Wednesday, October 29, 2008

BRING IT ON SECOND SEMESTER!!! :)

so today i woke up early for our online enlistment. :) i woke up at 5:45am, and went to take a nap for 15 minutes. when i woke up again, it was already 7:45. hahaha. i thought i was losing slots for my classes (even though i was first batch), so i enlisted myself in all the classes as fast as i could. :) it took me less than 2 minutes to finish everything. cooool. internet enlistment rocks. i love you aisis. :)


and so here is my 2nd semester schedule. :)


it's not clear noh?

oh well. herreeee...




Title Section Instructor Schedule/Location Credit


RIZAL AND THE EMERGENCE OF THE PHILIPPINE NATION L
GEALOGO, FRANCIS A. M-W-F 0930-1030 / K-201 C


PHILOSOPHY OF THE HUMAN PERSON II II
RODRIGUEZ,
AGUSTIN
M-W-F 1130-1230 / BEL 308
C


SOCIAL PSYCHOLOGY A INTAL, ANNA MIREN G. T-TH 1500-1630 / B-309 C


PSYCHOLOGICAL TESTING: LECTURE C ROJAS, MELODEE S. T-TH 1330-1500 / SS-284 C


PSYCHOLOGICAL TESTING: LABORATORY C ROJAS, MELODEE S. M 1230-1630 / SS-284 C


SEMINAR IN PSYCHOLOGY III: INDUSTRIAL PSYCHOLOGY WITH GROUP DYNAMICS A
GUECO,
M 1630-1930
BEL205
C



i'm gonna enjoy this semester! yipee

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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

can't wait till 2nd semester. :D

would you believe that this is my 51st blog?! i've written THAT many blogs?! whew! let's celebrate! pancit canton party for everyone! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

before you go warla with the title of my blog, i'd like to say that my sembreak so far has been spent on rehearsals, eating, bumming around, sleeping, tv and internet. and i found that my routines are becoming a bore (not that rehearsals are a bore, i'm actually having fun at reh. promise) i'm now seeking for something new in my life. like planning to go home to iloilo just for 3 days and come back here again. i just need something new. and it's not funny when people around me are partying, trick or treating, going on out of towns, going to the beach, climbing mountains, surfing, partying some more, and going to EK while i'm here in my dorm doing nothing. *frustrated* (... and beginning to think if it's really worth it. again.) i'm just really frustrated.

if i cannot stand this anymore, i'm going to stay at my tita's house. you want me to explain how that's my option? ask me.

but as of now, i cannot stress enough how excited i am for second semester. it's so cool to be college coz you get two first days of school in a year. maybe three. (but the 3rd is not exciting)

you know how back in gradeschool (or maybe highschool) you get so excited upon approaching the first day of school.. excited to know who your teachers are, who your classmates are gonna be, new food in the cafeteria, new stuff (admit it!!!!! we buy new stuff every start of the year!!). it's just a brand new start. WOOH.


and i'm so thrilled for the second sem because:

- it's PAYBACK TIME. haha. and i don't mean that in a negative way. i'm gonna make up for all the low grades i got last semester, and i'm going to push it to the limits. (familiar song. haHA) WWWOOOOHHHH. study hard now, party harder later. :)

- new subjects, new teachers. don't you just love a fresh new start? i mean, you get to adjust again and when you succeed with the adjusting, hooray, you're on your way to a good grade? hahahaahaha. well i'm gonna make sure that i adjust well. I SHOULD. please. timee i beg you. hahaha

- because. aside from acads, i have so much with me: XPRES, UNANG BABOY SA LANGIT and NO SPEED LIMIT. :) i'm excited because these are the things that i love doing. :) and i hope it all goes well. :D

- because. hihi (if you can guess this. i'm giving you a candaaay! hooray!)

- because i'm a semester closer to becoming a SENIOR! YAHHOOOOO! HAHAHA IT'S NOW OR NEVER!!!! THIS IS THE LAST CHANCE TO MAKE IT RIGHT!! (hsm3 fever haha)

- because it's my birthday, we're gonna party like it's mah birthday on NOVEMBER 10!!

- because it's christmas, it's new year, it's summer!! hahahhaha all the lovely breaks i love. :D

- and just because the second semester is a shorter semester. HAHAHAHA


so there. i'm excited. wohoo!


don't forget to greet me!!
NOVEMBER 10, 2008

Monday, October 27, 2008

inVESTment!

so today after rehearsals, riz and i went to shop for some lingerie. HAHAHAHA
if you wanna know why, riz is getting married. HAHAHAHAHAHA JOKE!!!!!!!!!! I AM NOT DRUNK! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! the initial plan was to shop for riz' costume for her play, turns out she has one already so we went to riverbanks mall and sm marikina to look for a black collared top for our photoshoot tomorrow.


and looking for a black collared top was SO HARD. doesn't anyone wear a black collared top anymore!??! have all the emo kids vanished or have they consumed all the black collared tops!!??! anyhoo. it was hard looking for one. but we managed to find one. and i think the pieces i bought (i'd like to believe, and justify why i needed to buy it and why it wasn't impulsive shopping. HAHA) are inVESTment pieces. because i will definitely wear them in the future. like the black top in more photoshoots. and the vest, just because it's a vest.


for me, it was a Folded and Hung day! hahahaa

i bought a pretty rose vest! :)
it's an inVESTment. just because it's a vest. HAHAH

and look. from 999php, it's now 300! HAHAHA.

here's the black top. well. cru cru.


but the point of this blog really is shopping as therapy again. ugggh. i should. i must brush it off my system. i should not use shopping as a venue to vent out stress, or any negative energies for that matter.

because today was an emotionally stressful day. just because. HAHA. and maybe shopping made me feel a little better. which is wrong!!!! noooooo. hahahahaha

i should stop buying stuff just to make me feel better. hmf

Sunday, October 26, 2008

*kilig*

i've been thinking about what i'm going to blog about.

and because the other day someone said something that sparked up the *kilig* nodes, and after watching High School Musical 3, the most available information to me is the said concept, which has no (or maybe there is but not specifically a direct translation of it) english term for it.

a few weeks ago, or maybe a week before the finals, my "lack-of-lovelife" nodes were activated. haha. It's not that i have a problem with the lack of a lovelife in my life, hello, i am LOVE itself. :) HAHAHA. I don't have a problem with being single, i am perfectly loving it. :)

But we can never avoid the happy couples you see around, and all you can do is watch and say "aww" (depends on the couple though. haha) and sometimes you imagine yourself in that situation wherein you have someone too. i forgot what activated this node of information in my system, but surely, it made me miss the feeling of *kilig*

it has been a long long time since i last felt *kilig*. maybe the lack of lovelife will explain. haha. but i've experienced times when *kilig* was sweeter when i was single. isn't it more exciting and thrilling to feel *kilig* when you're single and you feel it with someone who's not YET in a relationship with you? :)

and it reminded me someone who usually made me feel this way every now and then. :) maybe now it's not that rampant anymore because i'm immuned to you (hey that's a cool term. haha immuned to you. haha) and maybe that's just the way you treat me and maybe i'm processing it the wrong way. :) (ohlook you just went offline. haha) but i remember those days when i'd giggle all by myself and smile till my cheeks hurt, let out a shy laugh and then say "gago!" haha. i don't know. maybe now that we're closer, i don't think i see you the way i saw you before. :) maybe things have changed, and maybe i'm happier this way because i know you'll be happier that way too. HAHA TALK ABOUT BEING A MARTYR. haha. but no, really. i really do think that it's better this way and to think it could go further than this will stress me much more. i don't know if it ever occurred to you that this could go a step further, but for now, i'm cool with it. :) i'm good here. and i'll stay here till the right time comes. :) i'd rather stay friends with you for years and years, than you losing me. gahd. what will you ever do without me. HAHAHAHAHA

and i don't mean to look like a sl*t here, but there's someone else i'm getting *kilig* from. HAHA. my friend the other day asked me about him and if i felt *kilig* everytime i was with him. i actually said no. HAHA. because i see him more as a friend, as a close friend in fact, and the friendship just overrides the feeling. :) and then i realize the rare times that i get kilig when i'm with him, and i usually feel it when he gives me extra attention. for example. aklmchmchllkcsglakhgl,achdhcgl,cshg,cahmlmlca,gcalghiacmj.,fmkzjkglgagkjalkghadklghf;kdlgak
aglhaldghadlkucymayctlyeltauc,fiseiozscefiahlfkhclmaciohkznfcm.j,jfcaelctuiochsmigc,a;gjhgoihac.
isn't it lovely? haha. so yeah. that was one specific time when i felt kilig. hahaha.

like last night. he said "ashcfakcjetkc.lsmcflxshgac,gxsahgnclacaestk,msehvisnilc" hahaha!


i don't know what the point of this blog is, i don't even think this is timeeblogspot worthy. but. because i miss the feeling right now, the next time it comes my way, i'm gonna savour it while it lasts. :)


"it's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you...
it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do...
and with every step together, we just keep on getting better..
so can i have this dance?"

Friday, October 24, 2008

ENTABLADO PLEVSEM (Planning & Evaluation Seminar)

every semestral break and summer break, all the accredited organizations of Ateneo are required to go on an Evaluation Seminar or EVSEM. it can also be a Planning and Evaluation Seminar or PLEVSEM.


It's an event where the members of the org evaluates all the projects of the semester and plan for the next semester. And maybe, fun stuff. but the point of PLEVSEM is org work. nevertheless, it's fun. :)i just arrived from ENTABLADO's plevsem in Laguna Hot Springs, meeyo's place. :) it was really really really fun. :) the pool was love. :D

we, the deputies with our heads jika and dianne planned the plevsem and IT WAS A SUCCESSFUL and PRODUCTIVE one. :) officers evals, project evals, electorial provisions, org status report, project presentations, season planning, calendaring. whew.

on the first night, the formations team facilitated the BILOG. BILOG in enta terms is usually a prayer session or a formation session. it's not all spiritual but it's a venue for expression, for reflection and all the formation stuff. :) enta is not just a theater org. it's a socio-politically oriented theater organization that cares for its members. bwahah. i'm sure all orgs do care for its members. :) and so we did the BILOG, and the activity was to write a one-liner blog in which everyone can comment. and this was how my blog went:

i MISS you. my friends. my family. myself. i hope this is all worth it. :(



and now, after everything, after the plevsem, after spending 4 days in Laguna with ENTA. i can confidently say...





Yes. I believe it's all worth it. and more. :)

Sunday, October 19, 2008

weeeeshlist. :D

for birthday, halloween, christmas, whatever. hahaha!

HAHA i'm kapal. haha. but i'm not asking you to get these from me, HAHAHA. these are things i've been planning to get myself. :D

- guitar. i feel like a cavewoman. atat na akong kalabitin ang mga kwerdas ng gitara at ihabi ang mga salitang 'di mabitawan ng pusong naghihilom. (CHEKE) i wanna write songs na. for the longest time.

- donuts. DONUTS ALWAYS MAKE ME HAPPY. :) (dunkin donuts and mister donuts don't make me happy. but iL gladly accept it and pretend to like it. hahaha) I'M KEEEEDING.

- my husband, Charlie Chan. :)

- an Alarm Clock. (Check out FunkyFinds) loud enough to wake the neighbors up. please. i don't need more cuts next semester. hahaha. i almost overcut my theology class this semester. 8.5 cuts out of the maximum 9. hahahaha.

- a Starbucks Teddy Bear. i've been wanting one for the longest time. but then i realized just now that i have too many stuffed toys on my bed, it's hard for me to sleep. HAHA. i ALSO WANT A CAREBEAR. hAHAHAHA. i prefer the carebear. haha. i found one on ebay, and i'm asking my dad to get it for me. hihi. (hi dad!) <<<<--- THANK YOU DENI, OLI, LEI AND GAR!

- TWILIGHT by Stephenie Meyer. okay. joining the bandwagon. because i just found out that CEDRIC DIGGORY, THE Cedric Diggory, the dude i cried for when he died in HP and the Goblet of Fire, (yes, i cried noisily in the theater) IS PLAYING THE ROLE OF MR. TWILIGHT. whatever his name is. Edward? Cullen? Am i right? WOOH. AND HE. IS. HOT. WOOH. I LOVE IT. So, i'm gonna try to start reading just for Cedric Diggory. <<<-- THANK YOU EBOOK!

- a MAGIC 8 BALL. i've been wanting one for so long but everytime i go to a toy store and see one, i always think that it's not worth it. but whatever, i think it's useful especially to an indecisive person like moi. :)

- that Kirk Long and i would be friends. BWAHA. i wanna be leveled up. i don't want to be his fan anymore. i want to be his friend. HAHAHAHAHAHA. OKAY. NVM.

- ALL STARS shirt. paging Gio Gahol, where is my shirt. HAHA! kidding. take your time. haha. i'm still thinking din if i really really really really want one. :D haha

- i found this suuuper cute BARBIE bag for folders, papers and stuff... and i'm planning to buy it for my laptop. no cushion or whatsoever, but. the bad i'm using for my laptop doesn't have cushion too, so. i'm getting myself the barbie when the semester starts. as of now, i don't need it yet. haha

- if ABS-CBN releases a DVD version of IISA PA LAMANG, i'm so getting one. wooh.

- an Ateneo Jacket. Before i graduate (if i really do graduate. HAHA) i'm getting myself an Ateneo Jacket. WOOH.

- Diaper Bags. you should see SM Dept Store's Baby Diaper Bags. they're soooo cute. wooh. i want one. as an ordinary bag lang. HAHAHA

- a DQ cake. :) because DQ makes me happy. hahaha i'm getting one for myself when i'm depressed. hahaha

- a Lomo camera. i saw these cute lomo cameras in fully booked the other day. weeehh. but. before the lomo, i should get a real camera first. HAHA

- HEROES Season 2 DVD. haha. i miss watching heroes! wooh.

- World Peace. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. but really, yes, i do want world peace more than ever. :D and i believe that i can be the change i want to see in the world. So i'll start with myself. :) i don't get the point of wars and stuff, is it because of Greed? well that's just really stupid. that's just so childish.


HAHA. november 10 is the date, don't forget to greet me!!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

What i've been up to lately. :D

what's new. i've been studying my ass off, and there's nothing really new. i announced to the world last tuesday that i was done with my life. what i mean was done was that the BULK of my finals were over. (Theo, Cog and Expe). And i've been studying all three over the weekend. i've turned into a zombie.
i've been hanging out, no, STUDYING in starbucks lately because i realized that despite having, no, forcing myself to buy something from starbucks (haha you get the point), i find that studying somewhere away from the internet does help. HAHA monday, i spent the whole day after my theo finals, with deni meni in jollibee petron and starbucks katip studying cog and expe. and it was actually effective. GOODJOB. i bummed around after tuesday, until thursday and friday came, i went back to starbucks to study physio with gar. BOOYAH.

oh. i have to post gar's award-winning photo. I LOVE YOU GARNET GISELLE KEH!
and we did some gossipgirl moments when we couldn't take it anymore.
if you can't see, it says "BUNTIS ULIT SI JAMIE LYNN SPEARS" (Jamie Lynn Spears is pregnant again) yes. people. once again. jamie lynn. pregnant again after just giving birth to her daughter. :D why oh why. sources say (sources. i feel like i'm in hollywood. hahA) thay they thought breastfeeding wouldn't get Jamie pregnant. again, stupidity is the best policy. HAHA

oh oh, and my friend deni found this cute picture taken during our last physio class.*(Courtney friend me. friend me. haha. thank you for the photo. DENI STOLE IT FROM YOU)

look for me at the super back row, pointing at the camera. why was i pointing forward. because i wanted to point to the ceiling but my beautiful friends said it won't be seen in the picture. LOL. ANG YABANG NYO. KITA KAYA. hahaha



and now. for the most recent of updates.


aside from the series of emotional breakdown, from that depressing evening last night, i woke up today and got myself into recording a radio play for JESCOM's (Jesuit Communications something) Radio Station: Radyo Veritas. :)

The radio play was entitled "Ang Walang Hanggang" and i recorded with Bro Rai Mendoza and fellow enta members Jose Tanjuan, Sang Mee Lee, Alden Baleva, Gino Bonife and Dolly Dulu. This just made my day. We started at around 10:30am. And i thought it would end around 1pm because i was planning to study for philo later that afternoon. But no, we ended at 5:30 ish in the afternoon. Nevertheless, it was really really fun. And spending hours with them in the studio was all worth it. I had fun. :) Till the next radio play! :D

(Catch "Ang Walang Hanggang" tomorrow, Oct13 at 1pm, AM Station. haha)
(ex)Bro Rai was telling us that if we wanted to give in our stories, make it into scripts and stuff for Radio Veritas, we'll send it to him. They'll pay 500php per episode, and for every script there should be a minimum of 15 episodes (8 pages per episode) and a max of 20 episodes. :D I'm thinking of submitting a story. :) just thinking. :D

after a day of picking on sang mee, flipping pages and pages of scripts, eating pizza and jollibee, picking on each other's barok words and laughing at the corniest of jokes, my day ended when i headed to starbucks after the recording and started studying again for philo. ugh. i have 10 thesis statements to study, and although i know how to answer the first few numbers, i do not know how to explain it. my philo prof and his teaching assistant will witness my death for 15 minutes. Tuesday 8:15 a.m. is the TIME. hay.

What's in store for me in the days to come?
well.
- i have rehearsals now. so. yay.
- i have consultation with Sir Jethro and Kuya Kalil for my ENTA Writers' Bloc submission. i hope what i submitted was good. (basically, what we do in the Writers' Bloc is make plays to be staged by enta, HOPEFULLY, soon. so. yeah.) although, i crammed the beatsheet for my play because. it was a day late. boo. the storyline was crammed, i don't think i did the scenes right. and the play is really morbid. haha. so. watch out for it when i'm done with it. i'll post it here. :)
- Physio Field Trip on wednesday in a mental hospital. :) cool. although SPEED gives me a more beginner-friendly experience with special people, i think being brought to the mental hospital is cooler. :D i'll really see the hospital, which is different from the schools we go to in speed. so. yeah i'm pretty excited.
- Unang Baboy Sa Langit script reading. though. there is nothing really to read for my part. so. yeah.
- i'm meeting pinky on wednesday! i'm bringing her around and showing her my side of the world. hahaha. DQ date!woooh. and belgian waffles. and. wooh. whatever else. hahaha

oh, that's it. there you go. la la la. i'm semi-excited. half ecstatic half lethargic. la la la.

currently playing:
woooah.. all i want is your love.. if you give it to me... give it to me all night.. :)

Saturday, October 11, 2008

wow. this is. just too much.

this is how it feels to get your period after 3 months of not having it.
i've been super emotional this past few days,
getting all teary-eyed at the smallest of details...
(like yesterday i was walking alone along katipunan, and i saw this street kid, walking alone on tattered slippers, carrying a plastic bag with books in it. and i got all teary-eyed coz no kid deserves to experience poverty like this. it got me into thinking about the Philippine economy, and. blah)
and i'm so stressed, not because i have so much to do, but because i have no idea how to continue studying, to even start reviewing my philo thesis statements.

this is a tell-all.

i went to starbucks today, and it was half empty. i'm not surprised. after all, it is the last day of the semester. and it is the start of everyone's semestral break. not mine. i still have until wednesday till my semester officially ends. my philo orals are on tuesday, and i have a physio fieldtrip to the mental hospital on wednesday.

don't even get me started on physio. we just had our final examinations this afternoon. and it was probably the hardest test i've ever taken in my whole college life. i guessed on more than half of the 160 item test. and get this. the first half of the exam, 80 items was identification. sure, sir provided us with a list of terms for the 80 item identification test. but. in the list, there were 180 TERMS. ONE HUNDRED EIGHTY TERMS and we had to identify only 80 of them. i don't want to explain further anymore.

it was a depressing day, i went back to starbucks to meet up with gar, and then ate belgian waffles, hung out and then went home. bummed around. until it finally sunk in.


i'm really not going home.

the dorm is empty now, there are probably 2 to 3 dormers left, but God knows till when. for the rest of the semester, i will be alone in the dorm. going home to my 3 channel tv, relying on my laptop, living on fastfood and do nothing.

it's just depressing whenever i see the word "alone", i FEEL it.
and it's not funny.

it's not funny that my philo orals are on tuesday, and that i still have to go to that field trip just to save my grade. it's not funny that i'm on the brink of probation because i don't think i did well this semester. it's really not funny.

sure, i have rehearsals. i'll be with people i love to be with, i'll hang out with fun people. rehearsals will always be a fun experience, i'm so sure of that. everyday will be something new. no doubt about that.

but after that, i'll go home. alone. with my tv. laptop. lie down and think about the things i could be doing if i went home. i'd be going out everyday, come home to my siblings and my family, play with them and stay up talking about anything. wake up and play with them again, watch movies, go swimming, and etc. i'd go out with friends, party with them, drink, come home to my siblings who are waiting for me, and then sleep.

i could just imagine everyday of my life just like that. i'm not saying it's boring, it's. sad.

and i've been asking myself if staying was all worth it.
if you do know me, i'm not and was never used to being ALONE.

the silence in my dorm room is defeaning. God knows how long will i be able to stand it.

and everytime this dilemma, this depression happens, i always tell myself "go out and eat whatever you want. you deserve it. to make up for the stress."

well. food isn't going to take me anywhere. i want to stop eating. i want to stop making it a habit, a remedy for stress. i'm just tired of eating. i'm just tired of crying. i'm tired.




maybe i'm feeling this way right now because of the crazy hormonal imbalance in my body after not getting my period for about 3 months, or maybe i'm just stressed that my semestral break isn't starting yet, or the fact that it will never happen. or maybe i'm just depressed because it's sembreak and everyone's out on the beaches, partying, on vacation, out of the country, with their families and stuff, while i'm stuck here, all alone in my dorm room.



and tomorrow, i'm going to record a radio play with my org with the jesuits at 10am. despite the fact that i haven't started on my thesis statements yet, i agreed to go because even if i do wake up early and plan to study philo, i won't be able to. so i might as well utilize my time and do something like the recording thing to de-stress. sigh.


at this point, i really really don't care anymore. i don't care if i can give my prof the right explanations to the thesis statements, i don't care if i don't pass that physio finals. at this point i really want to go home. ugh.



i'm depressed.

and if you think i am capable of doing something stupid just because i'm depressed.. hey, i'm a psych major. i know better than to make final decisions when i'm highly emotional. journaling is a therapy.

i'm getting there.

Friday, October 10, 2008

now.

now that the end of my semester is approaching.

now i'm thinking.

if this is truly what will make me happy.

if this is really what i wanted.

if this is all worth it.

sad.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

blimey!!! i must be damned!

BUTCH. huhu. my piggy's new name. (i realized, i couldn't call her "bebi". i'm not used to the cheesy pet name) IS BLEMISHED. :(( :(( she's growing up so fast.

you see the red marks on butch's face?!? HUHUHUHU. i must have left some red marker open, lying around in my bed. :( finals week. booo.

the bulk of my final examinations are over, theology last monday, and experimental psych and cognitive psych last tuesday. what i have left for my finals are Physiological Psychology (on saturday) and Philosophy(on Tuesday). i'm not planning to study physio until i know my pre-final grade. (tomorrow). as for Philo, my oral examination is on Tuesday so i have lotsa time. and i know how frustrated i can get whenever i say "i should've used my free time to study", so i think i'm going to start on Philo in a while. :)

i'm looking forward to:
- the end of everything. of physio and philo.
- EK. Baguio. Tagaytay. Banaue Rice Terraces with friends! (not serious with the last, it was just a suggestion by our theo teacher sir Rochester. hehe)
- Pinky's comin' to town! WOOH. DairyQueen date! wooh.
- ENTA plevsem! :) yehey!
- KWIK-E rehearsals. actually the thought of doing 4 shows scares me.
- MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP YO! hahaha. although i'm not really planning on doing anything, i'm just excited to be 19. :) NOVEMBER 10 is the date. don't forget.

speaking of birthdays... :)


hoy step!






Stephen John Penaranda!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! :)

october 9, 2008

Monday, October 6, 2008

on studying.. how psych of me. :D


since it's finals week, and since i have 27minutes left for procrastination (i will explain later why there's a time limit for "procrastination"), i will blog about studying. :D (thank you to Pao Asuncion for activating my nodes... or for the non-psych people, giving me the idea of blogging this. haha)


How do i study?
(i don't think this is effective because i don't really get high grades, but psychologically this is okay because. i am able to remember things that i believe will last for a lifetime, and this is what's more important right? right? okay.)

- first, i have to see everything i have to study. and when i am overwhelmed. i sleep. HAHAHAHA KIDDING. HAHAHAHA.

like the picture above, i have to see what i have to do, what i have to accomplish by then, and when everything is happening. I HAVE TO SEE THEM. and it should be somewhere where it is impossible for me not to see it. for my case, the post its are in the computer table right beside my bed. so when i wake up, i see them. when i enter my corner, i see them. and use bright colors. so that it catches your attention.

so why do i have to see them? so that you don't miss out on anything. and make sure you put everything. back when i was in first year, i used one post it per task. and my computer table was full of post it. the goal was to eliminate all the post its as early as possible. :) and i have to see them all so that i won't get overwhelmed by how much i have to do, after finishing one task. :)
and nothing beats the joy of taking out one post-it or crossing out one task. :D


- TIME MANAGEMENT.
okay cliche much, but like what my friend jika said, "but cliches are the most effective inventions of the literary world, full-proof words strewn together to make the most sense and fathom all that we thought impossible to be said." (sorry jika. i'll put you on my references)

but cliches have nothing to do with my point. HAHAHAHA (certainly not in the same context as how jika used it. haha)

like Friday when i started writing down on the post its the things i have to do, i realized that Theo was up first. My Theo finals was Monday so i studied theo first. and then Cog and then Expe in awhile. well. it's as simple as that. but some people organize their time according to the difficulty of a subject, or. whatever. but this is not the point really, i just wanted to point out PROCRASTINATION.


PROCRASTINATION is a green-eyed monster. it's very very evuhl. but you can always make it into something not evil. :D do what i do.

pao was asking me why i wasn't on plurk and he said that i plurk is perfect for someone like me. oh dear, yes, i've heard about plurk. but i know that if i get into it, i wont stop. and pao even said that it was a perfect thing to do when procrastinating. ohhkaaay. helping. helping very much. :) and then i said "later, when i have all the time in the world." and he said "wow, nagseset pala ng time for procrastination. haha" and yes. I DO PUT PROCRASTINATION IN MY SCHEDULE.

my theory is that, people always have the tendency to procrastinate. and that's just natural. sometimes, we have to break from our routine to stay sane. :)) (i'm not saying that my lola's insane, but you see, she has this routine everyday of her life and it doesn't break. and because everything is automatic, it becomes a hard habit to break. any new stimulus to her system is not understood well, or is not even entertained at all. because it takes less cognitive resources to process information while doing automatic routines (okay this is very cogpsych), she doesn't get to use her cognitive resources AT ALL. shit. i hope you reader understood my point. because cognitive psychology is very useful.) and procrastination can SOMETIMES be useful. like now, i spent the whole afternoon with denise today going from Jollibee Petron to Starbucks Katipunan to Jollibee Katipunan. I studied Cognitive Psychology the whole time (which explains why the cog theories are so available to my heuristics. haha) and vowed to finish everything before i go back to the dorm. We were done by 6:30.

and now. i am procrastinating till IISA PA LAMANG starts. HAHA. (it's a soap i'm currently addicted to. because the script is awfully witty, and the actors are so good, and the plot is nice. it's a great soap. swear.) procrastination is part of my schedule because i know that even if i study all the way, i'll always stop in between and do something else. So. by procrastinating BIG TIME, i eliminate the tendency to procrastinate at small amounts later when i study. HAHAHAHAHA. it's like taking a BIG MEAL beforehand, and feeling full after so you won't get to eat while doing stuff for the rest of the day. :)) HAHAHAHA. (well. sometimes, after taking a big bite of procrastination, i take desserts and small slices of it again. but. it doesn't really hurt my long-term studying. so i think this is better. haha)

also, when procrastinating. DO NOT PROCRASTINATE WITH THINGS THAT CAN TRAP YOU. i.e. TETRIS

it is the devil's advocate. one you pop, you can't stop. ask my macedonian friend deni. if you start playing tetris on your procrastination period, you'll tend to extend and extend and extend untill you fall asleep. HAHAHA. so don't do things that coulr trap you. do multiply, or ym, or whatever. HAHAHAHA. DON'T TOUCH TETRIS DENITA MARIA CONCHITA ISABELITA VILLASENORITA!!!!!!!! haha.

- REINFORCEMENT.
this is so psychology. and i think this is what's important, that i am able to apply to daily life what i learn in school. ahaha. no offense to math majors, but i don't think i would want to compute the area of starbucks everytime i'm there. HAHA. REINFORCEMENT.

if you all know about operant conditioning, you'd know that the frequency of a behavior increase or decreases depending on reinforcement and punishment. for example, if you want a kid to behave while in the mass, you could reinforce him to behave by saying that you'll go to jollibee if he does. and you could punish him by taking away something he likes, like not going to jollibee for a month. HAHA. same with what i'm doing now. lately, i've been buying boxes and boxes of donuts just because i like donuts and also because i use it as a reinforcement. everytime i finish a subject, i eat one piece. and i make sure that my system identifies it as a worthy reward so that i'll look forward to it, and study faster. bwaahhahah. kid. but it works. FOOD. yum.

or like last weekend, i had my Charlie Chan delivered, and ate only when i finished the long theo article. :) hahaha. yahoo. :D

or i sometimes do punishment, like if i spend one more hour on the internet and spend extra time procrastinating (outside of my allotted time for it), i spend one more hour studying. HAHA. well. it works. hahahahaha.


- CHOSE A NICE STUDY PLACE.
again, another cliche from the world of study tips. haha. in my case, my definition of a nice study place is somewhere FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR AWAY AWAY AWAY AWAY FROM THE INTERNET!!!!!!!!!!! it's a devil's advocate too. IT'S EVIL. therefore, stay away from Lance!!(my laptop) and so, anywhere far from the internet will do. like starbucks. and jollibee. HAHAHA.

here's another cog theory. how can i study in starbucks and jollibee when there's so many distracters?! well. one, the distracters help me focus. some people have their own distracters. like playing music on your ipod, or maybe leaving the tv on while studying, or studying in an ateneo-lasalle game. HAHAHA. (i don't know if the latter is possible. but, what the heck. haha huh?! haha) because of the many stimuli coming to my sensory register, i am able to filter out only the important stimulus like WHAT I'M STUDYING. :D and it helps me focus more.

and distracters, (in my theory) are small forms of procrastination. you see, when you take in information, you should take a break once in awhile to let the information process. it's like, taking in as much food as you can, and then you stop eating coz you're full right? your brain sometimes gets full too, and you have to stop for awhile to let it all in, let it all go to your long term memory, so that you'll remember it not only for the test but also for the rest of your life. (i swear you will, a similar stimulus will let you activate the node). so when you are distracted in that study place, you get a little break from studying and let the information process, incubate in your brain. and then when you get back to studying, you're all refreshed and ready to take in new information. hahaha

AND SO. MY LAST NOTE FOR A NICE STUDY PLACE IS.

STAY AWAY FROM THE BED!!! IT IS NEVER A NICE PLACE TO STUDY, NOR IS IT EVEN AN OPTION!!!! STAY AWAY! IT'S ANOTHER DEVIL'S ADVOCATE!!! HAHAHAHAHA

- NO TO CRAMMING.
i actually love studying (puke.) haha. but no really, i love studying especially psych subjects because i enjoy it. i love the examples i can think of while studying the theories. haha. and as much as i don't want to, i have to cram. if not, i'll fail the test miserably. but i really don't want, and am not an advocate of cramming. because its effects are short-term only, and the things you study when cramming will last only until you need them. so probably, by the end of the finals, you'll forget everything. (believe me, after cramming for a test, i read my notes after because i wanna remember them forever)

PLUS. crammed information may enter into ones long term memory, BUT IT WILL BE HARDER TO RETRIEVE THE INFORMATION later in life. so you'll always end up with the tip-of-the-tongue phenomenon, and you'll get frustrated by not being able to recall it immediately. unlike information that aren't crammed, your brain gets to process it thoroughly, like getting to chew your food and savor its flavor, so it goes to your long term memory with more meaning and with more understanding. so the next time you need the information, it'll be readily available and easier to retrieve. :D

it's never really effective so i suggest, using the distribution theory, you study everyday. :) at least, you don't study LARGE chunks of information so your brain doesn't overload. and because it's just a small chunk of information, you can process it thoroughly and give meaning and more understanding to it. :D also, there's this theory called the serial effect wherein one is more likely to remember things that were processed first (PRIMACY EFFECT) and things that were processed last (RECENCY EFFECT. the most recent). so if you cram, you'll only remember the first and last chapter. compared to distributing your information, at least, you get to remember the first and last part of every chunk of information everytime you study. thus, you get to remember more information. :D


HAHA i'm sure there are more theories to make studying more effective. :) but this is all i can think of. :) is this a long blog? it is noh? hahaha. oh look. it took me an hour to blog this. and i'm just in time for IISA PA LAMANG. HAHAHAHA LOL

i'm not hoping you'll use my theories, or use my tips.. i just wanted to see them so that i'll use them. HAHAHAHAHAHA. because sometimes they ARE effective, sometimes they're not. hahahahahaha

GOODLUCK TO EVERYONE!!!!!
GO FINALS!!!!!!!!!
KAMON ACADS!! BRING IT ON!!! BRING IT ON!!! *hayah!*


References haha
Regala. J. (2008). Happy anniversary to us!. Retrieved October 6, 2008 from www.pinktintedtelevisions.blogspot.com

Friday, October 3, 2008

this is GIVING IN at its best!!

after calling up the Yellow Cab delivery hotline a few minutes ago, i realized. I've eaten everything i've been wanting to eat in a span of. what, a week!? HAHAHAHA.

here's how i succumbed to all the food.

GABBY STARTED IT ALL!!! BOO YOU. hahaha. joke lang gabby. :)
he treated me to cielo's, and we ate 3 CHEESE DONUTS each. yum yum yum. the best cheese donuts in the world. :)

next, i was reading the blog i wrote about craving, and i didn't take it, so i went all the way to the Petron station and got ineng's barbeque and a box of 3 Go Nuts Donuts!

the following day, Gar and i went to ineng's again to eat barbeque, and then i bought another box of 3 at Go Nuts Donuts. it was our physio test that day, and i told myself it was okay to eat so that i'd have enough energy to last throughout the test. HAHA. after the test, me and my friends went to Shakey's to have dinner. so i had PIZZA.

at the bonfire, Krispy Kreme Donuts was a concessionnaire so i bought a box of 6. WOOH. 2 Chocolate Iced Kreme Donuts, 2 Hershey's Cookies and Cream donuts, and two Ateneo donuts. they were heavenly.

Yesterday, we went to eastwood after our physio class to: 1. buy lei's concealer which was out of stock. 2. buy my webcam and headset and 3. EAT DAIRY QUEEN. nuf said.

later that day, lei and i got hungry, and called CHOWKING delivery for our dinner.

and now, i'm having Charlie Chan Chicken Pasta (i'm done with the pizza remember).

maybe tomorrow, i'm stopping by (stopping by?! more of heading to!) Break talk to buy cheese floss (remind me to blog about my love for cheese) and maybe visit Tracy in UP for some UP ISAW!!! woooh.


therefore i conclude, seeing the food you're craving on your blog and having your eyes feast on them all at the same time in the blog,
DOES NOT HELP.

bow.
TIMEE STOP EATING. SERIOUSLY.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

DR. MANUEL "Jun" CUENCA!! I LOVE YOU! HAHAHA


Huhuh.
Today, thursday October 2, was our last Physio Class for the semester. :)
For most of the part of this semester, i could say that PHSYIO was a pain in the A, cost us many brain cells to go astray, and a hell lot of effort (reminding you of the physio play we did.)

But. i now confidently say na, I'M WILLING TO TAKE PHYSIO AGAIN IF GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY!!!!!! (yaaabaang) but yes, i am. and it's true that you only get to realize the worth of something when it's gone. and now that physio class is over, i realized that i want to learn so much about physio, i feel that a semester is not enough. i realized that sir has made physio A LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT EASIER. and trust me please when i say a lot. because he has given handouts, he explains everything piece by piece, he goes through every step of every process involved, he spoonfeeds us if any of the reasons above doesn't convince you. And i super regret that i didn't really listen to his discussions, or read the book or his handouts. Because i knew that if i did study for Physio, i'd understand and learn more. and actually pass his exams. :P


and i just love love love love love sir cuenca. adopt me sir adopt me. HAHA

AND HERE'S MORE ABOUT SIR CUENCA.
- he's a neurosurgeon based in St. Luke's Hospital (and i know for a fact that there are a few neurosurgeons in the country, 7 ata? wooh. i'm so proud of sir.) HE'S ON CALL. So anytime there's an emergency at the hospital he has to leave class, or answer any calls. HAHAHA
- he's the only teacher teaching Physiological Psychology in the Psych Dept. He teaches two classes, 70 students each, composed of 3rd Year AB PSY students and 2nd year BS PSY students. WHEW SIR. and to think he's just part time.
- he's teaching Neurology and Physiology to medicine students at the ASM-PH (Ateneo School of Medicine - Public Health). Part time. too. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
- He's also a student. taking is masters degree in something. HUWAT!!!!! was our first reaction. He's already a doctor and he's still taking masters degree in whaaaat!!! HAHA. GO SIR!!


In his goodbye speech during class, he said that sometimes doesn't go home anymore because he was so busy with everything he was doing. HELL YEAH. does he even get enough sleep!?!? it's so ironic that we discussed sleep in class, and he's not getting enough, or even any! Lei cried while he was saying his goodbyes because she proved her theory right: that sir doesn't have a family of his own(wife and kids) because he doesn't have time to. And even if he goes on dates, he'll be interrupted by hospital calls, and lots of stuff to do for school. WAAAH. SIR. ARE YOU STILL ALIVE.

And that's why i love sir cuenca so much.
and even if i'm dreading his Saturday 140 items FINAL EXAMS, i will always be grateful that he was my physio teacher. HUHUHUH. and i think the reason why he's in the academe too is probably to make up for the lack of intimate relationship in his life, he teaches because nothing beats the feeling of fulfillment seeing the success of the students you have taught. and sir cuenca feels complete just by seeing his students on top of their careers. :D and that's just very noble sir cuenca. you deserve an EMELOU THERESE GORECHO AWARD FOR GREATNESS. (soon, it's going to exist. the award i mean)

me, lei and deni.. bought a coaster for him saying
"TEACHER LIVES FOREVER. AND TOUCHES OUR HEARTS"
or something like that. i'll post a photo of it soon.
we're going to give it to him during our final exam.

i wish i took a video footage of the last class, because everything he said was just so. HUHU
he even said "guys, you can throw away all the handouts. But please keep this last handout i'm giving you." and he gave out copies of Thomas Merton's "A Letter To a Young Activist"

read it. it's awfully inspiring.

"grades are just numbers. i always believe that my students are better than their grades."
- Dr. Manuel Cuenca