask what happened over dinner. HAHA it's OVER. haha

that's it. nothing special. just went to rehearsals and stuff. :)
it was a good first week. :)

watch XPRES!!!!!!
Nov20,21,22,27,28,29 7pm Nov 22 & 29 3pm!
my shows are on Nov20,21,27 and 29!
so please please please watch and support the newbies of ENTABLADO!!!!

an addition to our family!

2008-11-12T06:14:00.000-08:00

welcome to the world, CeeBee!

my friends deni, gar, lei and oli surprised me with this CUUUUUTE carebear stuffed toy!!!
i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!!

THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH.
SUPER.

here's the family!!!!! (chip is not here anymore... his owner took him away. haha)

help a virgin!

2008-11-11T07:30:00.000-08:00

please help a virgin!

open this site www.helpavirgin.com

and read his short story.
that's it, if you don't want to read, that's okay, just visit his site. :)
and tell your friends! HAHAHA

on turning 19.

2008-11-10T05:39:00.000-08:00

outside mvp318-enta room.
with the redpants twins gabby and dianne. :)

oh dear, it's true. "getting younger" is not possible. my ym stat the other night said "who's turning a year younger tomorrow?!!?" booo. then i remember this riddle in gradeschool, in Filipino class "ano ang laging nadadagdagan pero hindi nababawasan." or something. HAHA. I FORGOT. okay. (gahd, i'm growing old. haha) and of course, the answer is banana.

KEEEEEDDING. hahahahah. AGE. :)
is it even possible to celebrate your debut this year and turn 17 next year? haha. maybe in other galaxies, but not in this one. hahaha.

and so today, i woke up at 730 to prepare for my 930 class. my monday schedule is very hectic.
930-1030 Rizal and the Emergence of the Filipino Nation
1030-1130 MY ONLY BREAK FOR THE DAY
1130-1230 Philo 102
1230-0430 PsychTesting LAB
0430-0730 Industrial Psychology...

and starting now till the end of january, i will be having rehearsals everyday. This November, i will be having two rehearsals. so everyday, XPRES (ENTA's newbie prod) rehearsals are from 430-730, followed by Unang Baboy Sa LAngit rehearsals at 730 till God knows when.

History was good. Sir Gealogo. We didn't know his class was in Filipino. His is the only history165 class in FILIPINO. and while struggling with Philosophy in FILIPINO, i have to struggle with this too. not that i suck at Filipino, (in fact i get better grades in Filipino than in English). it's just that. i UNDERSTAND better when in English. oh well. i can deal with it. :)

Philosophy was okay. as usual, we didn't discuss anything. he just went on and on about what happened last semester and what's going to happen this semester. :)

oh, and gar surprised me with my favorite Iced White Chocolate Mocha and Strawberry Belgian Waffle both from starbucks. THANK YOU GAR! :) and i saw cutie again. good thing he didn't get transfered to another philo class, and that he's still in the same philo class. :) weewoo!

Psychological Testing LAB was good. i can't believe she used up all the 3 hours for the first class. oh well. we were productive anyway. she started discussing the class syllabus of both lecture and lab... we picked our groupmates for the group projects and then picked a partner for the psychological report... deni&oli forever, gar&lei. and so i quickly asked winnie if she had a partner already. HAHAHAHAHA. well well well. zoology all over again. But having winnie as my partner doesn't mean i'm gonna freeload everything. HAHA. if she wants, i can do most of the work. HAHAHAHA. after, our teacher handed out this booklet... it was a personality test of some sort, and we all took it for about half an hour. And then we exchanged answer sheets with our partners for her to check it... out of 46, i scored 38 on extraversion. which was shocking actually because i'm a shy person. :) (OKAY DON'T PROTEST. shyataaap!) we spent the rest of the period interpreting our partner's answers, AND WE DIDN'T GET TO FINISH PA HA. hhahahaha.

Industrial Psychology... teacher was nice. HAHA. oh oh, and. we had to pick our groupmates too. HAHAHA. no comment. hahahaha. one of our groupmates was TOO EXCITED on our topic: occupational health. HAHAHA.

(now that i've blogged about it, i feel like a real junior already. terms are too technical. too psych haha)

After my class, i went straight to the Unang Baboy rehearsals... it was expected of us that we have already memorized our lines over the break. BOO. i didn't. was too preoccupied with XPRES. sigh. i don't even know if i'm gonna survive rehearsing one play after the other. haha. BUT I CAN DO THIS.

i'm gonna use my planner, for the remaining two months of it.
mingkay asked me awhile ago how my birthday was, and i just answered "stressful".
because after this day, i had to think about everything i was doing during the semester and to condition myself that i HAVE TO ACCOMPLISH EVERYTHING without sabotaging my academics.

Here's a list of what i have to. do well? accomplish? survive?
- HISTORY. read read read read read. just friggin read. that's all i hafta do to survive.
- PHILO. read. just friggin read the handouts. or LISTEN INTENTLY. please.
- PSYCH TESTING. overwhelming workload i tell you. super overwhelming. it's like experimental psychology times 3. so. i have to be OC and keep things in order. and not freeload.
- INDUSTRIAL ORGANIZATION. many groupworks. must keep myself involved. participative. reciting in class. (reciting isn't really my thing. but will try to)
- haven't met my social psych teacher yet, but i bet socpsy will be fun.
- XPRES at the end of november. no actually it's next week already. so. this is it. i just have to convince my stagefright to GO AWAY.
- Unang Baboy sa Langit rehearsals. schedule is very tight. we have over a month to complete everything. all the acts, all the scenes, all the songs, all the dance numbers. so. *jumps off a building*
- NO SPEED LIMIT preparation. oh dear. i just have to keep myself together and remind myself that i still have this project. everything will go according to plan. go timee!
- NSTP. i can do it.

oh oh, and this semester, i'm not gonna text in class. for 2 years now, it's been a habit. and now i'm breaking it. FOR MY OWN GOOD. kamon i can do it. haha

i went home after our rehearsals, bought pizza for my roommates and then went straight to blogging. tita cynch was asking how my birthday went, and i just replied "it's a normal special day" whatever it meant. haha

but no really. i think.

pinky asked me the same thing too, and i guess i gave her a more elaborative explanation. you know the feeling that this day is supposed to be a special day, that you know this is different from the rest of the days of the year... your heart beats differently (it did today), you look at things differently (more perky, cheerful, sunshiny, happy)... you feel like you're flashing a different kind of smile today (it felt that way), you feel like floating (i felt like that today)...

but more of the feeling that it's just a normal day? because i felt like that today. i knew it was a special day for me. but i felt normal. if not for the greetings and me feeling more sunshinier... it would've been just a normal day. :) (except for one thing. someone said something today. HIHI.) and i don't have a problem with that, it's just that. because i feel that way today, i feel that this day, november 10, 2008 has been the most unusual birthday i've ever had. :)

maybe because. ugh i don't wanna say this.

maybe because. as pinky put it, my "party" phase is over.
at one point in everyone's life, you get to say "i'm too old for birthday parties". (well, parties in the sense that you have to invite EVERYONE you know, that you have to make it a BIG celebration, that you have to plan it months before.)
you might say that i'm too young to be feeling that way. yes, because i know i'm not too old for birthday parties. but.

A debut is probably the last BIG and EXPECTED and CELEBRATED birthday party a girl can have. well. she can opt to have a grand celebration of her birthday every year. but. if you think about it, typically, what's special about turning 19? or 23? or 42? or 61? it doesn't generally mark anything. (well, maybe there are exceptions. i don't mean ALL BIRTHDAYS. haha.) it just says you're a year older.

and now, a year after my debut, i'm thinking. this is it. my party phase is over. i'm done demanding for a huge celebration from my parents. i'm gonna celebrate soon using the money i will be getting from hard work. I'M NOT A KID ANYMORE!!!! :( HUHUHUHUH.

that's just the point of how i'm feeling. i'm just not a kid anymore.
it doesn't really make me sad or anything, it's just. sinking in.
and the more it sinks in, the more i realize that i have to think about things in the future.
that there are other things to think of than rehearsals... than blogging... than deciding whether i should get a haircut or not... than planning my outfit for the day...
there's just more to life.

and i guess turning 19 introduces me to this "moreness"
nevertheless, i'm ready. :) BRING IT ON. :)

but one thing i know for sure. :)

I WILL NEVER BE TOO OLD FOR BIRTHDAY PARTIES. :)
it's mah birthday! we're gonna party like it's mah birthday!!! we're gonna sip bacardi like it's my birthday!!! WOOOH

CHEESE.

2008-11-09T05:04:00.000-08:00

ever since i was small, i have always been a fan of cheese. when my tita takes out quickmelt from her ref for snacks, i don't put it on bread, or eat it with crackers. i eat it as it is. i'd take big big slices from it, and at the end of the day, the quickmelt is 1/2 its size before eaten.

my tito works in san miguel, and every christmas we get san miguel goodies. one of the goodies, is QUESO DE BOLA. and it doesn't take long till one ball of cheese gets consumed. because every afternoon i take it out of the ref, eat it in front of the tv until i get bored with the shows, and then give up. and then i put back the rest of the cheese inside the ref.

i cannot stress enough how much i LOVE CHEESE.
i cringe in excitement everytime i see cheese. well. i may not be a cheeseologist because i don't eat cheese that smell. but if i get a taste of the nasty smelling cheeses, i'd probably love it too. :)

that's just it. the point of this blog is cheese.
and i was in the grocery today, i forgot to grab one box of queso de bola. darn.
next time. imma grab and go.

I JUST LOVE LOVE LOVE CHEESE. swear.

3:17 a.m.

2008-11-08T11:16:00.000-08:00

BALIW
ni E.Therese Gorecho
(yah know. like. J.Dennis Teodosio? haha)

jika!! look oh!
it look exactly like my story! hahaha.
only. white walls, and the guy should be sitting down. HAHA

grabeh oh, i can't believe that it's almost 3 am and i'm still not sleepy and still working on my script. the script for writer's block was due 3 hours ago or something, i'm still not done with it... i'm working on scene 4. out of. 8 scenes. hey i'm halfway! :)

but it's just a bad sign that cramming makes me more productive. well maybe it it applicable when i'm making a paper, but it should never be applicable when i'm studying. booohooo. i should not cram this semester. i must change my lifestyle. no to cramming. please. no to splurge.

but i feel good honestly. about writing again. haha. for so long i've been wanting to write something morbid, something dark, something eerie, something uncomfortable. and maybe this is the script i've been wanting to write for so long. when i write, i try to see how it's going to happen on stage, which is why i'm having problems with putting so much stage directions in the script itself. i'm afraid that if i don't give out enough details, the future director of my play (if ever it will be staged, perhaps in a million years) will not be able to give justice to it. i'm just not that trustful. haha. because THIS IS MY WORK! and i guess as a newbie playwright, i have every reason to OWN IT LIKE IT'S MY BABY. huhuh. and trusting others with it is just not easy. :)

and i'm also having problems with. my story. i like it the way it is. but because i'm a cheery, perky, outrageous, wants-something-different kind of person, i want to read fun stories, funny plays, light movies, chick flicks and the like. and writing this isn't really easy for someone who's like that. :( as i write the script, i continue to bore myself, thinking that the play will not have background music because i want silence to be the melody of the play, or that i want each word that the guy says in the play the climax of every scene. it's all words. and i'm not that kind of person. (see, i don't really read. because a cornucopia (!!) of words is just. not. my thing. yah know. haha) but my play is. it's just words and words and words, with a rhythm and melody of its own (i hope). and i hope that the people see this too. (and thus i realize how writers must have felt when people give their own interpretations of their work. but. maybe i'm just like this because i'm new at this and i want the interpretation of my work, to be just as how i want it to be. HAHA) sigh. words.

i can do this. :)
sleep na timee. sleep na. :)

my well spent oct.30-nov3! :)

2008-11-07T17:04:00.000-08:00

rehearsals were over by 0ct30 and would resume by nov3... that meant that if i stayed here in the dorm, i'd be a loser and watch all soul's day movies abs-cbn was showing and just internet forever and ever, and suck up to whatever fastfood restaurant was open in katipunan.

but no. i decided not to make a loser of myself. i texted my tita bebet if i could stay with her for a few days. wooohooo! :) and out of all the relatives i have here in manila, why did i pick tita bebet's house? because it was near, because i will be fetched, and because the food is glorious. :) :) :) even on normal days, to me (well maybe, for me it's glorious because it's real food and not katipunan food. haha) the meals are scrumptious. everyday seems like eating at a gourmet restaurant! wooh.

Oct. 30
I woke up early to enlist myself in classes. woooh!! aisis rocks. it took me less than 2 minutes to finish everything. i got the schedule i wanted. :) oh oh oh, and lei and oli got almost the same classes even though they were 4th batch! weewooweewoo! HAHA. so yeah, i prepared my stuff and then was fetched by the driver at around 10pm. haha! we had dinner. arg. i forgot what was for dinner, but it was gooooooood. :)

after dinner, i helped my cousins prepare 400 bags full of goodies for halloween! :) they had to prepare at least 400 for the 5000 kids. wooooah. boo i didn't have pictures but i took some all throughout my "break". :) i slept at around 2am after finishing the loot bags. it was tiring, but fuuun. tita bebet was still downstairs making pre-cooking stuff. haha. she was marinading, mixing, preparing the food for halloween. WOOH!

Oct 31 - HALLOWEEN!
i woke up at around 10:30 to find that everyone was still asleep. so i watched TV. CABLE MEHN! CABLE. as you all know, abs-cbn has been very loyal to me in the dorm. but cable was cooler (sorry na! haha) i ate brunch at 12 with the kids, wooh. loved the brunch! but i was looking forward to dinner. michelle, kitkat and shasha invited their friends to go trick or treating with them. so tita bebet prepared dinner. yum.

around 6 in the evening shasha, katie (her friend) and i started trick or treating around the village. ayala heights was a very very big village, and you could imagine us going up the hill, going from house to house, picking up ice cream, taho, corndogs on the way. there were some houses who, instead of giving candies, gave out cotton candies, ice cream, taho, corndogs, puto and etc. there was one house who had 4 chocolate fountains with marshmallows, fruits and chocolates around. WOOOH. heaven. haha. oh and it was raining, the three of us were dripping wet, but we didn't mind. :) when it was really raining, and when we were really wet, and when we got really tired, tita bebet, kitkat and her friends fetched us at someone's house. we got in the van and then trick or treated around with the van. HAHA. we got off the vehicle when we were sure the house gave candies. HAHA. there was one house who rented REAL lights and those stuff used for memorial services. CREEEPY. the driver told me that last year, that same house had a coffin with a real live person lying inside and then scaring people as they passed by. creeeepy! hhaha

candies i got! (the glow sticks were from the house haha)

we went back to the house around 8 for dinner. DINNER! we had prawns baked in. something. haha. and then 2 kinds of pastas, the other one with bechamel sauce. (accdg to the dictionary, it's a milk based sauce for meat and fish) YUMMMMY. and then roast beef in some sauce, fresh garden salad, pancit molo, and my favorite, smoked salmon!! :) (i thought the taste was familiar, and then i remembered when i ate the same thing during lei's birthday in Conti's!) wooh. and the best part of it all was tita bebet's CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN. WOOOOOH.

after dinner, i went up and played sims. haha i missed sims. the kids went to the haunted house, i stayed behind with my simulated friends (as jika would like to put it haha) and i played till the wee hours of the morning. :)

Nov1

my view when i woke up. :) pretty curtains no?

i woke up late because i knew the kids would still be asleep. but i couldn't keep myself asleep beyond 10 so i got up and took a bath, and then went out to watch tv. haha. we ate with tita bebet's art teacher? haha ewan. (aside from owning VERVE and cooking so well, tita bebet painted too. wonderful paintings. i wish i knew how.) in the veranda. we ate at around 11:30. i went back to the tv and watched movies and stuff and then i fell asleep in front of the tv, so i transfered to the room and slept till 4. when i woke up, they were calling me for lunch. hahaha. at the table, tito was joking me telling me "wag mong sabihin sa mommy mo na di ka namin pnapakain ha! haha.. wag mong sabihin na weird kami kasi di kami kumakain on time!" but i was cool with it, i don't usually eat at normal times in the dorm rin naman.

oh and before dinner, since they didn't really go to the cemetery to be with their deceased loved ones, they had a little prayer session with candles and everyone took turns in saying a prayer. haha. cute.

after dinner i went to play sims again. forever and ever. of course i ate some of my candies. and till dinner, which was at 11. hahah. i don't usually eat talong especially when it's being torta-ed in egg. but in tita bebet's house, it was the only dish i ate during that dinner. it was baked cheese tortang talong. and you know that when cheese is involved, i cringe in excitement. HAHA. it was yummy.. michelle asked if i have tasted her famous crepe (michelle cooks too!) and i said no, so right there and then, she made me one. :D loveet!!

as usual, i slept at 2. zzz

the poodle's name is angel, the maltese's name is muffin. haha

Nov2.
it was my last day in their house because tita cynch was going to fetch me in my dorm at midnight. i dressed up and went with the whole family to trinoma to go shopping and buy kitkat's guitar. i was teaching kit guitar the other day because she had to learn edelweiss. HAHA. i helped her pick out a good guitar. :D i can't believe that the cheapest guitar in yamaha was 10k. classical guitar. haha

we went home at around 6pm.. i prepared my stuff, watched some tv, and played some sims and then went down for dinner. since tita bebet's cook was on day off, she had bacolod chicken inasal delivered. haha. i missed inasal too! after dinner, tita bebet decided "let's have fondue!" haha. she melted the chocolate, served it with marshmallows. WOOH. so that was chocolate fountain number 3 for my vacation. HAHAHA

i left tita bebet's house at around 10:30 in the evening, and the driver brought me back to ISO. :) i went online, checked mail, prepared stuff and waited till tita cynch and her gang fetched me. :)

i was fetched at 12, and then went to St. Vincent Seminary. She was giving a seminar on sexuality to the seminarians. i stayed with her for at least 3 days. :) of course, the food in the seminary was REAL. and i LOVE REAL FOOD. :)

Nov3
the highlight of it was just that i went to trinoma again with tita cynch and fr. bong, and he treated us to dinner at Thousand Cranes. it was soo cool i get to cook my own soup! in the table where we sat, the stove-ish was already there and all the waiters had to do was to pour in the soup, and prepare the special sauce. and then they served the raw stuff like shrimps, lobster balls, oysters, vegetables and etc. it was really really really yummy. :)

tita cynch preparing her soup. yummmy!

the raw stuff. haha that's my soup!!

my beautiful soup!

i loved my break. it was all about the FOOD. :)
i'm gonna scoot now. i have to change for rehearsals. haha

Marquis Steffano

2008-11-06T15:40:00.000-08:00

HAHA. Jika showed me how to do this. HAHA. Just upload two photos, one of the mom's and one of the dad's, fix the features, and then voila, the program shows how your baby will look like! :) and so i tried, because bryanboy did it too, he had 6 kids. HAHA.

so welcome to the world, Marquis Steffano Gorecho-_________!!
haha! You'll have to look really close to guess who the dad is, he has his father's eyes. :) haha

i wasn't planning on posting this here, but last night i was looking at the picture, HE WAS JUST REALLY REALLY REALLY ADORABLE. i wanna poke his face, pinch him and hug him really really tight!!! adoraaable baby. :) hihih.

and i'm gonna officially pretend marquis exists! hahaha.

godparents anyone? :)

to make babies, just go to this site : http://www.vw.com/vwhype/babymaker/en/us/

BRING IT ON SECOND SEMESTER!!! :)

2008-10-29T23:10:00.001-07:00

so today i woke up early for our online enlistment. :) i woke up at 5:45am, and went to take a nap for 15 minutes. when i woke up again, it was already 7:45. hahaha. i thought i was losing slots for my classes (even though i was first batch), so i enlisted myself in all the classes as fast as i could. :) it took me less than 2 minutes to finish everything. cooool. internet enlistment rocks. i love you aisis. :)

and so here is my 2nd semester schedule. :)

it's not clear noh?

oh well. herreeee...

Title	Section	Instructor	Schedule/Location	Credit
RIZAL AND THE EMERGENCE OF THE PHILIPPINE NATION	L	GEALOGO, FRANCIS A.	M-W-F 0930-1030 / K-201	C
PHILOSOPHY OF THE HUMAN PERSON II	II	RODRIGUEZ, AGUSTIN	M-W-F 1130-1230 / BEL 308	C
SOCIAL PSYCHOLOGY	A	INTAL, ANNA MIREN G.	T-TH 1500-1630 / B-309	C
PSYCHOLOGICAL TESTING: LECTURE	C	ROJAS, MELODEE S.	T-TH 1330-1500 / SS-284	C
PSYCHOLOGICAL TESTING: LABORATORY	C	ROJAS, MELODEE S.	M 1230-1630 / SS-284	C
SEMINAR IN PSYCHOLOGY III: INDUSTRIAL PSYCHOLOGY WITH GROUP DYNAMICS	A	GUECO,	M 1630-1930 BEL205	C

i'm gonna enjoy this semester! yipee
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can't wait till 2nd semester. :D

2008-10-28T04:13:00.000-07:00

would you believe that this is my 51st blog?! i've written THAT many blogs?! whew! let's celebrate! pancit canton party for everyone! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

before you go warla with the title of my blog, i'd like to say that my sembreak so far has been spent on rehearsals, eating, bumming around, sleeping, tv and internet. and i found that my routines are becoming a bore (not that rehearsals are a bore, i'm actually having fun at reh. promise) i'm now seeking for something new in my life. like planning to go home to iloilo just for 3 days and come back here again. i just need something new. and it's not funny when people around me are partying, trick or treating, going on out of towns, going to the beach, climbing mountains, surfing, partying some more, and going to EK while i'm here in my dorm doing nothing. *frustrated* (... and beginning to think if it's really worth it. again.) i'm just really frustrated.

if i cannot stand this anymore, i'm going to stay at my tita's house. you want me to explain how that's my option? ask me.

but as of now, i cannot stress enough how excited i am for second semester. it's so cool to be college coz you get two first days of school in a year. maybe three. (but the 3rd is not exciting)

you know how back in gradeschool (or maybe highschool) you get so excited upon approaching the first day of school.. excited to know who your teachers are, who your classmates are gonna be, new food in the cafeteria, new stuff (admit it!!!!! we buy new stuff every start of the year!!). it's just a brand new start. WOOH.

and i'm so thrilled for the second sem because:

- it's PAYBACK TIME. haha. and i don't mean that in a negative way. i'm gonna make up for all the low grades i got last semester, and i'm going to push it to the limits. (familiar song. haHA) WWWOOOOHHHH. study hard now, party harder later. :)

- new subjects, new teachers. don't you just love a fresh new start? i mean, you get to adjust again and when you succeed with the adjusting, hooray, you're on your way to a good grade? hahahaahaha. well i'm gonna make sure that i adjust well. I SHOULD. please. timee i beg you. hahaha

- because. aside from acads, i have so much with me: XPRES, UNANG BABOY SA LANGIT and NO SPEED LIMIT. :) i'm excited because these are the things that i love doing. :) and i hope it all goes well. :D

- because. hihi (if you can guess this. i'm giving you a candaaay! hooray!)

- because i'm a semester closer to becoming a SENIOR! YAHHOOOOO! HAHAHA IT'S NOW OR NEVER!!!! THIS IS THE LAST CHANCE TO MAKE IT RIGHT!! (hsm3 fever haha)

- because it's my birthday, we're gonna party like it's mah birthday on NOVEMBER 10!!

- because it's christmas, it's new year, it's summer!! hahahhaha all the lovely breaks i love. :D

- and just because the second semester is a shorter semester. HAHAHAHA

so there. i'm excited. wohoo!

don't forget to greet me!!
NOVEMBER 10, 2008

inVESTment!

2008-10-27T05:52:00.000-07:00

so today after rehearsals, riz and i went to shop for some lingerie. HAHAHAHA
if you wanna know why, riz is getting married. HAHAHAHAHAHA JOKE!!!!!!!!!! I AM NOT DRUNK! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! the initial plan was to shop for riz' costume for her play, turns out she has one already so we went to riverbanks mall and sm marikina to look for a black collared top for our photoshoot tomorrow.

and looking for a black collared top was SO HARD. doesn't anyone wear a black collared top anymore!??! have all the emo kids vanished or have they consumed all the black collared tops!!??! anyhoo. it was hard looking for one. but we managed to find one. and i think the pieces i bought (i'd like to believe, and justify why i needed to buy it and why it wasn't impulsive shopping. HAHA) are inVESTment pieces. because i will definitely wear them in the future. like the black top in more photoshoots. and the vest, just because it's a vest.

for me, it was a Folded and Hung day! hahahaa

i bought a pretty rose vest! :)
it's an inVESTment. just because it's a vest. HAHAH

and look. from 999php, it's now 300! HAHAHA.

here's the black top. well. cru cru.

but the point of this blog really is shopping as therapy again. ugggh. i should. i must brush it off my system. i should not use shopping as a venue to vent out stress, or any negative energies for that matter.

because today was an emotionally stressful day. just because. HAHA. and maybe shopping made me feel a little better. which is wrong!!!! noooooo. hahahahaha

i should stop buying stuff just to make me feel better. hmf

kilig

2008-10-26T05:55:00.000-07:00

i've been thinking about what i'm going to blog about.

and because the other day someone said something that sparked up the *kilig* nodes, and after watching High School Musical 3, the most available information to me is the said concept, which has no (or maybe there is but not specifically a direct translation of it) english term for it.

a few weeks ago, or maybe a week before the finals, my "lack-of-lovelife" nodes were activated. haha. It's not that i have a problem with the lack of a lovelife in my life, hello, i am LOVE itself. :) HAHAHA. I don't have a problem with being single, i am perfectly loving it. :)

But we can never avoid the happy couples you see around, and all you can do is watch and say "aww" (depends on the couple though. haha) and sometimes you imagine yourself in that situation wherein you have someone too. i forgot what activated this node of information in my system, but surely, it made me miss the feeling of *kilig*

it has been a long long time since i last felt *kilig*. maybe the lack of lovelife will explain. haha. but i've experienced times when *kilig* was sweeter when i was single. isn't it more exciting and thrilling to feel *kilig* when you're single and you feel it with someone who's not YET in a relationship with you? :)

and it reminded me someone who usually made me feel this way every now and then. :) maybe now it's not that rampant anymore because i'm immuned to you (hey that's a cool term. haha immuned to you. haha) and maybe that's just the way you treat me and maybe i'm processing it the wrong way. :) (ohlook you just went offline. haha) but i remember those days when i'd giggle all by myself and smile till my cheeks hurt, let out a shy laugh and then say "gago!" haha. i don't know. maybe now that we're closer, i don't think i see you the way i saw you before. :) maybe things have changed, and maybe i'm happier this way because i know you'll be happier that way too. HAHA TALK ABOUT BEING A MARTYR. haha. but no, really. i really do think that it's better this way and to think it could go further than this will stress me much more. i don't know if it ever occurred to you that this could go a step further, but for now, i'm cool with it. :) i'm good here. and i'll stay here till the right time comes. :) i'd rather stay friends with you for years and years, than you losing me. gahd. what will you ever do without me. HAHAHAHAHA

and i don't mean to look like a sl*t here, but there's someone else i'm getting *kilig* from. HAHA. my friend the other day asked me about him and if i felt *kilig* everytime i was with him. i actually said no. HAHA. because i see him more as a friend, as a close friend in fact, and the friendship just overrides the feeling. :) and then i realize the rare times that i get kilig when i'm with him, and i usually feel it when he gives me extra attention. for example. aklmchmchllkcsglakhgl,achdhcgl,cshg,cahmlmlca,gcalghiacmj.,fmkzjkglgagkjalkghadklghf;kdlgak
aglhaldghadlkucymayctlyeltauc,fiseiozscefiahlfkhclmaciohkznfcm.j,jfcaelctuiochsmigc,a;gjhgoihac.
isn't it lovely? haha. so yeah. that was one specific time when i felt kilig. hahaha.

like last night. he said "ashcfakcjetkc.lsmcflxshgac,gxsahgnclacaestk,msehvisnilc" hahaha!

i don't know what the point of this blog is, i don't even think this is timeeblogspot worthy. but. because i miss the feeling right now, the next time it comes my way, i'm gonna savour it while it lasts. :)

"it's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you...
it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do...
and with every step together, we just keep on getting better..
so can i have this dance?"

HANDA KA NA BA SA ISANG SERYOSO AT DIBDIBANG USAPAN?

2008-10-25T23:16:00.000-07:00

ENTABLADO PLEVSEM (Planning & Evaluation Seminar)

2008-10-24T04:32:00.000-07:00

every semestral break and summer break, all the accredited organizations of Ateneo are required to go on an Evaluation Seminar or EVSEM. it can also be a Planning and Evaluation Seminar or PLEVSEM.

It's an event where the members of the org evaluates all the projects of the semester and plan for the next semester. And maybe, fun stuff. but the point of PLEVSEM is org work. nevertheless, it's fun. :)i just arrived from ENTABLADO's plevsem in Laguna Hot Springs, meeyo's place. :) it was really really really fun. :) the pool was love. :D

we, the deputies with our heads jika and dianne planned the plevsem and IT WAS A SUCCESSFUL and PRODUCTIVE one. :) officers evals, project evals, electorial provisions, org status report, project presentations, season planning, calendaring. whew.

on the first night, the formations team facilitated the BILOG. BILOG in enta terms is usually a prayer session or a formation session. it's not all spiritual but it's a venue for expression, for reflection and all the formation stuff. :) enta is not just a theater org. it's a socio-politically oriented theater organization that cares for its members. bwahah. i'm sure all orgs do care for its members. :) and so we did the BILOG, and the activity was to write a one-liner blog in which everyone can comment. and this was how my blog went:

i MISS you. my friends. my family. myself. i hope this is all worth it. :(

and now, after everything, after the plevsem, after spending 4 days in Laguna with ENTA. i can confidently say...

Yes. I believe it's all worth it. and more. :)

weeeeshlist. :D

2008-10-19T01:37:00.000-07:00

for birthday, halloween, christmas, whatever. hahaha!

HAHA i'm kapal. haha. but i'm not asking you to get these from me, HAHAHA. these are things i've been planning to get myself. :D

- guitar. i feel like a cavewoman. atat na akong kalabitin ang mga kwerdas ng gitara at ihabi ang mga salitang 'di mabitawan ng pusong naghihilom. (CHEKE) i wanna write songs na. for the longest time.

- donuts. DONUTS ALWAYS MAKE ME HAPPY. :) (dunkin donuts and mister donuts don't make me happy. but iL gladly accept it and pretend to like it. hahaha) I'M KEEEEDING.

- my husband, Charlie Chan. :)

- an Alarm Clock. (Check out FunkyFinds) loud enough to wake the neighbors up. please. i don't need more cuts next semester. hahaha. i almost overcut my theology class this semester. 8.5 cuts out of the maximum 9. hahahaha.

- a Starbucks Teddy Bear. i've been wanting one for the longest time. but then i realized just now that i have too many stuffed toys on my bed, it's hard for me to sleep. HAHA. i ALSO WANT A CAREBEAR. hAHAHAHA. i prefer the carebear. haha. i found one on ebay, and i'm asking my dad to get it for me. hihi. (hi dad!) <<<<--- THANK YOU DENI, OLI, LEI AND GAR!

- TWILIGHT by Stephenie Meyer. okay. joining the bandwagon. because i just found out that CEDRIC DIGGORY, THE Cedric Diggory, the dude i cried for when he died in HP and the Goblet of Fire, (yes, i cried noisily in the theater) IS PLAYING THE ROLE OF MR. TWILIGHT. whatever his name is. Edward? Cullen? Am i right? WOOH. AND HE. IS. HOT. WOOH. I LOVE IT. So, i'm gonna try to start reading just for Cedric Diggory. <<<-- THANK YOU EBOOK!

- a MAGIC 8 BALL. i've been wanting one for so long but everytime i go to a toy store and see one, i always think that it's not worth it. but whatever, i think it's useful especially to an indecisive person like moi. :)

- that Kirk Long and i would be friends. BWAHA. i wanna be leveled up. i don't want to be his fan anymore. i want to be his friend. HAHAHAHAHAHA. OKAY. NVM.

- ALL STARS shirt. paging Gio Gahol, where is my shirt. HAHA! kidding. take your time. haha. i'm still thinking din if i really really really really want one. :D haha

- i found this suuuper cute BARBIE bag for folders, papers and stuff... and i'm planning to buy it for my laptop. no cushion or whatsoever, but. the bad i'm using for my laptop doesn't have cushion too, so. i'm getting myself the barbie when the semester starts. as of now, i don't need it yet. haha

- if ABS-CBN releases a DVD version of IISA PA LAMANG, i'm so getting one. wooh.

- an Ateneo Jacket. Before i graduate (if i really do graduate. HAHA) i'm getting myself an Ateneo Jacket. WOOH.

- Diaper Bags. you should see SM Dept Store's Baby Diaper Bags. they're soooo cute. wooh. i want one. as an ordinary bag lang. HAHAHA

- a DQ cake. :) because DQ makes me happy. hahaha i'm getting one for myself when i'm depressed. hahaha

- a Lomo camera. i saw these cute lomo cameras in fully booked the other day. weeehh. but. before the lomo, i should get a real camera first. HAHA

- HEROES Season 2 DVD. haha. i miss watching heroes! wooh.

- World Peace. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. but really, yes, i do want world peace more than ever. :D and i believe that i can be the change i want to see in the world. So i'll start with myself. :) i don't get the point of wars and stuff, is it because of Greed? well that's just really stupid. that's just so childish.

HAHA. november 10 is the date, don't forget to greet me!!

What i've been up to lately. :D

2008-10-12T07:50:00.000-07:00

what's new. i've been studying my ass off, and there's nothing really new. i announced to the world last tuesday that i was done with my life. what i mean was done was that the BULK of my finals were over. (Theo, Cog and Expe). And i've been studying all three over the weekend. i've turned into a zombie.
i've been hanging out, no, STUDYING in starbucks lately because i realized that despite having, no, forcing myself to buy something from starbucks (haha you get the point), i find that studying somewhere away from the internet does help. HAHA monday, i spent the whole day after my theo finals, with deni meni in jollibee petron and starbucks katip studying cog and expe. and it was actually effective. GOODJOB. i bummed around after tuesday, until thursday and friday came, i went back to starbucks to study physio with gar. BOOYAH.

oh. i have to post gar's award-winning photo. I LOVE YOU GARNET GISELLE KEH!
and we did some gossipgirl moments when we couldn't take it anymore.
if you can't see, it says "BUNTIS ULIT SI JAMIE LYNN SPEARS" (Jamie Lynn Spears is pregnant again) yes. people. once again. jamie lynn. pregnant again after just giving birth to her daughter. :D why oh why. sources say (sources. i feel like i'm in hollywood. hahA) thay they thought breastfeeding wouldn't get Jamie pregnant. again, stupidity is the best policy. HAHA

oh oh, and my friend deni found this cute picture taken during our last physio class.*(Courtney friend me. friend me. haha. thank you for the photo. DENI STOLE IT FROM YOU)

look for me at the super back row, pointing at the camera. why was i pointing forward. because i wanted to point to the ceiling but my beautiful friends said it won't be seen in the picture. LOL. ANG YABANG NYO. KITA KAYA. hahaha

and now. for the most recent of updates.

aside from the series of emotional breakdown, from that depressing evening last night, i woke up today and got myself into recording a radio play for JESCOM's (Jesuit Communications something) Radio Station: Radyo Veritas. :)

The radio play was entitled "Ang Walang Hanggang" and i recorded with Bro Rai Mendoza and fellow enta members Jose Tanjuan, Sang Mee Lee, Alden Baleva, Gino Bonife and Dolly Dulu. This just made my day. We started at around 10:30am. And i thought it would end around 1pm because i was planning to study for philo later that afternoon. But no, we ended at 5:30 ish in the afternoon. Nevertheless, it was really really fun. And spending hours with them in the studio was all worth it. I had fun. :) Till the next radio play! :D

(Catch "Ang Walang Hanggang" tomorrow, Oct13 at 1pm, AM Station. haha)
(ex)Bro Rai was telling us that if we wanted to give in our stories, make it into scripts and stuff for Radio Veritas, we'll send it to him. They'll pay 500php per episode, and for every script there should be a minimum of 15 episodes (8 pages per episode) and a max of 20 episodes. :D I'm thinking of submitting a story. :) just thinking. :D

after a day of picking on sang mee, flipping pages and pages of scripts, eating pizza and jollibee, picking on each other's barok words and laughing at the corniest of jokes, my day ended when i headed to starbucks after the recording and started studying again for philo. ugh. i have 10 thesis statements to study, and although i know how to answer the first few numbers, i do not know how to explain it. my philo prof and his teaching assistant will witness my death for 15 minutes. Tuesday 8:15 a.m. is the TIME. hay.

What's in store for me in the days to come?
well.
- i have rehearsals now. so. yay.
- i have consultation with Sir Jethro and Kuya Kalil for my ENTA Writers' Bloc submission. i hope what i submitted was good. (basically, what we do in the Writers' Bloc is make plays to be staged by enta, HOPEFULLY, soon. so. yeah.) although, i crammed the beatsheet for my play because. it was a day late. boo. the storyline was crammed, i don't think i did the scenes right. and the play is really morbid. haha. so. watch out for it when i'm done with it. i'll post it here. :)
- Physio Field Trip on wednesday in a mental hospital. :) cool. although SPEED gives me a more beginner-friendly experience with special people, i think being brought to the mental hospital is cooler. :D i'll really see the hospital, which is different from the schools we go to in speed. so. yeah i'm pretty excited.
- Unang Baboy Sa Langit script reading. though. there is nothing really to read for my part. so. yeah.
- i'm meeting pinky on wednesday! i'm bringing her around and showing her my side of the world. hahaha. DQ date!woooh. and belgian waffles. and. wooh. whatever else. hahaha

oh, that's it. there you go. la la la. i'm semi-excited. half ecstatic half lethargic. la la la.

currently playing:

woooah.. all i want is your love.. if you give it to me... give it to me all night.. :)

wow. this is. just too much.

2008-10-11T07:25:00.000-07:00

this is how it feels to get your period after 3 months of not having it.
i've been super emotional this past few days,
getting all teary-eyed at the smallest of details...
(like yesterday i was walking alone along katipunan, and i saw this street kid, walking alone on tattered slippers, carrying a plastic bag with books in it. and i got all teary-eyed coz no kid deserves to experience poverty like this. it got me into thinking about the Philippine economy, and. blah)
and i'm so stressed, not because i have so much to do, but because i have no idea how to continue studying, to even start reviewing my philo thesis statements.

this is a tell-all.

i went to starbucks today, and it was half empty. i'm not surprised. after all, it is the last day of the semester. and it is the start of everyone's semestral break. not mine. i still have until wednesday till my semester officially ends. my philo orals are on tuesday, and i have a physio fieldtrip to the mental hospital on wednesday.

don't even get me started on physio. we just had our final examinations this afternoon. and it was probably the hardest test i've ever taken in my whole college life. i guessed on more than half of the 160 item test. and get this. the first half of the exam, 80 items was identification. sure, sir provided us with a list of terms for the 80 item identification test. but. in the list, there were 180 TERMS. ONE HUNDRED EIGHTY TERMS and we had to identify only 80 of them. i don't want to explain further anymore.

it was a depressing day, i went back to starbucks to meet up with gar, and then ate belgian waffles, hung out and then went home. bummed around. until it finally sunk in.

i'm really not going home.

the dorm is empty now, there are probably 2 to 3 dormers left, but God knows till when. for the rest of the semester, i will be alone in the dorm. going home to my 3 channel tv, relying on my laptop, living on fastfood and do nothing.

it's just depressing whenever i see the word "alone", i FEEL it.
and it's not funny.

it's not funny that my philo orals are on tuesday, and that i still have to go to that field trip just to save my grade. it's not funny that i'm on the brink of probation because i don't think i did well this semester. it's really not funny.

sure, i have rehearsals. i'll be with people i love to be with, i'll hang out with fun people. rehearsals will always be a fun experience, i'm so sure of that. everyday will be something new. no doubt about that.

but after that, i'll go home. alone. with my tv. laptop. lie down and think about the things i could be doing if i went home. i'd be going out everyday, come home to my siblings and my family, play with them and stay up talking about anything. wake up and play with them again, watch movies, go swimming, and etc. i'd go out with friends, party with them, drink, come home to my siblings who are waiting for me, and then sleep.

i could just imagine everyday of my life just like that. i'm not saying it's boring, it's. sad.

and i've been asking myself if staying was all worth it.
if you do know me, i'm not and was never used to being ALONE.

the silence in my dorm room is defeaning. God knows how long will i be able to stand it.

and everytime this dilemma, this depression happens, i always tell myself "go out and eat whatever you want. you deserve it. to make up for the stress."

well. food isn't going to take me anywhere. i want to stop eating. i want to stop making it a habit, a remedy for stress. i'm just tired of eating. i'm just tired of crying. i'm tired.

maybe i'm feeling this way right now because of the crazy hormonal imbalance in my body after not getting my period for about 3 months, or maybe i'm just stressed that my semestral break isn't starting yet, or the fact that it will never happen. or maybe i'm just depressed because it's sembreak and everyone's out on the beaches, partying, on vacation, out of the country, with their families and stuff, while i'm stuck here, all alone in my dorm room.

and tomorrow, i'm going to record a radio play with my org with the jesuits at 10am. despite the fact that i haven't started on my thesis statements yet, i agreed to go because even if i do wake up early and plan to study philo, i won't be able to. so i might as well utilize my time and do something like the recording thing to de-stress. sigh.

at this point, i really really don't care anymore. i don't care if i can give my prof the right explanations to the thesis statements, i don't care if i don't pass that physio finals. at this point i really want to go home. ugh.

i'm depressed.

and if you think i am capable of doing something stupid just because i'm depressed.. hey, i'm a psych major. i know better than to make final decisions when i'm highly emotional. journaling is a therapy.

i'm getting there.

now.

2008-10-10T06:52:00.000-07:00

now that the end of my semester is approaching.

now i'm thinking.

if this is truly what will make me happy.

if this is really what i wanted.

if this is all worth it.

sad.

blimey!!! i must be damned!

2008-10-08T02:48:00.000-07:00

BUTCH. huhu. my piggy's new name. (i realized, i couldn't call her "bebi". i'm not used to the cheesy pet name) IS BLEMISHED. :(( :(( she's growing up so fast.

you see the red marks on butch's face?!? HUHUHUHU. i must have left some red marker open, lying around in my bed. :( finals week. booo.

the bulk of my final examinations are over, theology last monday, and experimental psych and cognitive psych last tuesday. what i have left for my finals are Physiological Psychology (on saturday) and Philosophy(on Tuesday). i'm not planning to study physio until i know my pre-final grade. (tomorrow). as for Philo, my oral examination is on Tuesday so i have lotsa time. and i know how frustrated i can get whenever i say "i should've used my free time to study", so i think i'm going to start on Philo in a while. :)

i'm looking forward to:
- the end of everything. of physio and philo.
- EK. Baguio. Tagaytay. Banaue Rice Terraces with friends! (not serious with the last, it was just a suggestion by our theo teacher sir Rochester. hehe)
- Pinky's comin' to town! WOOH. DairyQueen date! wooh.
- ENTA plevsem! :) yehey!
- KWIK-E rehearsals. actually the thought of doing 4 shows scares me.
- MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP YO! hahaha. although i'm not really planning on doing anything, i'm just excited to be 19. :) NOVEMBER 10 is the date. don't forget.

speaking of birthdays... :)

hoy step!

Stephen John Penaranda!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! :)
october 9, 2008

on studying.. how psych of me. :D

2008-10-06T04:32:00.000-07:00

since it's finals week, and since i have 27minutes left for procrastination (i will explain later why there's a time limit for "procrastination"), i will blog about studying. :D (thank you to Pao Asuncion for activating my nodes... or for the non-psych people, giving me the idea of blogging this. haha)

How do i study?
(i don't think this is effective because i don't really get high grades, but psychologically this is okay because. i am able to remember things that i believe will last for a lifetime, and this is what's more important right? right? okay.)

- first, i have to see everything i have to study. and when i am overwhelmed. i sleep. HAHAHAHA KIDDING. HAHAHAHA.

like the picture above, i have to see what i have to do, what i have to accomplish by then, and when everything is happening. I HAVE TO SEE THEM. and it should be somewhere where it is impossible for me not to see it. for my case, the post its are in the computer table right beside my bed. so when i wake up, i see them. when i enter my corner, i see them. and use bright colors. so that it catches your attention.

so why do i have to see them? so that you don't miss out on anything. and make sure you put everything. back when i was in first year, i used one post it per task. and my computer table was full of post it. the goal was to eliminate all the post its as early as possible. :) and i have to see them all so that i won't get overwhelmed by how much i have to do, after finishing one task. :)
and nothing beats the joy of taking out one post-it or crossing out one task. :D

- TIME MANAGEMENT.
okay cliche much, but like what my friend jika said, "but cliches are the most effective inventions of the literary world, full-proof words strewn together to make the most sense and fathom all that we thought impossible to be said." (sorry jika. i'll put you on my references)

but cliches have nothing to do with my point. HAHAHAHA (certainly not in the same context as how jika used it. haha)

like Friday when i started writing down on the post its the things i have to do, i realized that Theo was up first. My Theo finals was Monday so i studied theo first. and then Cog and then Expe in awhile. well. it's as simple as that. but some people organize their time according to the difficulty of a subject, or. whatever. but this is not the point really, i just wanted to point out PROCRASTINATION.

PROCRASTINATION is a green-eyed monster. it's very very evuhl. but you can always make it into something not evil. :D do what i do.

pao was asking me why i wasn't on plurk and he said that i plurk is perfect for someone like me. oh dear, yes, i've heard about plurk. but i know that if i get into it, i wont stop. and pao even said that it was a perfect thing to do when procrastinating. ohhkaaay. helping. helping very much. :) and then i said "later, when i have all the time in the world." and he said "wow, nagseset pala ng time for procrastination. haha" and yes. I DO PUT PROCRASTINATION IN MY SCHEDULE.

my theory is that, people always have the tendency to procrastinate. and that's just natural. sometimes, we have to break from our routine to stay sane. :)) (i'm not saying that my lola's insane, but you see, she has this routine everyday of her life and it doesn't break. and because everything is automatic, it becomes a hard habit to break. any new stimulus to her system is not understood well, or is not even entertained at all. because it takes less cognitive resources to process information while doing automatic routines (okay this is very cogpsych), she doesn't get to use her cognitive resources AT ALL. shit. i hope you reader understood my point. because cognitive psychology is very useful.) and procrastination can SOMETIMES be useful. like now, i spent the whole afternoon with denise today going from Jollibee Petron to Starbucks Katipunan to Jollibee Katipunan. I studied Cognitive Psychology the whole time (which explains why the cog theories are so available to my heuristics. haha) and vowed to finish everything before i go back to the dorm. We were done by 6:30.

and now. i am procrastinating till IISA PA LAMANG starts. HAHA. (it's a soap i'm currently addicted to. because the script is awfully witty, and the actors are so good, and the plot is nice. it's a great soap. swear.) procrastination is part of my schedule because i know that even if i study all the way, i'll always stop in between and do something else. So. by procrastinating BIG TIME, i eliminate the tendency to procrastinate at small amounts later when i study. HAHAHAHAHA. it's like taking a BIG MEAL beforehand, and feeling full after so you won't get to eat while doing stuff for the rest of the day. :)) HAHAHAHA. (well. sometimes, after taking a big bite of procrastination, i take desserts and small slices of it again. but. it doesn't really hurt my long-term studying. so i think this is better. haha)

also, when procrastinating. DO NOT PROCRASTINATE WITH THINGS THAT CAN TRAP YOU. i.e. TETRIS

it is the devil's advocate. one you pop, you can't stop. ask my macedonian friend deni. if you start playing tetris on your procrastination period, you'll tend to extend and extend and extend untill you fall asleep. HAHAHA. so don't do things that coulr trap you. do multiply, or ym, or whatever. HAHAHAHA. DON'T TOUCH TETRIS DENITA MARIA CONCHITA ISABELITA VILLASENORITA!!!!!!!! haha.

- REINFORCEMENT.
this is so psychology. and i think this is what's important, that i am able to apply to daily life what i learn in school. ahaha. no offense to math majors, but i don't think i would want to compute the area of starbucks everytime i'm there. HAHA. REINFORCEMENT.

if you all know about operant conditioning, you'd know that the frequency of a behavior increase or decreases depending on reinforcement and punishment. for example, if you want a kid to behave while in the mass, you could reinforce him to behave by saying that you'll go to jollibee if he does. and you could punish him by taking away something he likes, like not going to jollibee for a month. HAHA. same with what i'm doing now. lately, i've been buying boxes and boxes of donuts just because i like donuts and also because i use it as a reinforcement. everytime i finish a subject, i eat one piece. and i make sure that my system identifies it as a worthy reward so that i'll look forward to it, and study faster. bwaahhahah. kid. but it works. FOOD. yum.

or like last weekend, i had my Charlie Chan delivered, and ate only when i finished the long theo article. :) hahaha. yahoo. :D

or i sometimes do punishment, like if i spend one more hour on the internet and spend extra time procrastinating (outside of my allotted time for it), i spend one more hour studying. HAHA. well. it works. hahahahaha.

- CHOSE A NICE STUDY PLACE.
again, another cliche from the world of study tips. haha. in my case, my definition of a nice study place is somewhere FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR AWAY AWAY AWAY AWAY FROM THE INTERNET!!!!!!!!!!! it's a devil's advocate too. IT'S EVIL. therefore, stay away from Lance!!(my laptop) and so, anywhere far from the internet will do. like starbucks. and jollibee. HAHAHA.

here's another cog theory. how can i study in starbucks and jollibee when there's so many distracters?! well. one, the distracters help me focus. some people have their own distracters. like playing music on your ipod, or maybe leaving the tv on while studying, or studying in an ateneo-lasalle game. HAHAHA. (i don't know if the latter is possible. but, what the heck. haha huh?! haha) because of the many stimuli coming to my sensory register, i am able to filter out only the important stimulus like WHAT I'M STUDYING. :D and it helps me focus more.

and distracters, (in my theory) are small forms of procrastination. you see, when you take in information, you should take a break once in awhile to let the information process. it's like, taking in as much food as you can, and then you stop eating coz you're full right? your brain sometimes gets full too, and you have to stop for awhile to let it all in, let it all go to your long term memory, so that you'll remember it not only for the test but also for the rest of your life. (i swear you will, a similar stimulus will let you activate the node). so when you are distracted in that study place, you get a little break from studying and let the information process, incubate in your brain. and then when you get back to studying, you're all refreshed and ready to take in new information. hahaha

AND SO. MY LAST NOTE FOR A NICE STUDY PLACE IS.

STAY AWAY FROM THE BED!!! IT IS NEVER A NICE PLACE TO STUDY, NOR IS IT EVEN AN OPTION!!!! STAY AWAY! IT'S ANOTHER DEVIL'S ADVOCATE!!! HAHAHAHAHA

- NO TO CRAMMING.
i actually love studying (puke.) haha. but no really, i love studying especially psych subjects because i enjoy it. i love the examples i can think of while studying the theories. haha. and as much as i don't want to, i have to cram. if not, i'll fail the test miserably. but i really don't want, and am not an advocate of cramming. because its effects are short-term only, and the things you study when cramming will last only until you need them. so probably, by the end of the finals, you'll forget everything. (believe me, after cramming for a test, i read my notes after because i wanna remember them forever)

PLUS. crammed information may enter into ones long term memory, BUT IT WILL BE HARDER TO RETRIEVE THE INFORMATION later in life. so you'll always end up with the tip-of-the-tongue phenomenon, and you'll get frustrated by not being able to recall it immediately. unlike information that aren't crammed, your brain gets to process it thoroughly, like getting to chew your food and savor its flavor, so it goes to your long term memory with more meaning and with more understanding. so the next time you need the information, it'll be readily available and easier to retrieve. :D

it's never really effective so i suggest, using the distribution theory, you study everyday. :) at least, you don't study LARGE chunks of information so your brain doesn't overload. and because it's just a small chunk of information, you can process it thoroughly and give meaning and more understanding to it. :D also, there's this theory called the serial effect wherein one is more likely to remember things that were processed first (PRIMACY EFFECT) and things that were processed last (RECENCY EFFECT. the most recent). so if you cram, you'll only remember the first and last chapter. compared to distributing your information, at least, you get to remember the first and last part of every chunk of information everytime you study. thus, you get to remember more information. :D

HAHA i'm sure there are more theories to make studying more effective. :) but this is all i can think of. :) is this a long blog? it is noh? hahaha. oh look. it took me an hour to blog this. and i'm just in time for IISA PA LAMANG. HAHAHAHA LOL

i'm not hoping you'll use my theories, or use my tips.. i just wanted to see them so that i'll use them. HAHAHAHAHAHA. because sometimes they ARE effective, sometimes they're not. hahahahahaha

GOODLUCK TO EVERYONE!!!!!
GO FINALS!!!!!!!!!
KAMON ACADS!! BRING IT ON!!! BRING IT ON!!! *hayah!*

References haha
Regala. J. (2008). Happy anniversary to us!. Retrieved October 6, 2008 from www.pinktintedtelevisions.blogspot.com

this is GIVING IN at its best!!

2008-10-03T01:22:00.000-07:00

after calling up the Yellow Cab delivery hotline a few minutes ago, i realized. I've eaten everything i've been wanting to eat in a span of. what, a week!? HAHAHAHA.

here's how i succumbed to all the food.

GABBY STARTED IT ALL!!! BOO YOU. hahaha. joke lang gabby. :)
he treated me to cielo's, and we ate 3 CHEESE DONUTS each. yum yum yum. the best cheese donuts in the world. :)

next, i was reading the blog i wrote about craving, and i didn't take it, so i went all the way to the Petron station and got ineng's barbeque and a box of 3 Go Nuts Donuts!

the following day, Gar and i went to ineng's again to eat barbeque, and then i bought another box of 3 at Go Nuts Donuts. it was our physio test that day, and i told myself it was okay to eat so that i'd have enough energy to last throughout the test. HAHA. after the test, me and my friends went to Shakey's to have dinner. so i had PIZZA.

at the bonfire, Krispy Kreme Donuts was a concessionnaire so i bought a box of 6. WOOH. 2 Chocolate Iced Kreme Donuts, 2 Hershey's Cookies and Cream donuts, and two Ateneo donuts. they were heavenly.

Yesterday, we went to eastwood after our physio class to: 1. buy lei's concealer which was out of stock. 2. buy my webcam and headset and 3. EAT DAIRY QUEEN. nuf said.

later that day, lei and i got hungry, and called CHOWKING delivery for our dinner.

and now, i'm having Charlie Chan Chicken Pasta (i'm done with the pizza remember).

maybe tomorrow, i'm stopping by (stopping by?! more of heading to!) Break talk to buy cheese floss (remind me to blog about my love for cheese) and maybe visit Tracy in UP for some UP ISAW!!! woooh.

therefore i conclude, seeing the food you're craving on your blog and having your eyes feast on them all at the same time in the blog,
DOES NOT HELP.

bow.
TIMEE STOP EATING. SERIOUSLY.

DR. MANUEL "Jun" CUENCA!! I LOVE YOU! HAHAHA

2008-10-02T04:48:00.001-07:00

Huhuh.
Today, thursday October 2, was our last Physio Class for the semester. :)
For most of the part of this semester, i could say that PHSYIO was a pain in the A, cost us many brain cells to go astray, and a hell lot of effort (reminding you of the physio play we did.)

But. i now confidently say na, I'M WILLING TO TAKE PHYSIO AGAIN IF GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY!!!!!! (yaaabaang) but yes, i am. and it's true that you only get to realize the worth of something when it's gone. and now that physio class is over, i realized that i want to learn so much about physio, i feel that a semester is not enough. i realized that sir has made physio A LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT EASIER. and trust me please when i say a lot. because he has given handouts, he explains everything piece by piece, he goes through every step of every process involved, he spoonfeeds us if any of the reasons above doesn't convince you. And i super regret that i didn't really listen to his discussions, or read the book or his handouts. Because i knew that if i did study for Physio, i'd understand and learn more. and actually pass his exams. :P

and i just love love love love love sir cuenca. adopt me sir adopt me. HAHA

AND HERE'S MORE ABOUT SIR CUENCA.
- he's a neurosurgeon based in St. Luke's Hospital (and i know for a fact that there are a few neurosurgeons in the country, 7 ata? wooh. i'm so proud of sir.) HE'S ON CALL. So anytime there's an emergency at the hospital he has to leave class, or answer any calls. HAHAHA
- he's the only teacher teaching Physiological Psychology in the Psych Dept. He teaches two classes, 70 students each, composed of 3rd Year AB PSY students and 2nd year BS PSY students. WHEW SIR. and to think he's just part time.
- he's teaching Neurology and Physiology to medicine students at the ASM-PH (Ateneo School of Medicine - Public Health). Part time. too. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
- He's also a student. taking is masters degree in something. HUWAT!!!!! was our first reaction. He's already a doctor and he's still taking masters degree in whaaaat!!! HAHA. GO SIR!!

In his goodbye speech during class, he said that sometimes doesn't go home anymore because he was so busy with everything he was doing. HELL YEAH. does he even get enough sleep!?!? it's so ironic that we discussed sleep in class, and he's not getting enough, or even any! Lei cried while he was saying his goodbyes because she proved her theory right: that sir doesn't have a family of his own(wife and kids) because he doesn't have time to. And even if he goes on dates, he'll be interrupted by hospital calls, and lots of stuff to do for school. WAAAH. SIR. ARE YOU STILL ALIVE.

And that's why i love sir cuenca so much.
and even if i'm dreading his Saturday 140 items FINAL EXAMS, i will always be grateful that he was my physio teacher. HUHUHUH. and i think the reason why he's in the academe too is probably to make up for the lack of intimate relationship in his life, he teaches because nothing beats the feeling of fulfillment seeing the success of the students you have taught. and sir cuenca feels complete just by seeing his students on top of their careers. :D and that's just very noble sir cuenca. you deserve an EMELOU THERESE GORECHO AWARD FOR GREATNESS. (soon, it's going to exist. the award i mean)

me, lei and deni.. bought a coaster for him saying
"TEACHER LIVES FOREVER. AND TOUCHES OUR HEARTS"
or something like that. i'll post a photo of it soon.
we're going to give it to him during our final exam.

i wish i took a video footage of the last class, because everything he said was just so. HUHU
he even said "guys, you can throw away all the handouts. But please keep this last handout i'm giving you." and he gave out copies of Thomas Merton's "A Letter To a Young Activist"

read it. it's awfully inspiring.

"grades are just numbers. i always believe that my students are better than their grades."
- Dr. Manuel Cuenca

CONGRATULATIONS ATENEO BLUE EAGLES! EAGLETS! and WOMEN'S SWIMTEAM!!

2008-09-30T09:50:00.000-07:00

actual bonfire during the event. pretty noh? no photoshop here.
photo by tonio mendoza

for that. you deserve that BONFIRE EVENT. :D
which is currently happening right as we speak (SPEAK!? HAHA) at the muddy, wet and dirty bellarmine field. :)

after accompanying lei, oli and denise in eliazo to do their cog paper, we went to our physio make up class at escaler... it was productive make-up class because i learned so much. GOODJOB.
i know that our bladder can only take as much as 500mL of urine. :) you'll start feeling the urge to pee as early as 150mL. cool noh? haha. (did i listen well? are these correct? haha) i also know that there are two processes our body undergoes to maintain homeostasis (a state in which everything reaches its optimal level, or when everything is IN BALANCE and should be in the right amount) ; diffusion (movement from higher concentration to lower concentration) and Osmosis (movement across a semi-permeable membrane) HEY PARENTS LOOK!! this is where your money is going. :D HAHAHA it's a long long story, i'd be happy to explain everything to you if you want. :) but it's not the point of my blog.

after physio class, we walked to bellarmine field. and believe me, it looked like Dinagyang in Iloilo. everyone was walking on the streets, lights and music, and the whole package. :) i got excited when i saw kirk's oversized standee in front of Xavier. mmm. i miss kirk. HAHA! kid. it was super traffic, it was hard for the vehicles to move around because. the traffic hardly moved. HAHAHA. and EVERYONE WAS THERE. i'd probably say a few hundred out of the whole population of ateneo didn't come. it looked like there was an ateneo-lasalle game, only. crowdier. (if there is such a word. hahA)

we attempted to walk towards the field, and we realized. IT WAS ALL MUDDY. as it had rained a few hours before. we decided to go back to my dorm and pick up shoes that i was willing to lend and para ipang-lusob sa putik. so there, we went to the field to buy food. i will not blog how much i hated the SALAGNA (haha! i said that instead of LASAGNA. haha) because it wasn't worht 80php, and i waited for so long only to find out the lasagna was the only food left in the stall i lined up for. STUPID STUPID STUPID. and so, to make me happy....

i bought KRISPY KREME.:)

the sight of the green and white (lasalle! HAHA) polka-dotted donut factory cheered me up a little. i bought 2 ateneo donuts, 2 chocolate iced-kreme donuts and 2 hershey's cookies and cream donuts. and it made my day. :D weeeh

oh and there were freebies around the place, we were given a free bottle of Propel and a bag. :)) funny. and then there was beer too, but only for those 21 and above. oh well. i don't like beer anyway. HAHAHA

and so. speaking about SCHOOL SPIRIT. :)

i remember how much of a fan i was for kirk long last year. :D i cried when i had my picture taken with him, and when he signed my jersey. :D

HAHA. he doesn't play as well as chris tiu does, or rabeh al-hussaini, but. i don't know. he's really cute. :D hihi *kilig* but i will stay true to this semi-obssession, and will support kirk long even if he's on the bench most of the time. :) AHAHAHA. LOVE YOU KIRK!!!!

here's a jersey a good friend of mine gave to me to inspire me to lose weight. BWAHAHA. well. it didn't work, but i cried when he gave it to me. he got it from kirk, straight from his closet. and i felt so close to him. like our worlds were going to meet any moment. HAHA.

i have not washed any of the jerseys. eeew. kid. hahaha. i'm not planning to. :D be disgusted if you must, i'm not washing them. when i marry kirk, i'll have them framed and put them in our room. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. libre lang mangarap. cheh ka.

GO ATENEO!! ONE BIG FIGHT!!

i have theo orals tomorrow.

2008-09-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

well. too bad for the rain that made the bel field grounds all muddy and wet and dirty. we left early because we gave up. we couldn't see the stage anyway, and it was impossible to go around the field with the field looking like that. eeeeekk. sorry, i wasn't in the mood to play in the mud, if i was, i would've log-rolled all the way to the stage just to see kirk long. but i realized it wasn't worth it. i see them in school anyway. so.

and we went home earlier than expected because we have theo orals tomorrow.
and when i returned, i found my room... stared.

dropped my bags, and cleaned everything. HAHAHA

and I AM PROUD OF MYSELF for being like this. weirdly OC. :) hahaha

LOOK! LOOK!

*pats herself* GOODJOB!

giving in. IT'S FOOD WEEK.

2008-09-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

i just came home from shakey's with deni, gar and lei. and i think. my tummy hurts.
we decided to "celebrate" because the physio test was over. all we had to worry were cog paper, expe paper, theo orals. uy dami pa pala. hAhahaha

but the feeling after a physio long test. priceless.

so we went to shakeys. BOO OLI. you weren't there. HAHA

thank you gar, deni and lei for a wonderful dinner. i died. i'm so full i feel like i won't eat na for the rest of my life. HAHAHAHAHAHA

and so i declare this week, FOOD WEEK.

it all started last saturday, when gabby and i went to cello's for a box of CHEESE DONUTS.

can i just say i gave in to my craving and went to cello's. HAHAHA CELLO'S IS LOVE.

sinful. lovely. heavenly. fresh from the oven, creamy... CHEESE DONUTS. :D

Sunday... as i posted, i wanted to eat more donuts, and barbeque. so i triked myself all the way to the Petron gas station, went to Ineng's and ordered two 12" pork bbq and stopped by Gonuts Donuts to get.. uhh.. donuts. 2 pastillas de leche and one strawberry donut. :D i was happppy...

Monday. today.
i ate what was left of my Ineng's for breakfast... and then ate the last 2 donuts (last 2? HAHA)... and then went to school.. i was busy with everything... expe defense/presentation, philo (?!), and then PHYSIO LONG TEST. arrrgghh.. i've already gotten used to the frustrating feeling after a physio long test. so. blah.

so my friends and i decided to celebrate!!! that was our last physio long test. (next: finals. rarr)
we went to shakeys... and ordered a PAMILEH MEAL. HAHAHAHA....

oh prior to this, we went to lei's dorm to:
- get lei's wallet...
- satisfy deni's thirst
- let oli take a bath
- let gar bring her things
- let timee make asar to deni. HAHAHAHAA

when we were outside, we realized that rabeh and baclao's dorm was just across lei's dorm. so we shouted "RABEHH!!!!!!!!" and then hid inside the car. HAHAHAHAHAHA. tapos. we kept on opening the windows and shouted "RABEH!! BACLAO!!!! NONOY!!! RABEH!!!" hahahahahahaha and then deni's car ran. (RAN?) hahahaha. it was really funny. HAHA

oh, and not to forget the wonderful words made today:
- white mocholate choca (starbucks' white chocolate mocha. by timee gorecho)

- gar: do you want siomai or jollibee hotdog?
deni: shotdog.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

- i forgot one, i wrote it down in the shakeys placemat. argh.

- deni's nanay phrases: "by and by", "lo and behold" (oli: bhold), "accompany me"

today, is just benta. HAHAHAHAHA.

anatomy of my dorm.

2008-09-29T07:07:00.000-07:00

as you all know, i live in I.S.O Residence Halls, an ISOlated island within the Ateneo campus.
before, it used to be everyone's tambayan... it used to be a home to students who wanted a quick nap, those who had a group all-nighter, and a smoking pocket for most students.

but now it's a THREAT to everyone. ever since they made new rules, ever since they appointed a prefect, ever since this year. ARGH.

here are some new changes in my dorm this year:
- NO MORE VISITORS inside the rooms. it's just sad that back when i was in first year, my room was our tambayan before going to our INTAC class. my room was oli's quick nap-place, deni's pasundo place, deni's penge ng tubig place. etc. it's just sad that no one's allowed inside anymore.
- CURFEWS. back then, we didn't have curfew. but now we're expected to be in the dorm by 12 during weekdays, and 2am during weekends. i don't have a problem with this because. i usually go back to the dorm early. but i was thinking of the other people who have group papers and meetings and projects to do. some are forced to sleep outside in people's condos and houses because they can't come home to iso. eh, mas unsafe nga yon eh. stupid stupid rule.
- PREFECT. can i just say that back when i was in 1st and 2nd year, we didn't have a prefect yet. AND WE WERE PERFECTLY FINE. now that we have prefect, we have cases like robbery, disciplinary cases and stuff. stupid stupid stupid.

i'm just pissed off.

BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT OF MY BLOG!!!!

every friday, i go home to my corner, all messed up and looking like the remains of a terrible calamity. i think it's because every mwf i'm always running late so i throw things left and right, fly my way around, not fix anything.. every tth, i get up late, because my class is still at 12.. so i couch-potato myself till 11:45am, and then i rush my way around again. HAHA.

here's what it looks like now.

laundry scattered on the floor, on the sides of the bed, on my table... unfixed bed.. rice cooker out...ketchup on the table (??)... alcohol beside it... earrings... tissue... plastics... etc... it's basically just everything where i can see them. HAHA. but every weekend i make it a point that i fix everything. because i am a weirdly Obssessive-Compulsive person. i'm really really really messy, but when you let me organize and clean stuff, it's going to be extremely OC-clean. HAHAHA. and the weekend is usually the time i get to study(yeah right), and i can't study if everything is messy. so i have to fix everything.

but today is just MONDAY. i didn't get to fix my corner over the weekend because i was too tamad to do anything. i tried studying physio but my brain wasn't processing anything. so. hahah ewan. it's still monday and my corner looks like that. how much more if i let this reach fridaY? haha. will i still see the floor? HAHAHA. and it's finals week next week. do i have time for this? hahahahahahaahaha

GOODLUCK.

i just realized that. cleaning up is a ritual for me. a precursor (physio!!) before i study. HAHA. it's weird. but. yey. another discovery about moi. HAHA

TRYING TO LOSE THE CRAVING.

2008-09-28T00:05:00.000-07:00

testing testing. i just want to see if the craving will go away if i see all the food i'm craving for in one look. BECAUSE I'M SO CRAVING FOR EVERYTHING. sob.

isaw

chowking

bread talk : cheese floss

dairy queen blizzard : brownie temptation

pork barbeque

cello's donuts : cheese

go nuts donuts

krispy kreme donuts

yellow cab pizza and charlie chan

GO ATENEO!!! ONE BIG FIGHT!!!

2008-09-26T03:45:00.000-07:00

UAAP '71 MEN'S BASKETBALL CHAMPIONS
ATENEO BLUE EAGLES!!!!!!!

so here's my ateneo-lasalle game 2 blog. HAHAHA
kala nyo kayo lang. HAHAHA

September 25, 2008 - Thursday
i slept over at lei's dorm because she didn't have roommies, so i accompanied her. (hindi, di ako natulog, sinamahan ko lang sha. HAHA KID) we woke up at 9am feeling all BOO and LOSER-y because wala kaming tickets. when we started walking to our first class (physio 12nn) we saw everyone walking towards the trike stop, wearing blue shirts.. (naka blue si lei, ako naka white. oh diba. di kami bitter. haha) huhuhu tapos sobrang na depress kami kasi wala nga kaming tickets...

in physio class, nagyayabang pa si sir because "you want to go na? haha. okay lang.. kahit andito ako until 3pm. eh.. ako, may tickets na. HAHA" YABANG MO SIR!! HHAHAH!! tapos biglang sabi ng sister ng boofra ni lei may tickets sha!! tapos we texted deni to look for tickets.. HAHAHA

deni. nag eavesdrop sa people sa likod nya.. she overheard them talking about two extra upper b tickets.. and they were selling it. HAHA KINAUSAP NI DENI. HAHA and then we called them up.. etc etc.. THERE. :) the tickets were sold to us na. (at a scalper-friendly price HAHAHAHA) WOOH!

bakit mukha akong tan na tan sa picture. beach daw ang araneta. hahaha. look, that's my knee. hahaha.

we got the tickets at the gates na, and then. BASTA. SOBRANG LUCKY NAMIN, HAHAHA NAPADPAD KAMI SA UPPER A. PAANO?! SECRET!!! AHHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!! and then yung place nila deni sa upper a masikip na, so lei and i went to find other seats.. LO AND BEHOLD (deni nanay haha) sa harap ng friend namin meron parang platform.. nag indian sit kami don, at lumuhod sa buong game. HAHA. kasi natakot kami bka mahulog kami. and ang lapit namin sa ring, i was scared to scream I LOVE YOU KIRK LONG kasi baka marinig nya. hihihi. shy me eh (unlike yung iba na sinigawan si chris tiu. ehem ehem.)

hahahahaha. bakit puro katabi namin yung pinipicturan. hahaha, marami pa kaming pics.
i mean. marami pang pics yung mga katabi namin. hahaha

GO ATENEO!!!! ONE BIG FIGHT!!!

IT ENDS AT GAME TIU!!!!!
WIN OR LOSE IT'S THE SCHOOL WE TIU!!! (ang benta nito. haha)
gRABEH AL-HUSSAINI!!!!!!
you can't defy gRABEHty!!!!!
JAInamite!!!!!!
my LONG awaited herooo!!

dear lasalle... :D

nung natalo kami wala naman kaming reklamo ah. :)
bakit bumibitter kayo? :D
can't you accept defeat gracefully?

IT'S OUR YEAR.
WWWWWWOOOOOOOHHHH!!!!!!

HELL WEEK. :)

2008-09-24T07:35:00.000-07:00

hell yeah. HAHA
it's our very very wonderful hellweek.
here's what's in line for us this week:
- COG PAPER due oct3
- COG LONGTEST on Friday
- EXPE PAPER Oct3
- EXPE Presentation on Monday
- THEO ORALS on Oct1 (we aren't supposed to have classes. argh)
- PHILO PAPER on Oct 3
- PHYSIO MAKE UP CLASS Friday

and. what did we do today? :D
oli, deni and lei were supposed to do their Cog paper, and gar and i were supposed to start on the EXPE paper. when we all got hungry, gar and deni left to order KFC.. it took them forever to come back. HAHA. after eating, we just.

bummed around.
it was funny. because from 12:30 to 6pm, we didn't even do 1/16 of everything we had to do. :) We just bummed around, played RUSH HOUR, TETRIS, watched videos, talked, ate, talked, danced, laughed. it was love. :)

lei frustrated with tetris.

oli playing a game on her gossipgirl phone.

deni playing rush hour, and gar packing up. haha

(thank you deni for the picture. :) HAHHA. lei playing rush hour, timee playing tetris, gar giving deni a massage, deni. uhh. HAHAHA)

thank you friends for that wonderful afternoon. :)

ENTAyaw!

2008-09-23T05:21:00.000-07:00

so what happened to the wonderful people of ENTAyaw! :)

(josh, you're not the only one with pics. BLEH)

i must say, for amateurs at dancing, WE DID PRETTY WELL. HAHAHA
yes, we admit that we ARE amateurs, BUT HELL WE DID GREAT!!! HAHAHA
we looked great!! we did great!! we felt great!! WOOH!!
That was a FIRST in ENTABLADO history!!! WOOOOOOHHH!!!!

Thank you to Leinard Ramos, ENTABLADO's coordinator for allowing us to join the concert!
Thank you to Lei, Ate Virr, Ate Meenuh and Mika for creating ENTAyaw!
Thank you to the Company of Ateneo Dancers for accepting us into this competition!
Thank you to ALL THE ENTA MEMBERS WHO GAVE THEIR SUPPORT!!!
Thank you to the project head, our personal assistant, the almighty Danica Pasia. THANK YOU SOO MUCH! DI NAMIN TO KAKAYANIN KUNG WALA KA. :)

Thank you Joshua Lagandaon, Jika Regala, Jermaine Dimayacyac, Nicole Cambal, Dach Casiple, Mike Gaisano, Judge de Asis, Geoc Batad and Gabby Gonda for not giving up! :) WE DID IT!!! YAHHOOOO

here's the actual dance we presented during the Rhythm in Blues concert. :) WOOHHOOO!!!

"oh dear! somebody's been sleeping on my bed!"

2008-09-22T20:18:00.000-07:00

Dora, Chip, Bebi, Teddy and Aleia

hey please leave some space for me tonight okay.

i'm regressing.

whattaday!

2008-09-22T03:07:00.000-07:00

i don't think i can take much more depression in my life, because:
1. it's unhealthy
2. it's expensive
3. it makes me think.
(4. oh and it hurts. you'll see why, later)

September 22, 2008. Today is probably the most unusual day i've ever had in my college life. Aside from the unexpected and "depressing" (but not anymore now) news, i think. i've seen the things that can happen to me when i feel this way.

After pouring out the negative feelings, i went back to the dorm to change into comfortable clothes, and went to the mvp basement to meet up with jika and gabby. dolly went with us too. we went to eastwood ("EASE"wood) just to eat ice cream. just because we needed the "comfort" from this comfort food, badly. that trip away from the "real" world was just a fun ride. thank you jika, gabby and dolly. our short trip to "fantasy" world was the best. i couldn't think of a better way to spend it, than with you guys. :) kahit iniiwan na tayo ng taxi (pati ba naman taxi umaayaw sa atin? haha) mahal na mahal ko kayo. :)

i felt so much better after. i heart you all.
(special mention to jose antonio tanjuan, thank you)

so why is being depressed unhealthy.

1. IT IS UNHEALTHY.
we were only planning to splurge on ice cream. dairy queen. BUT NO. we ate lots of stuff.
- dairy queen.. brownie temptation without nuts, 16oz for me. always works.
- gabby's new york fries and lotsa dips...
- jika's green candy sourtapes..
all the unhealthy stuff we can think of. now, my stomach really really hurts, i don't know if my period is coming up after two months of being absent, or it's just because of everything bad i ate. well. i felt good after. so.

i guess it was okay.

2. IT IS EXPENSIVE. why.
- dairyqueen. wooh. spending p90 on a calorie-rich, sinfully fattening brownie temptation is just expensive. i promised i wouldn't spend over p500 this week. but no. i did. today.
- i have a new buddy. in my bed. for the past week, aside from Dora, Aleia and Teddy, someone arrived: Chip. Chip is condom's toy. He asked me if i could keep chip for the meantime, because his parents might think of things when he brings this huge thing home. so. every morning this is what i see.

but i have a new friend. he's not as big as chip, but he sure makes me happy. :) his name is "bebi" inside joke, but bebi is a character from the play i'm in. :)

- and because i was depressed. i shopped. i bought this dress, and when i put it on when i got home, i didn't like how it looked on me. so i'm planning to sell it. if interested, email me at mynameistimeeandiamneat@yahoo.com, it's P300 (L=31.5in, W=15.5in)

3. IT MAKES ME THINK.
well. do i have to explain this. i don't think i can talk about it openly in here, but i just want to say that everything that had just happened made me think if everything was worth it, if i was good enough, if i was waley, if i was doing anything to make my life better, i don't know. i have just thought of a lot of things today, it made my head hurt. really.

4. IT HURTS.
look what i got.

the last time i had my ears pierced was when i was in 2nd year highschool. i was forced to take it off because my school didn't permit extra piercings. and then. there. ask dolly how hard i held his hand. AHAHA

maybe. it was because. the pain i felt hurt more than how much ear-piercing hurt. (aw emo)

but i guess, i'm okay now. i just needed to understand everything. it'll take time to digest it really, but soon, i'll be fine. whew. *breathes deeply*

i can do this.

my present. my future. :)

2008-09-21T03:38:00.000-07:00

i love you. so much.
you'll always be in my heart.

i wanna have your babies.
something's telling me it might be you.
love of my life.
nothing's gonna stop us now.
nothing's gonna change my love for you.

photo from www.fabilioh.com

here's the buzz. HAHA

2008-09-15T19:05:00.000-07:00

how do i start.
uhm.

can i just copy paste from my multiply? haha

SEPT13(sat)
i arrived at the dorm just now from dance rehearsals.. and i was soo tired. the dishes on the sink was smelly na so i washed them, and then changed because naiinis ako sa suot ko sobrang dumi at sagabal sa movements, and. bsta. i didn't have a nice day.

and then. i hear renaldo lapuz singing "i am your brother" from somewhere. it was my phone ringing. i grabbed it and answered it. the call was from my tita in cebu.

tita ati: GUESS WHO'S BESIDE ME NOW!!!
timee: (kirk long? tom cruise? brad pitt? billy crawford? joke lang) who?
tita: uye's dad!!!!
timee: WAAAAH REALLY! HHAHAHAHA
tita: uye is in don bosco manila pala!!!
timee: oohh. okay.. haha
tita: wala pa sha girlfriend!!!
timee: HAHAHA OKAY?! HAHAHAHAHAHA
tita: YOU'RE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER!!
timee: HAHA!
tita: i gave them your email address, your multiply and your number. :)
timee: cge cge.. tell uye's dad i said hi. :)
tita: cge cge.. bye bye! :)

WHO IS UYE.

okay. he's someone i've never mentioned to anyone in my whole life. ever since i left cebu when i was 10 years old, i've never talked to anyone about him. and i think the only people who know this "uye" are my family. thus, the call from tita. :)

so to answer the who question.

uye. is my childhood bestfriend. we have been friends ever since we were 2. we lived next to each other, as in literally next to each other. our house in cebu was a duplex, so ours was the other half, and uye lived in the other half of the whole house. and we saw each other everyday of our lives. i'd go home, wait for him to arrive, play, and then eat dinner at the terrace. and then when my dad starts to lock me out of the house (habang nasa terrace pa ako haha) i'd say my goodbyes to uye and then go to sleep. and it was like that everyday of our lives.

aw. come to think of it, i miss my childhood very much. i miss him very much. :)

we separated ways when his family moved out of their house to some far place. but eventually he'd come and visit me during my birthday, my brothers' birthday, and. ewan. yon lang. we were 8 years old by then.

when i found out that we were all moving to iloilo, i was okay with it. before we left, i dragged my helper with me to uye's house in that far place just so that i could say goodbye to him. and that was it. i've never heard of him ever again.

i know his complete name. that's it. i didn't know how to trace him. my mom tried calling every "lim" she could find in the directory, but each time, it was a wrong LIM.

if you're my multiply friend, you'd know how i feel right now. because. hahaha. i admit it openly!!! that it all feels weird!! knowing that we're not kids anymore and we have more to worry about.. back then it was just playing house house, tracing and coloring books, watching tv, hanging out at each other's houses and eating at the terrace. but now there are more things to think of and it's just weird. i cannot believe that we are texting after 10 years of not hearing from each other. :) of course, i'm sooo thrilled to finally have found him. or. him finding me. HAHA.

i feel weird, but it's okay. :D
i'm happy. :D

current LSS. :D

2008-09-15T10:19:00.001-07:00

time..
i've been passing time watching trains go by... all of my life..
lying on the sand watching sea birds fly...
wishing there could be someone waiting home for me...
something's telling me it might be you... all of my life..

looking back as lovers go walking past..
wondering how they met and what makes them last..
if i found the place, would i recognize the face..
something's telling me it might be you. :D
it's telling me it must be you. :D

so many quiet walks to take, so many dreams to wake..
and there's so much love to make..
i think we're gonna need some time.. maybe all we need is time.. :D
and it's telling me it might be you... all of my life..

i've been saving love songs and lullabies...
and there's so much love, no one's ever heard before...
something's telling me it might be you..
and it's telling me it must be you...
and i'm feeling that it'll just be you..
all of my life..

maybe it's you i've been waiting for all of my life. :D

this is definitely on the playlist on my wedding day. :D

something that brightened me up.

2008-09-13T06:38:00.000-07:00

i love smosh. :)
i love this. :)

i hate my boobs.

2008-09-13T06:08:00.000-07:00

but sometimes it helps to think that i'm more blessed than the others. BWAHAH.

but today was not my boob day.
i went to the music workshop today. learned a lot of good things from our musical director, sir noel.. and we also learned a new song from the play itself.. so.. it was good.
we then had lunch at world topps.. and then josh and i went to the CADs ORGreps PROD number rehearsal... learned really hard steps. WHEW. and then went to the ENTAyaw rehearsals.. we were complete for like 30 minutes. WOOH. But finally, we were done with our blockings and transitions. and we just need polishing and stuff. so. i'm positive about it.

today just required a looooot of movement, and i'm just sooo tired. my bra wasn't cooperating with me, i think i need to find a bra that feels like it's not there. suggestions anyway? not wearing a bra is not an option. although i think it's very comfortable, i also think people around me aren't going to be comfortable. rofl.

and so my bra wasn't cooperating, i had a hard time moving around. every step, i needed to fix my bra. but then i don't think it was the bra. i think that if i had smaller breasts, i would be more comfortable moving around.

and i was more pissed when i arrived at my dorm to the smell of stinky dishes. i had to wash them, and i couldn't move around the room because there were too many stuff lying around and i needed space to just fall and sleep on the floor. arg. i don't know if i'm making sense anymore. i'm just really really tired.

and i realized a lot today.
it was just a really bad day.

i woke up pissed off because of things i cannot put here in my blog.
i'm sorry but i was just pissed off at most of the people i saw today. "most". NOT ALL.
what was probably a good part of my day was the CADs rehearsals. because it was productive.
i'm not saying that the music workshop and the entayaw rehearsals weren't productive.
they were. i just love dancing.

i realized.
i don't like being rushed. i like to do things on my own pace. i know whenever i'm slow or i'm too fast, and i know when to adjust. i don't like people nagging me, reminding me what to do because I KNOW WHAT TO DO. I KNOW. I DONT NEED PEOPLE TO REMIND ME. (unless i ask them to, or unless i badly need it)

i don't like being pushed around. literally and figuratively. today i was pushed(literally), and it pissed me off. i don't know. maybe, it's psychological. maybe it's something related to me not wanting people to tell me what to do. because i know what i'm doing and what i ought to do.

i don't like people stepping on me, figuratively and literally. LALO NA ANG LITERALLY. HELLO, TANGA KA BA, ANG LAKI KO NA NGA DI MO PA AKO MAKITA. i was stepped on today, a lot of times by a lot of people in different parts of my body and it pissed me off. nakakainis yon. even if it was an accident, nakita mo na nga ako don tapos aapak ka pa. tanga.

sorry. it was just a bad day.

i hate people who are insensitive.
i hate people who are so full of themselves, they ask you things about you so that they can prove they're better than you.
i hate people who keep talking about themselves, they don't listen anymore.
(psychologically, the people you hate reflect who you are or who you want to be. and if i'm like that,

i don't care.)

and last.
i don't like people touching or talking to me about my issues regarding my self-esteem. i may seem very outgoing and loud and kapal, but psychologically i have a low self-esteem. i don't like people talking to me about it or asking me about it. i know how to handle my issues. and if i don't handle them well, then it's my problem not yours. lately i have been sensitive, and it's not funny.
(maybe because i haven't gotten my period in the last two months. and this is just a MAJOR PMS.) but it's not funny.

i'm tired.
i'm sick.
i'm pissed off.

night.

cut me some slacks.

2008-09-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

---- hahaha. don't think i'm that stupid. HAHA. i got that line from the book "the more the manyer" HAHAHAHA

i'm feeling full today. i ate corned beef sandwich and i want to puke. i feel like i've eaten enough to last for a lifetime. i cannot eat more. and i already want to sleep but i'm so full, i don't want to die yet. BOO.

so i'm going to blog instead.

A few days ago, like last Wednesday, i went to the auditions for KWIK-E, our newbie production. Yes, i wasn't a newbie anymore, but then our newbie production last year was cancelled and so we were allowed to audition for this. COOL. And so, my first ever audition for a play in enta went good. It was a good audition in the sense that i didn't feel bad, that i didn't think i didn't do my best, or that i didn't think that i didn't have a chance at passing the auditions. :) I just had to be kapal to survive auditions. :)

(thank you ena for the screenshots. haha.)

so there i was in the auditions, auditioning for role of Eileen from Eyeball. I was also asked to read the role of Dulce from Isang Libong Tula Para Sa Dibdib ni Dulce. HAHAHA i laughed when i saw the script that kuya Kalil gave me. HAHA. And then Leinard asked me to read Jovy from a play i'm not familiar of. :) HAHA sorry. oh well.

results came out today. :) and i'm somewhat happy for the role i got, i think i can pull it off. I HOPE SO. :) HAHAHA. Although i didn't get what i wanted, i'm so okay with the role i got. :)

I'm part of the play, St. Anthony Pray For Us. :) The story is about Toinette(my role), a woman in her midlife who is a single mother(separated from spouse) and who is a mess.
(ehem) And while she is going around looking for stuff that is lost, she keeps on praying to St. Anthony, the patron saint for. uhhh. finding lost things? i guess. HAHAHA. anyway, but since St. Anthony can't be there for her all the time, he sent an ANGEL to find Toinette's lost things. The story is pretty interesting. Talking all by myself. (because i can't hear the angel right.) SO. BETTER WATCH OUT. :)
St. Anthony Pray For Us, is one of the 10 plays in KWIK-E. :D There will 9 other plays performed every show, so. BETTER WATCH OUT FOR IT! HEHEHE. :D :D :D

i'm pretty excited. :) thank you ENTA for this opportunity. :) HAHAHA

ON THE OTHER HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND.

i have tons of things to get done asap, so in case i get lost, i have this blog to open. :)

SATURDAY SEPT 13
- BENTAW2: MUSIC WORKSHOP 9-12am, BEL207
- ENTAyaw! rehearsals afternoon
- CADS orgreps prod num rehearsals 6 onwards gonzaga exhibit hall
- give Felo evals for Batibot-Olandes (ENTA NSTP)

SUNDAY SEPT 14
- host SPEED FAMILY DAY San Jose Covered Courts (needed there by 830am)
- ADMU-UE game Araneta Colliseum 4pm (leave at 2pm!)
- text subjects/participants for experiment on Monday

MONDAY SEPT15
- Experiment at 10:30-11:30 AM CTC301
- ENTAyaw! rehearsals afternoon!! ASAP ASAP ASAP
- CADS rehearsals at Henry Lee Irwin theater with TECH 5:50-6pm
- 1st Script Reading for KWIK-E at Faculty Lounge 6-9pm

so far. i have it all under control. :D

i love cherry pie picache.

2008-09-12T04:49:00.000-07:00

okay.

i've been told a million times.

that i look like cherry pie picache.
and everytime i react, people keep on saying "she's pretty naman ah"
well, yes i agree. but. but. but.
there are reasons why i do not want to be compared with/to her, which i cannot explain.
so enjoy teasing me while my patience is still long. :D (it may break anytime. haha)

so why am i blogging about cherry pie picache. :)

i was watching this teleserye on ABS-CBN, "Iisa Pa Lamang"
and Claudine Baretto and her were fighting.. and this was how the conversation went:

Claudine: PAG NALAMAN KONG IKAW ANG PUMATAY SA TATAY KO, AKO NA MISMO ANG PAPATAY SAYO!!!
Cherry Pie: PWES!! PUMILA KA!! DAHIL MARAMING GUSTONG PUMATAY SAKIN!! AT MAS NAKAKATAKOT SILA KESA SAYO!

and that whole episode of fighting and her appearing in every scene was just soooo awesome. :) i cannot explain. every line she threw at her enemies were so powerful, if i were cherry pie, i'd feel like i "K.O.-ed"(think tekken) my opponent with my every blow. :) hands down to the scriptwriter, and also to Ms. Cherry Pie for delivering the lines excellently. *kowtow*

i just love every line she said. and i think i'm going to like the soap. :)

but now i have to clean my room. it looks like crap.
it looks like a basurahan na tinubuan ng kwarto.
cha is going to fix her corner too. after. what, 4 months? no make that 6.
it has been this way ever since you left for Bangkok. :))
i'm not going to post a picture of her corner
(sorry cha, it's for your own good. HAHA)

so. seeyah when i seeyah. more updates soooooon. :)

ADMU-DLSU

2008-09-08T19:03:00.000-07:00

Last September 6, thousands of students, daddies tagging along their misises and babies, fanatics, basketball lovers, and let's not forget the scalpers, came to Araneta Colliseum to witness Ateneo-LaSalle 2nd game for the season. :D The place was flooded with only the colors blue and green, and each school roared their drums and cheers at each other.

OKAY IT'S A STRUGGLE TO PRETEND HOW TO PRETEND TO BE A WRITER. BWAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH

guess what. i was on www.fabilioh.com AGAIN! HAHAHAHHAHA. this is just funny. HAHA

i saw the people in front of me posing, and i saw the photographer down below aiming the camera at them. i tried to grab oli but she and deni were talking, and so...
I POSED. I SMILED. hahhahahahahahahahaha. i just loook stupid. i wanted it to look like it was candid. BUT NO. hahahahhaha. this is just fuuuunnnyyy. hahahaha

I was two hours early for the game. Oli, deni and i were seated at Upper A because ________.
So i camwhored.
and i love the shirt btw! :D

As for my dearest Kirk Long, he didn't play. That is just so sad. Sitting in Upper A and not seeing him play is just dear life. :( But it was foine. The game was good. :) Ateneo was always leading. :) Rabeh Al-Hussaini was sooo good, did he drink more basketball-enhancing-hormones-drink? HAHAHAHAHAHA Jai Reyes got good at shooting 3point shots! Chris Tiu, as always. haha. Nonoy Baclao was good too. Somehow, for some strange reason, our players got good. and i'm not complaining. GOOD JOB ATENEO!!! :D

can we take down your tarps now. let's go environment friendly please. :D HAHA
oh can i keep Kirk Long's 10x Life Sized stand along Blue Eagle Gym? Imma bring it inside our dorm, in the quad. :D

The final score was i think 65-57? hahaha. i forgot. oh well.
GOOOD game.

ONE BIG FIGHT!!!!

ADM102: Introduction to Ateneo-La Salle Games

2008-09-04T06:06:00.000-07:00

photo from one of last year's ADMU-DSLU games. :)

i got this one from multiply. :D

ADM 102: Introduction to Ateneo-La Salle Games
Thu/Sat/Sunday, 4:00 PM, Araneta Coliseum

Course Description
The course introduces the student-cheerer to the dynamics and principles of the Ateneo-La Salle rivalry. The course employs both theoretical and application dimensions. The theoretical phase exposes the student to the history of the rivalry, the tradition of cheering, the construction of the ideal Atenean 6th Man, and other theoretical concepts.

The application phase on the other hand requires the student to put into practice all the theoretical principles. These practices include, among others: effective skills in lining up for the games, cheering (pre-game, during the game, half-time and post-game), jeering, heckling, creating effective posters and banners for one's favorite players and posing and smiling for Fabilioh.com.

Course Objectives
By the end of the course, the student should have been able to:
* understand what it means to be the Sixth Man
* understand the difference between an Atenean and La Sallite
* integrated himself with the community of believers
* develop his school spirit

Course Outline and Reading List
Chapter 1: What is School Spirit?

* Required Readings:
o Excerpts from the "History of the Ateneo"
o The student's "OrSem Manual"
o "The Ateneo Cheerbook"
o "Who and What is the Ateneo Sixth Man?"
o Ruel De Vera's "The Eagles Have Landed"
o Selected Speeches of Angelico Sinjian (Ateneo Blue Babble Battalion)

Chapter 2: Knowing the Enemy

* Required Readings:
o SUSPENDED! The 2005 UAAP Scandal
o "We Must Come From/Hit Them From Behind"
o "What are Sports Science and Translation Management?"
o "How To Spell Correctly During Cheerdance Competition"

* Optional/Supplementary Readings
o "No Cheering During Time Out"
o "Get that Ball! -- UE"
o "Why are there Two Birds in UAAP?"
o "Who let the (Bull)Dogs out?"
o "You Cannot Overcheer Us!"
o "NABRO: Equality or Social Injustice?"

Chapter 3: Pre-Game Rituals

* Required Readings
o "The Art of Lining Up"
o "Sketching Great and Creative Posters and Banners for Your Favorite Players"
o "Scalpers and Where To Find Them"
o "Reserving Seats for Friends in Upper A and Upper B"

* Optional Readings
o "How to Jump From the Gen Ad to Upper B: A Step-By-Step Guide"
o "How to Jump From Upper B to Upper A: A Step-By-Step guide"

Chapter 5: Game Time

* Required Readings:
o "Developing Your Endurance"
o "The Psychology Behind Get That Ball"
o "Who are the Gang Green?"
o "Half-time is Game-Time"
o "Fly High" + "The Victory Song"

Chapter 6-A: When the Final Buzzer Beats (In case of Victory)

* Required Readings
o "The Song for Mary and the Proper Way to Sing It"
o "How to sing The Song For Mary and Still Look Cute for Fabilioh.com"
o "How To Argue with Sore Losers in PinoyExchange.com and Gameface.ph"

Chapter 6-B: When the Final Buzzer Beats (In case of Defeat)

* Required Readings:
o "Win or Lose, It's The School We Choose: Deepening Your Spirituality – The Sesquicentennial Edition"
o "Contemplating on the Meaning of Life: An Introduction"
o "Surviving the Wrath of Fr. Adolfo Dacanay SJ"

Course Requirements

Written Long Test will assess your memorization of the tradition and history of the Ateneo-La Salle rivalry. The test items consist of Multiple Choice questions and an evaluation of True or False statements.

Oral Exam. The student will randomly draw two cheers from a lot. The student must cheer/sing the cheers he picked. Afterwards, he must be able to explain the significance of the cheer/song. He must also be able to identify when these cheers/songs are used.

Practical Exam: The student must line up for tickets. This is a pass or fail exam. If the student is able to acquire a ticket, he automatically gets an A. If he doesn't get any ticket, he must take the Make-Up Test.

Make-up Test: Negotiating with Scalpers. Students who wish to pass the first practical exam for the course but failed to do so must take the Make-Up test. The student must locate a scalper within the vicinity of Araneta Coliseum. This is not a pass or fail test. The student's grade depends on how he was able to acquire a good ticket with the lowest possible price. The better the ticket with lower ticket price, the higher the grade.

Final Exam: Students are required to cheer during the game. The grade depends on the voice quality and frequency of the cheering. The Ateneo standard grading system will be applied. Therefore the passing score for the Final Exam is 70%. Students who cannot stand up and cheer 70% of the time automatically fail the exam.

Bonus points are given to students who are able to convince others to cheer loudly, either through a well-articulated speech or forceful coercion. Extra points are also awarded to fans who make creative banners for their favorite players.

Written Long Test: 20%
Oral Exam: 20%
Practical Exam: 20%
Final Exam: 40%

Course Policies and Other Reminders

1. Plagiarism. Plagiarism is an extreme offense. Do not copy cheers from other schools.
2. Cellphone Use. Using your cellphone to place in bets is illegal. Do not get yourself into
trouble.
3. Cuts. Once you are inside Araneta, you are not allowed to leave. You must watch all four
quarters. Win or lose, you are not allowed to leave before the Song for Mary is sung.
Doing so merits an automatic W for the course.

missing people. :)

2008-09-03T00:46:00.001-07:00

i don't think there's a cure for "missing". i've proven that today. well. seeing people made me happy, but then, it also made me realize that i missed them more and more. :(

after having at least 2 hours of sleep, i went to class early this morning, groggy and not in the mood. In our CogPsych class, my prof saw that i needed a lot of prayers so the class prayed for me. (haha!) I stayed up late last night because i crammed the 5 chapters of Experimental Psych, and read a little for my Philo Exam. (btw, did i tell you the funny story about the guy who fell/jumped from our 2nd floor at 3 in the morning? HAHA. yes, i am laughing because it was FUUUNNNY! HAHAHA.)

I went to our ExpePsych class and got the exam over and done with. i was around 20 minutes early. When i went out, guess who i saw! :)

HAHA. If you see this, patay. hAHAHA joke.
but. yeah. I MISSED YOU. :D swear. :)
It felt like i haven't talked to you in ages,
and it was really nice talking to you again. :)
i hope we could get together again just like before. :)
i miss ice creams with you, i miss annoying you about anything,

i missed you. :D

i missed you too. :)
sobrang tagal na tayong di nagkasama
we miss your corny jokes,
we miss your sabog hirits,
we miss your kwentos,

we miss you. :)

ahahah. YES I MISS YOU TOO!!!! HAHAHA
and i know YOU MISS ME TOO! haha
ADMIT IT! BWAHAH. :)

december is just so faaar far away,
i don't think i can wait any longer. :(

waaah. i'm just here. :)
i miss youuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i miss a whole lot of people pa. :D

let's be attractive!

2008-09-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

must attract good energy! :D

I AM THE DUCT TAPE QUEEN. :)

2008-09-01T06:42:00.000-07:00

it all started one NSTP optional insertion. my/our NSTP kids voluntarily went to area to make the props and to help the kids prepare and rehearse for their play, PAGONG AT MATSING. :) Doms, one of the very resourceful people in NSTP-enta, brought a HUGE, SCARY ROLL OF DUCT TAPE. :) and it made me. happy. :) as i watched over my/our nstp kids, i decided to play with dom's HUGE, SCARY ROLL OF DUCT TAPE. :) i few pieces/strips and a few pats on the back were all i needed to make that NSTP INSERTION FUN. :)

thus. from this day on, i declare myself.

THE DUCT TAPE QUEEN.
i'm so mature. :D

well. it was fun-ner the following day, during the LAST NSTP INSERTION, because everyone got involved. We were at the area because it was the kids' performance at their LINGGO NG WIKA Culminating Activity. And so. i started the trend again. and here are just some of my favorites.

Abby Malay

Harald Tomintz

Ekha Villasanta

Cai Subijano
Isaac Cortez
Tal Rodriguez
Mike Gaisano
Jer Dimayacyac
and Justin Caparros

HAHAHAHAHAHA. and yes, REVENGE IS SWEET.

this is me. duct taped by them.

AND SHORT. *evil laugh*

what i really want to say in this blog is.
THERE GOES THE FIRST SEMESTER OF NSTP-ENTABLADO.
And i'm proud to say that we pulled it off quite well. :)
I'm proud of felo and myself for being the best monitors ever. :)
I'm proud of the NSTP cadettes who did a job well done. :)
I'm proud that we were able to follow the calendar. :)
GOOD JOB. One Sem down. One more to go. :)
SEE YOU NOVEMBER dearies!
Congratulations!! WOOOHHH

NSTP-ENTABLADO:
Formator - Noelle Flores
Monitors - Timee Gorecho & Felo Mangawang
Cadettes: Kaila Alapide, Justin Caparros, Justin de Asis, Mike Gaisano, Rina Go, Paolo Banaga, Jer Dimayacyac, Andrei Corpus, Isaac Cortez, Cai Subijano, Abby Malay, Harald Tomintz, Ekha Villasanta, Tal Rodriguez, Bianca Redoblado, Lester Sy, Mojica Tequia, Dominic Solpico. :)

dearest readers and fans. since there are no comments with my blogskin, ekha provided me with this CBOX. so PLEASE CLICK on "all this time" on the left part of this blog for the comment box. :)

ENTAyaw!

2008-08-30T00:36:00.000-07:00

PHOTO courtesy of Tonio Mendoza
L-R: Jika Regala, Gabby Gonda, Nicole Cambal, Jer Dimayacyac, Timee Gorecho, Judge de Asis, Dach Casiple
not in picture: Mike Gaisano, Geoc Batad, Josh Lagandaon

Naghanap kung saan pa maaaring ibuhos ang talento matapos yanigin ang apat na sulok ng teatro, sumiklab sa mga munting puso ng mga kabataang naguumapaw ang pagka-Pilipino ang regalo ng pagsayaw. Sa bawat hampas ng mga kamay, sa bawat galaw ng ulo, sa bawat alindog ng baywang, at sa bawat pagsabay sa tunog – isinisigaw at ipinaglalaban ang wasto, ang tama, at higit sa lahat, ang dugo.

Binuo ng mga kabataang patuloy na nabubuhay sa apoy ng sining na siyang handog ng Diyos,

Isang sayaw para sa bayan,

Isang sayaw para sa teatro,

Ito ang ENTAYAW ng ENTABLADO.
write up by Joshua Lagandaon

ENTAyaw!, was established(haha) through the efforts of John Leinard Ramos, Virlynn Ramirez and Meenuh Elfa. ENTABLADO's dance crew started during the Buwan at Baril days. Their first performance was at the BnB Production Party. :)

Leinard Ramos, Meenuh Elfa, Virlynn Ramirez, Mika Ostonal, James Jumalon, and Joyce. :)

Kalil, Josh and i joined ENTAyaw! for a dance number in Pat Pena's debut. :)

Leinard Ramos, Virlynn Ramirez, Mika Ostonal, Meenuh Elfa, Timee Gorecho, (somewhere)Kalil Almonte,
with special guests Ariel Diccion and Jethro Tenorio :D (JOSH was sick, so di sha nakapagsayaw. boo)

around two weeks ago, ENTABLADO held auditions for ENTAyaw. But either way, anyone who had the guts to audition got in.

Now, ENTAyaw! is composed of Josh Lagandaon, Jika Regala, Timee Gorecho, Mike Gaisano, Judge de Asis, Nicole Cambal, Jer Dimayacyac, Gabby Gonda, Dach Casiple, John Leinard Ramos, Kate Coderes, Jen Magno, Pam Yson, Jame Say, Tonio Mendoza and with our head, Danica Pasia. (did i forget anyone? sorrrryy! tell me) But because of hectic schedules and demanding course requirements, most of the ENTAyaw! members weren't able to join the CADs Rhythm In Blue Eliminations last Friday. :)

The LAST 10 STANDING were Josh, Jika, Timee, Mike, Judge, Nicole, Jer, Geoc, Gabby and Dach. (technically 9, coz Josh had PHILO orals. boo. josh palagi ka nlng wala. haha kidding)

After 2 weeks of rehearsals.. with the help of friends, and with the integration of our creativity and imagination, we came up with a simple(it wasn't really simple at first. bwahaha) routine for the RIB ELIMS, which took place last August 29,2008 at the Gonzaga Exhibit Hall from 4:30-6pm. :D We did BILOG twice, and of course, the ENTAsigaw! hahaha. :D We were third to present and we were all so excited. :)

ENTAyaw! in 5! 4! 3! 2! 1!
CLICK HERE for the video. :)
or copy and paste this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPhGcaxLjbE

Thank you Lord. Thank you for this opportunity. mababaw man ang kaligayahan namin, nagpapasalamat kami ng sobra sobra. :)

WE DID IT ENTAyaw!!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
SEPTEMBER 19!! CADs RHYTHM IN BLUE, HENRY LEE IRWIN THEATER
Abangan.