*kilig*

i've been thinking about what i'm going to blog about.

and because the other day someone said something that sparked up the *kilig* nodes, and after watching High School Musical 3, the most available information to me is the said concept, which has no (or maybe there is but not specifically a direct translation of it) english term for it.

a few weeks ago, or maybe a week before the finals, my "lack-of-lovelife" nodes were activated. haha. It's not that i have a problem with the lack of a lovelife in my life, hello, i am LOVE itself. :) HAHAHA. I don't have a problem with being single, i am perfectly loving it. :)

But we can never avoid the happy couples you see around, and all you can do is watch and say "aww" (depends on the couple though. haha) and sometimes you imagine yourself in that situation wherein you have someone too. i forgot what activated this node of information in my system, but surely, it made me miss the feeling of *kilig*

it has been a long long time since i last felt *kilig*. maybe the lack of lovelife will explain. haha. but i've experienced times when *kilig* was sweeter when i was single. isn't it more exciting and thrilling to feel *kilig* when you're single and you feel it with someone who's not YET in a relationship with you? :)

and it reminded me someone who usually made me feel this way every now and then. :) maybe now it's not that rampant anymore because i'm immuned to you (hey that's a cool term. haha immuned to you. haha) and maybe that's just the way you treat me and maybe i'm processing it the wrong way. :) (ohlook you just went offline. haha) but i remember those days when i'd giggle all by myself and smile till my cheeks hurt, let out a shy laugh and then say "gago!" haha. i don't know. maybe now that we're closer, i don't think i see you the way i saw you before. :) maybe things have changed, and maybe i'm happier this way because i know you'll be happier that way too. HAHA TALK ABOUT BEING A MARTYR. haha. but no, really. i really do think that it's better this way and to think it could go further than this will stress me much more. i don't know if it ever occurred to you that this could go a step further, but for now, i'm cool with it. :) i'm good here. and i'll stay here till the right time comes. :) i'd rather stay friends with you for years and years, than you losing me. gahd. what will you ever do without me. HAHAHAHAHA

and i don't mean to look like a sl*t here, but there's someone else i'm getting *kilig* from. HAHA. my friend the other day asked me about him and if i felt *kilig* everytime i was with him. i actually said no. HAHA. because i see him more as a friend, as a close friend in fact, and the friendship just overrides the feeling. :) and then i realize the rare times that i get kilig when i'm with him, and i usually feel it when he gives me extra attention. for example. aklmchmchllkcsglakhgl,achdhcgl,cshg,cahmlmlca,gcalghiacmj.,fmkzjkglgagkjalkghadklghf;kdlgak
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isn't it lovely? haha. so yeah. that was one specific time when i felt kilig. hahaha.

like last night. he said "ashcfakcjetkc.lsmcflxshgac,gxsahgnclacaestk,msehvisnilc" hahaha!


i don't know what the point of this blog is, i don't even think this is timeeblogspot worthy. but. because i miss the feeling right now, the next time it comes my way, i'm gonna savour it while it lasts. :)

"it's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you...
it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do...
and with every step together, we just keep on getting better..
so can i have this dance?"