Friday, November 28, 2008

still up.

gahd.
one rough night.

when i got off that stage, i just didn't feel good about it. i knew something was wrong, although i did all my blocks right, tried to stop the crib from falling, tried my very best to take care of my baby and treat it like a human, missed just one line and managed to keep my voice intact even if it felt like cracking toward the end of the play...

i got of that stage with a heavy heart, and a part of me knew why, a part didn't understand why, a part of me was confused.

i must say, for me, that was one of the "clean" runs dolly, gabby and i ever did.
still, it didn't feel right.


got through the company call smiling a little, clapping with my prodmates, laughing at little...
trying to stop the tears.


i was planning to detach myself from the world for awhile..not blog in my multiply... not go online.. do my homeworks... get through with blue christmas tomorrow and just get my mind off the recent show. i just wanted to get away.

it was a long walk home, really. from the RMT to ISO. it was the longest walk home i've encountered so far. i was starting to doubt whether i was in the right place, whether i had made the right choices, whether i was good at this or not. i was thinking about quitting, or maybe leave for awhile, or find something else... i don't know. i just didn't trust myself anymore.





i'm gonna prove myself wrong.
tomorrow.
i do trust myself.
i believe that this is all worth it.

gahd.

GOD. BRING ME HOME. I BEG YOU.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

XPRES. :)

we just had the best show ever!!! ever since we started a week ago. :)
and i'm very very very proud to say that although sick, i did quite well, even better during the show awhile ago. :)

(gahd. by blogging this, it only means i'm procrastinating again, with the million of stuff i have to do. and i need rest.)


Balang Araw did a great job on stage.


I hope St. Anthony can top that. :)


i'm positive we will. :)


and in desperation, i finally went to the doctor to have myself checked up. it has been a long time since i last visited my doctor. haha. i like going to tito rey's clinic because he doesn't make me feel bad about my condition, unlike some doctors there. and he explains to me everything i need to know about my condition. which is. wonderful. :)

and so. here i am again, on medication.
he put me on steroids for 2 weeks. (dianne and gabby, quit insisting that i'll grow an adam's apple and have a deeper voice, because it doesn't make sense. i don't think steroids work that way. HAHA) and he said, if the symptoms of my usual allergies don't go away, i'll have to continue with the steroids. not only that, i'm back on seretide. seretide is just the expensive inhaler that i used to have. i like seretide because i don't get asthma attacks in like, 4 days. so yeah.

(this is educational) coz he explained that asthma attacks go in two ways: the blocking of the airway, the swelling of that membrane of the airway, which simply makes one have difficulty in breathing. the other one is the late phase of the asthma... there's inflammation and stuff involved... not only does the membrane around the airway swell, there are stuff in the airway that clogs it. swelling+clogging=hep hep hooray! making air difficult to pass through. and apparently, that's what's happening to me now.

i've been using my ventolin inhaler for maintenance. as what i've always known, i'm supposed to use it WHENEVER I NEED IT. apparently, my doctor thought "that's bad." because the ventolin pump should be used only every 4 hours. and taking it 3-4 times an hour is really. bad.


so tadaaa. :)

hey, a plus to why i can never be a nursing student. baka ako pa inurse ng pasyente ko. :) haha



Atty. Nick Pichay watched the show today, and he loved it!!!!!! :) Thank you for watching!
For a newbie production, i must say, WE'RE DOING REALLY WELL. :)
(newbie actors, directors, committee heads, etc)

i heard a few other playwrights are watching our remaining shows, and i hope the other plays do well too. GOOD LUCK TO ST.ANTHONY PRAY FOR US! gahd.

i've been thinking about this for awhile, i've shared it to others as well.
how a playwright must feel seeing his/her play being brought to life. :)
putting myself in the shoes of a playwright, and maybe i will be more biased because i'm a newbie at writing plays (no, my hs plays were. a blah. haha),
i'd feel honored and consider it as a favor for me, that these people are staging my play..
i'd be ecstatic seeing the characters born out of my imagination, coming to life on stage, seeing them in the flesh... hearing them...
i'd be roused hearing the background music, the sounds, the lights of the play i've written..
i'd be thrilled to see how the director understoof my play, and how he/she brought it to life.


this reminded me of the play i was writing for entablado's writers' bloc. :)

(i love this photo. this is going to be the cover)

i'm actually more excited seeing it on stage than finishing it. HAHA.
i'm not yet done, not even halfway, not even 1/4. HAHA.
scene 1. that's all i have. out of 8? i forgot.
it's a short one act play. a psychothriller. watch out for it. :)

to be able to see it on stage, i have to actually finish it. so yeah, i WILL finish it. :)


gahd i love theater. :)
it rouses me. :)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

ano nga ba ang pwedeng mangyari sa loob ng 10 minuto?

hindi ko hiniling na mahalin mo ako.

Kahit ilang electric fan, stand fan at aircon ang nasa bahay mo, mahirap palamigin ang isang mainit na ulo.

Kailangan mo pa bang magkape sa umaga kapag ang headline naman ng iyong araw ay sobrang shocking talaga?

Ano ang halaga ng isang pangako kung wala naman itong anumang bahid ng katapatan?

Buhay ka bang talaga kung puro lihim na lang ang bumubuo sa pagkatao mo?

Wala na ang lahat sa iyo. Kanino ka pa tatawag kung puro answering machine na lang ang sumasagot sayo?

Maghihintay ka ba hanggang sa taong 3000 para lang iwanang muli?

Paano mo ipapakita ang iyong pag-ibig sa isang taong hindi naman tumitingin sa direksyon mo?

Maaangkin mo pa ba ang bahagi ng buhay mo na nabili na ng iba?

Aaasa ka pa ba sa katotohanan kung ang katotohanang iyon, pag nagpakita na sa iyo, ay hindi mo pala gusto?

Hanggang saan mo madadala ang sarili mo para lang makakuha ng trabaho?


***
Xpres
Nobyembre 27, 28 (7pm)
Nobyembre 29 (3pm at 7pm)
Php 120
Rizal Mini Theater
Ateneo de Manila University

xpres2008.multiply.com

ANG TANGING HILING KO LANG AY PANOORIN MO ANG DULANG ITO.

St. Anthony, Pray for Us ni Liza Magtoto

alam ko.
manood ng XPRES para malaman mo rin.
burara ka ba?
palagi bang may nawawala sayo?
kaw kasi, kung saan saan ka tumitingin, anjan lang naman sa harap mo.
(andito lang naman ako sa harap mo. BILANG PERSONAL TRUTHS. hahaha!)


ST. ANTHONY, PRAY FOR US
ni Liza Magtoto
patron saint for the recovery of things lost.
panoorin para malaman kung pano sha icontact.

bahagi ako ng play na ito, bilang si toinette,
ang single mother na burara.
tulungan si toinette na mahanap ang totoo niyang hinahanap!!!!



INIHAHANDOG NG ENTABLADO
ang XPRES
Nov 27, 28, 29 7pm
Nov 29 3pm
RIZAL MINI THEATER, AdMU


tampok ang mga dulang

St. Anthony, Pray For Us (ANDITO AKO!)
Balang Araw (ANDITO RIN AKO!)

Isang Libong Tula Para Sa Dibdib ni Dulce
Eyeball
Trabaho Soliloquies
SBF (Single Brown Female)
Walang Iwanan
Over A Cup of Coffee
Tingnan Natin ang Mukha Niya
Nang Dahil Sa Init


10 PLAYS
5 PERFORMANCES PER SHOWDATE
8 SHOWS
sa halaga ng P120.
OH DIBA. MURANG MURA LANG!!!!!

KUNG GUSTO MO AKONG MAPANOOD, ay nako, nagtanong pa ako, i know you want to.

ito ang showdates ng St. Anthony, Pray For Us:
November 27, 7pm
November 29, 7pm

showdates ng Balang Araw:
November 28, 7pm
November 29, 7pm


SUPPORT ENTABLADO'S NEWBIE PRODUCTION!!!!
for tickets, CONTACT ME!!!!
timee gorecho iamtimee@yahoo.com

visit www.xpres2008.multiply.com
for more details

Saturday, November 22, 2008

XPRES behind the scenes

i don't know how to blog this, so. i'm just gonna post pictures and stuff. :)


so the reason why i haven't blogged was because i was busy with XPRES.
It's ENTABLADO's first ever applicant's production. :)

i'm part of the play BALANG ARAW written by Chris Martinez

CAST:
Pumpkin - Jose Tanjuan
Mama - Ekha Villasanta
Papa - Harald Tomintz
Balae 1 - Geoc Batad
Balae 2 - Timee Gorecho
Kardinal - Jika Regala
Sakristan - Ryuji Santisteban
Cupcake - Fred Herrera
Ninong Alien - Gabby Gonda
Make Up Artist - Dolly Dulu

jika regala in her decent red kardinal costume. :)

mama and balae 2. :)

dolly and timee in BALANG ARAW costumes. :)

i did my make up all by myself mom!!! haha

ninong alien as gabby gonda. ay. HAHA!


But the play where i play lead in is St. Anthony, Pray For Us.

internalizing my 'stressed' and 'tired' role.

I play the role of toinette, a 'burara' single mother who is desperate in searching for peace of mind. She has an angel, sent by St. Anthony, who is following her around and helping her find stuff. :) WATCH!!! My shows are on the 27th and 29th. :)

CAST:
Toinette - Timee Gorecho
Angel - Dolly Dulu
St. Anthony - Gabby Gonda

"...alam kong wala jan si ate marites, pero pwede ko po ba sanang iwan yung baby ko sa inyo??"

"hindi ka rin pala papayag!!!"

"ang hinahanap ko lang naman sa tatay mo ay siya mag palit ng lampin mo habang nagtitimpla ako ng kape niya!"

"tingin niya lang sa anak, kalaro. yon ang idea niya ng quality time. gusto niya 5 years old ka na, 5 years old kasi ang isip niya! "

"di niya alam na bago magiging 5 ay magiging 1, 2, 3!!"

"hello mrs. crespo, si toinette po ito maam... baka mamayang hapon nalang po ako papasok.. kasi po.. kasi po... may LBM po ako maam!"

*silence*

November 22 - Saturday
i didn't have a show so i spent my morning till around 5pm with my tita and tito. :) i went to richmonde hotel in ortigas to meet them, ate breakfast, and while they fixed their stuff ready for check out, i slept. i was sooo tired. HAHA. then we went to trinoma to eat again. HAHA. went around. we were fetched by tita bebet's driver, and they took me back to ateneo just in time for the Gala Night.

The Gala Night plays were
Eyeball by Alfonso Dacanay (who by the way watched the play)
SBF or Single Brown Female by Jose Victor Torres
Tingnan Natin ang Mukha Niya by Nicolas Pichay
Nang Dahil Sa Init by Rody Vera
Walang Iwanan by +Rene Villanueva

I was an SM that night. (Stage Manager!) wooh. and. i must say. WE DID A GREAT GREAT GREAT JOB. the set changes were clean and quick. we were very organized. we did well. :) hoooray! i hope we get the same notes on our company call. :)

Every Gala Night of any production, everyone on the prod gets to bow, from the production team, artistic team, to the plays that didn't perform that night. :) everyone was required to wear black and red that night. :) i was in my black attire because i was an SM right. but i was very resourceful with my red accessory. :)

i pulled a lindsay lohan. PETA is going to kill me.
design by Tanjuan
concept by Gorecho

now below is a picture of me and dolly on the set of St. Anthony.
notice anything. familiar? HAHA

HAHAHA i'm creative like that. and yes, i bowed looking like that. :) it looks like a real coat noh? thank you to my sponsors, Stage and Props Committee, design by Tanjuan, concept by Gorecho. :) HAHAHAHA

here are other pics from the backstage. :)

how the RR (rehearsal room, where we do our make up and costume changes) looks like. :)

condom lafuente showing off his boobies. :) they're new. :)

miko amante wearing kardinal's. uhh. hat? cap? crown? haha

Nang Dahil Sa Init cast
(L-R Terri, Yves, Miguel, Meeyo, Jen, Karl)

boyfriends. nicole being the boy. HAHAAHA kidding. Nicole our make up and costumes head, and Vian. just a bystander. KIDDING VIAN. :) playing the role of Gervis in the play Trabaho Solliloquies. :)

David Cammayo. bow.

After the gala night, we exited the theater and found, i dunno, 4? 5? boxes of KRISPY KREME DONUTS. everyone hoarded over the donuts!!! THANK YOU VIAN FOR THE DONUTS! WOOH!

the donuts weren't the only ones hoarded by people. we were all camera-hungry, so wherever the camera was, specifically ekha's camera, everyone crowded to that place. HAHA.

Sopas Sisters! Dianne, Timee (my eyes wide open), Ekha

Kuya Kalil's Cast!
from the plays Isang Libong Tula Sa Dibdib ni Dulce, St. Anthony Pray For Us and Balang Araw!

jose tanjuan as mich nebres' eye patch. :)

camera hungry people. :)

just happy happy happy people. :)

see. i told you everyone was rushing to the camera. spot me.

now can you find me? whattafez. HAHA

what. the.

totoy and angel. :)

just one of the pictures where people didn't have to rush to the camera. :)

condom, eli, mich, dianne and timee. i just popped my head in. HAHA

after everything, i grabbed ekha's camera and took a photo of myself.
no one rushing, no one in the picture but me. HAHA

We went to querico after for dinner and some. social drinking. HAHA but i didn't drink. :) neither did jer. because we were good kids. :) saving our liver for PROD PARTEY!!! YAHOOO!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA we went home early too, cam brought us back to ateneo at around 11:30.

here's the coolest thing ever. jer and i walked back to the dorm. outside the gate of our dorm, we found this snail creeping silently and slowly, so i did what i was dying to do ever since forever. (also the reason why i bought salt for the dorm). because mika, my ex-roommie said that if you sprinkle salt all over a snail, it will burn. and die.

oh it didn't burn. HAHAHAHAHA. i sprinkled lots and lots and lots of salt. it didn't burn. boo. it just died. i don't know why, it just died. jer and i took a twig and flipped the critter around to see his other side, the one not covered by the shell. no. it wasn't moving. nada.

may his soul rest in peace.

it was a good night. :)