CONGRATULATIONS ATENEO BLUE EAGLES! EAGLETS! and WOMEN'S SWIMTEAM!!

actual bonfire during the event. pretty noh? no photoshop here.
photo by tonio mendoza

for that. you deserve that BONFIRE EVENT. :D
which is currently happening right as we speak (SPEAK!? HAHA) at the muddy, wet and dirty bellarmine field. :)

after accompanying lei, oli and denise in eliazo to do their cog paper, we went to our physio make up class at escaler... it was productive make-up class because i learned so much. GOODJOB.
i know that our bladder can only take as much as 500mL of urine. :) you'll start feeling the urge to pee as early as 150mL. cool noh? haha. (did i listen well? are these correct? haha) i also know that there are two processes our body undergoes to maintain homeostasis (a state in which everything reaches its optimal level, or when everything is IN BALANCE and should be in the right amount) ; diffusion (movement from higher concentration to lower concentration) and Osmosis (movement across a semi-permeable membrane) HEY PARENTS LOOK!! this is where your money is going. :D HAHAHA it's a long long story, i'd be happy to explain everything to you if you want. :) but it's not the point of my blog.

after physio class, we walked to bellarmine field. and believe me, it looked like Dinagyang in Iloilo. everyone was walking on the streets, lights and music, and the whole package. :) i got excited when i saw kirk's oversized standee in front of Xavier. mmm. i miss kirk. HAHA! kid. it was super traffic, it was hard for the vehicles to move around because. the traffic hardly moved. HAHAHA. and EVERYONE WAS THERE. i'd probably say a few hundred out of the whole population of ateneo didn't come. it looked like there was an ateneo-lasalle game, only. crowdier. (if there is such a word. hahA)

we attempted to walk towards the field, and we realized. IT WAS ALL MUDDY. as it had rained a few hours before. we decided to go back to my dorm and pick up shoes that i was willing to lend and para ipang-lusob sa putik. so there, we went to the field to buy food. i will not blog how much i hated the SALAGNA (haha! i said that instead of LASAGNA. haha) because it wasn't worht 80php, and i waited for so long only to find out the lasagna was the only food left in the stall i lined up for. STUPID STUPID STUPID. and so, to make me happy....


i bought KRISPY KREME.:)


the sight of the green and white (lasalle! HAHA) polka-dotted donut factory cheered me up a little. i bought 2 ateneo donuts, 2 chocolate iced-kreme donuts and 2 hershey's cookies and cream donuts. and it made my day. :D weeeh








oh and there were freebies around the place, we were given a free bottle of Propel and a bag. :)) funny. and then there was beer too, but only for those 21 and above. oh well. i don't like beer anyway. HAHAHA


and so. speaking about SCHOOL SPIRIT. :)



i remember how much of a fan i was for kirk long last year. :D i cried when i had my picture taken with him, and when he signed my jersey. :D







HAHA. he doesn't play as well as chris tiu does, or rabeh al-hussaini, but. i don't know. he's really cute. :D hihi *kilig* but i will stay true to this semi-obssession, and will support kirk long even if he's on the bench most of the time. :) AHAHAHA. LOVE YOU KIRK!!!!





here's a jersey a good friend of mine gave to me to inspire me to lose weight. BWAHAHA. well. it didn't work, but i cried when he gave it to me. he got it from kirk, straight from his closet. and i felt so close to him. like our worlds were going to meet any moment. HAHA.







i have not washed any of the jerseys. eeew. kid. hahaha. i'm not planning to. :D be disgusted if you must, i'm not washing them. when i marry kirk, i'll have them framed and put them in our room. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. libre lang mangarap. cheh ka.

GO ATENEO!! ONE BIG FIGHT!!

i have theo orals tomorrow.

well. too bad for the rain that made the bel field grounds all muddy and wet and dirty. we left early because we gave up. we couldn't see the stage anyway, and it was impossible to go around the field with the field looking like that. eeeeekk. sorry, i wasn't in the mood to play in the mud, if i was, i would've log-rolled all the way to the stage just to see kirk long. but i realized it wasn't worth it. i see them in school anyway. so.


and we went home earlier than expected because we have theo orals tomorrow.
and when i returned, i found my room... stared.

dropped my bags, and cleaned everything. HAHAHA

and I AM PROUD OF MYSELF for being like this. weirdly OC. :) hahaha

LOOK! LOOK!













*pats herself* GOODJOB!

giving in. IT'S FOOD WEEK.

i just came home from shakey's with deni, gar and lei. and i think. my tummy hurts.
we decided to "celebrate" because the physio test was over. all we had to worry were cog paper, expe paper, theo orals. uy dami pa pala. hAhahaha

but the feeling after a physio long test. priceless.

so we went to shakeys. BOO OLI. you weren't there. HAHA

thank you gar, deni and lei for a wonderful dinner. i died. i'm so full i feel like i won't eat na for the rest of my life. HAHAHAHAHAHA

and so i declare this week, FOOD WEEK.

it all started last saturday, when gabby and i went to cello's for a box of CHEESE DONUTS.











can i just say i gave in to my craving and went to cello's. HAHAHA CELLO'S IS LOVE.



sinful. lovely. heavenly. fresh from the oven, creamy... CHEESE DONUTS. :D






Sunday... as i posted, i wanted to eat more donuts, and barbeque. so i triked myself all the way to the Petron gas station, went to Ineng's and ordered two 12" pork bbq and stopped by Gonuts Donuts to get.. uhh.. donuts. 2 pastillas de leche and one strawberry donut. :D i was happppy...

Monday. today.
i ate what was left of my Ineng's for breakfast... and then ate the last 2 donuts (last 2? HAHA)... and then went to school.. i was busy with everything... expe defense/presentation, philo (?!), and then PHYSIO LONG TEST. arrrgghh.. i've already gotten used to the frustrating feeling after a physio long test. so. blah.

so my friends and i decided to celebrate!!! that was our last physio long test. (next: finals. rarr)
we went to shakeys... and ordered a PAMILEH MEAL. HAHAHAHA....

















oh prior to this, we went to lei's dorm to:
- get lei's wallet...
- satisfy deni's thirst
- let oli take a bath
- let gar bring her things
- let timee make asar to deni. HAHAHAHAA




when we were outside, we realized that rabeh and baclao's dorm was just across lei's dorm. so we shouted "RABEHH!!!!!!!!" and then hid inside the car. HAHAHAHAHAHA. tapos. we kept on opening the windows and shouted "RABEH!! BACLAO!!!! NONOY!!! RABEH!!!" hahahahahahaha and then deni's car ran. (RAN?) hahahaha. it was really funny. HAHA

oh, and not to forget the wonderful words made today:
- white mocholate choca (starbucks' white chocolate mocha. by timee gorecho)

- gar: do you want siomai or jollibee hotdog?
deni: shotdog.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

- i forgot one, i wrote it down in the shakeys placemat. argh.

- deni's nanay phrases: "by and by", "lo and behold" (oli: bhold), "accompany me"


today, is just benta. HAHAHAHAHA.

anatomy of my dorm.

as you all know, i live in I.S.O Residence Halls, an ISOlated island within the Ateneo campus.
before, it used to be everyone's tambayan... it used to be a home to students who wanted a quick nap, those who had a group all-nighter, and a smoking pocket for most students.

but now it's a THREAT to everyone. ever since they made new rules, ever since they appointed a prefect, ever since this year. ARGH.

here are some new changes in my dorm this year:
- NO MORE VISITORS inside the rooms. it's just sad that back when i was in first year, my room was our tambayan before going to our INTAC class. my room was oli's quick nap-place, deni's pasundo place, deni's penge ng tubig place. etc. it's just sad that no one's allowed inside anymore.
- CURFEWS. back then, we didn't have curfew. but now we're expected to be in the dorm by 12 during weekdays, and 2am during weekends. i don't have a problem with this because. i usually go back to the dorm early. but i was thinking of the other people who have group papers and meetings and projects to do. some are forced to sleep outside in people's condos and houses because they can't come home to iso. eh, mas unsafe nga yon eh. stupid stupid rule.
- PREFECT. can i just say that back when i was in 1st and 2nd year, we didn't have a prefect yet. AND WE WERE PERFECTLY FINE. now that we have prefect, we have cases like robbery, disciplinary cases and stuff. stupid stupid stupid.

i'm just pissed off.


BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT OF MY BLOG!!!!

every friday, i go home to my corner, all messed up and looking like the remains of a terrible calamity. i think it's because every mwf i'm always running late so i throw things left and right, fly my way around, not fix anything.. every tth, i get up late, because my class is still at 12.. so i couch-potato myself till 11:45am, and then i rush my way around again. HAHA.

here's what it looks like now.

laundry scattered on the floor, on the sides of the bed, on my table... unfixed bed.. rice cooker out...ketchup on the table (??)... alcohol beside it... earrings... tissue... plastics... etc... it's basically just everything where i can see them. HAHA. but every weekend i make it a point that i fix everything. because i am a weirdly Obssessive-Compulsive person. i'm really really really messy, but when you let me organize and clean stuff, it's going to be extremely OC-clean. HAHAHA. and the weekend is usually the time i get to study(yeah right), and i can't study if everything is messy. so i have to fix everything.


but today is just MONDAY. i didn't get to fix my corner over the weekend because i was too tamad to do anything. i tried studying physio but my brain wasn't processing anything. so. hahah ewan. it's still monday and my corner looks like that. how much more if i let this reach fridaY? haha. will i still see the floor? HAHAHA. and it's finals week next week. do i have time for this? hahahahahahaahaha


GOODLUCK.

i just realized that. cleaning up is a ritual for me. a precursor (physio!!) before i study. HAHA. it's weird. but. yey. another discovery about moi. HAHA

TRYING TO LOSE THE CRAVING.

testing testing. i just want to see if the craving will go away if i see all the food i'm craving for in one look. BECAUSE I'M SO CRAVING FOR EVERYTHING. sob.

isaw

chowking

bread talk : cheese floss

dairy queen blizzard : brownie temptation

pork barbeque

cello's donuts : cheese

go nuts donuts

krispy kreme donuts

yellow cab pizza and charlie chan

GO ATENEO!!! ONE BIG FIGHT!!!

UAAP '71 MEN'S BASKETBALL CHAMPIONS
ATENEO BLUE EAGLES!!!!!!!

so here's my ateneo-lasalle game 2 blog. HAHAHA
kala nyo kayo lang. HAHAHA

September 25, 2008 - Thursday
i slept over at lei's dorm because she didn't have roommies, so i accompanied her. (hindi, di ako natulog, sinamahan ko lang sha. HAHA KID) we woke up at 9am feeling all BOO and LOSER-y because wala kaming tickets. when we started walking to our first class (physio 12nn) we saw everyone walking towards the trike stop, wearing blue shirts.. (naka blue si lei, ako naka white. oh diba. di kami bitter. haha) huhuhu tapos sobrang na depress kami kasi wala nga kaming tickets...

in physio class, nagyayabang pa si sir because "you want to go na? haha. okay lang.. kahit andito ako until 3pm. eh.. ako, may tickets na. HAHA" YABANG MO SIR!! HHAHAH!! tapos biglang sabi ng sister ng boofra ni lei may tickets sha!! tapos we texted deni to look for tickets.. HAHAHA

deni. nag eavesdrop sa people sa likod nya.. she overheard them talking about two extra upper b tickets.. and they were selling it. HAHA KINAUSAP NI DENI. HAHA and then we called them up.. etc etc.. THERE. :) the tickets were sold to us na. (at a scalper-friendly price HAHAHAHA) WOOH!

bakit mukha akong tan na tan sa picture. beach daw ang araneta. hahaha. look, that's my knee. hahaha.

we got the tickets at the gates na, and then. BASTA. SOBRANG LUCKY NAMIN, HAHAHA NAPADPAD KAMI SA UPPER A. PAANO?! SECRET!!! AHHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!! and then yung place nila deni sa upper a masikip na, so lei and i went to find other seats.. LO AND BEHOLD (deni nanay haha) sa harap ng friend namin meron parang platform.. nag indian sit kami don, at lumuhod sa buong game. HAHA. kasi natakot kami bka mahulog kami. and ang lapit namin sa ring, i was scared to scream I LOVE YOU KIRK LONG kasi baka marinig nya. hihihi. shy me eh (unlike yung iba na sinigawan si chris tiu. ehem ehem.)

hahahahaha. bakit puro katabi namin yung pinipicturan. hahaha, marami pa kaming pics.
i mean. marami pang pics yung mga katabi namin. hahaha

GO ATENEO!!!! ONE BIG FIGHT!!!

IT ENDS AT GAME TIU!!!!!
WIN OR LOSE IT'S THE SCHOOL WE TIU!!! (ang benta nito. haha)
gRABEH AL-HUSSAINI!!!!!!
you can't defy gRABEHty!!!!!
JAInamite!!!!!!
my LONG awaited herooo!!

dear lasalle... :D

nung natalo kami wala naman kaming reklamo ah. :)
bakit bumibitter kayo? :D
can't you accept defeat gracefully?

IT'S OUR YEAR.
WWWWWWOOOOOOOHHHH!!!!!!

HELL WEEK. :)

hell yeah. HAHA
it's our very very wonderful hellweek.
here's what's in line for us this week:
- COG PAPER due oct3
- COG LONGTEST on Friday
- EXPE PAPER Oct3
- EXPE Presentation on Monday
- THEO ORALS on Oct1 (we aren't supposed to have classes. argh)
- PHILO PAPER on Oct 3
- PHYSIO MAKE UP CLASS Friday

and. what did we do today? :D
oli, deni and lei were supposed to do their Cog paper, and gar and i were supposed to start on the EXPE paper. when we all got hungry, gar and deni left to order KFC.. it took them forever to come back. HAHA. after eating, we just.



bummed around.
it was funny. because from 12:30 to 6pm, we didn't even do 1/16 of everything we had to do. :) We just bummed around, played RUSH HOUR, TETRIS, watched videos, talked, ate, talked, danced, laughed. it was love. :)

lei frustrated with tetris.

oli playing a game on her gossipgirl phone.

deni playing rush hour, and gar packing up. haha

(thank you deni for the picture. :) HAHHA. lei playing rush hour, timee playing tetris, gar giving deni a massage, deni. uhh. HAHAHA)

thank you friends for that wonderful afternoon. :)

ENTAyaw!

so what happened to the wonderful people of ENTAyaw! :)

(josh, you're not the only one with pics. BLEH)

i must say, for amateurs at dancing, WE DID PRETTY WELL. HAHAHA
yes, we admit that we ARE amateurs, BUT HELL WE DID GREAT!!! HAHAHA
we looked great!! we did great!! we felt great!! WOOH!!
That was a FIRST in ENTABLADO history!!! WOOOOOOHHH!!!!


Thank you to Leinard Ramos, ENTABLADO's coordinator for allowing us to join the concert!
Thank you to Lei, Ate Virr, Ate Meenuh and Mika for creating ENTAyaw!
Thank you to the Company of Ateneo Dancers for accepting us into this competition!
Thank you to ALL THE ENTA MEMBERS WHO GAVE THEIR SUPPORT!!!
Thank you to the project head, our personal assistant, the almighty Danica Pasia. THANK YOU SOO MUCH! DI NAMIN TO KAKAYANIN KUNG WALA KA. :)

Thank you Joshua Lagandaon, Jika Regala, Jermaine Dimayacyac, Nicole Cambal, Dach Casiple, Mike Gaisano, Judge de Asis, Geoc Batad and Gabby Gonda for not giving up! :) WE DID IT!!! YAHHOOOO


here's the actual dance we presented during the Rhythm in Blues concert. :) WOOHHOOO!!!

"oh dear! somebody's been sleeping on my bed!"

Dora, Chip, Bebi, Teddy and Aleia

hey please leave some space for me tonight okay.

i'm regressing.

whattaday!

i don't think i can take much more depression in my life, because:
1. it's unhealthy
2. it's expensive
3. it makes me think.
(4. oh and it hurts. you'll see why, later)

September 22, 2008. Today is probably the most unusual day i've ever had in my college life. Aside from the unexpected and "depressing" (but not anymore now) news, i think. i've seen the things that can happen to me when i feel this way.

After pouring out the negative feelings, i went back to the dorm to change into comfortable clothes, and went to the mvp basement to meet up with jika and gabby. dolly went with us too. we went to eastwood ("EASE"wood) just to eat ice cream. just because we needed the "comfort" from this comfort food, badly. that trip away from the "real" world was just a fun ride. thank you jika, gabby and dolly. our short trip to "fantasy" world was the best. i couldn't think of a better way to spend it, than with you guys. :) kahit iniiwan na tayo ng taxi (pati ba naman taxi umaayaw sa atin? haha) mahal na mahal ko kayo. :)

i felt so much better after. i heart you all.
(special mention to jose antonio tanjuan, thank you)

so why is being depressed unhealthy.

1. IT IS UNHEALTHY.
we were only planning to splurge on ice cream. dairy queen. BUT NO. we ate lots of stuff.
- dairy queen.. brownie temptation without nuts, 16oz for me. always works.
- gabby's new york fries and lotsa dips...
- jika's green candy sourtapes..
all the unhealthy stuff we can think of. now, my stomach really really hurts, i don't know if my period is coming up after two months of being absent, or it's just because of everything bad i ate. well. i felt good after. so.

i guess it was okay.

2. IT IS EXPENSIVE. why.
- dairyqueen. wooh. spending p90 on a calorie-rich, sinfully fattening brownie temptation is just expensive. i promised i wouldn't spend over p500 this week. but no. i did. today.
- i have a new buddy. in my bed. for the past week, aside from Dora, Aleia and Teddy, someone arrived: Chip. Chip is condom's toy. He asked me if i could keep chip for the meantime, because his parents might think of things when he brings this huge thing home. so. every morning this is what i see.

but i have a new friend. he's not as big as chip, but he sure makes me happy. :) his name is "bebi" inside joke, but bebi is a character from the play i'm in. :)

- and because i was depressed. i shopped. i bought this dress, and when i put it on when i got home, i didn't like how it looked on me. so i'm planning to sell it. if interested, email me at mynameistimeeandiamneat@yahoo.com, it's P300 (L=31.5in, W=15.5in)


3. IT MAKES ME THINK.
well. do i have to explain this. i don't think i can talk about it openly in here, but i just want to say that everything that had just happened made me think if everything was worth it, if i was good enough, if i was waley, if i was doing anything to make my life better, i don't know. i have just thought of a lot of things today, it made my head hurt. really.

4. IT HURTS.
look what i got.


the last time i had my ears pierced was when i was in 2nd year highschool. i was forced to take it off because my school didn't permit extra piercings. and then. there. ask dolly how hard i held his hand. AHAHA

maybe. it was because. the pain i felt hurt more than how much ear-piercing hurt. (aw emo)







but i guess, i'm okay now. i just needed to understand everything. it'll take time to digest it really, but soon, i'll be fine. whew. *breathes deeply*

i can do this.

my present. my future. :)

i love you. so much.
you'll always be in my heart.

i wanna have your babies.
something's telling me it might be you.
love of my life.
nothing's gonna stop us now.
nothing's gonna change my love for you.

photo from www.fabilioh.com

here's the buzz. HAHA

how do i start.
uhm.

can i just copy paste from my multiply? haha

SEPT13(sat)
i arrived at the dorm just now from dance rehearsals.. and i was soo tired. the dishes on the sink was smelly na so i washed them, and then changed because naiinis ako sa suot ko sobrang dumi at sagabal sa movements, and. bsta. i didn't have a nice day.

and then. i hear renaldo lapuz singing "i am your brother" from somewhere. it was my phone ringing. i grabbed it and answered it. the call was from my tita in cebu.

tita ati: GUESS WHO'S BESIDE ME NOW!!!
timee: (kirk long? tom cruise? brad pitt? billy crawford? joke lang) who?
tita: uye's dad!!!!
timee: WAAAAH REALLY! HHAHAHAHA
tita: uye is in don bosco manila pala!!!
timee: oohh. okay.. haha
tita: wala pa sha girlfriend!!!
timee: HAHAHA OKAY?! HAHAHAHAHAHA
tita: YOU'RE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER!!
timee: HAHA!
tita: i gave them your email address, your multiply and your number. :)
timee: cge cge.. tell uye's dad i said hi. :)
tita: cge cge.. bye bye! :)

WHO IS UYE.

okay. he's someone i've never mentioned to anyone in my whole life. ever since i left cebu when i was 10 years old, i've never talked to anyone about him. and i think the only people who know this "uye" are my family. thus, the call from tita. :)

so to answer the who question.

uye. is my childhood bestfriend. we have been friends ever since we were 2. we lived next to each other, as in literally next to each other. our house in cebu was a duplex, so ours was the other half, and uye lived in the other half of the whole house. and we saw each other everyday of our lives. i'd go home, wait for him to arrive, play, and then eat dinner at the terrace. and then when my dad starts to lock me out of the house (habang nasa terrace pa ako haha) i'd say my goodbyes to uye and then go to sleep. and it was like that everyday of our lives.

aw. come to think of it, i miss my childhood very much. i miss him very much. :)

we separated ways when his family moved out of their house to some far place. but eventually he'd come and visit me during my birthday, my brothers' birthday, and. ewan. yon lang. we were 8 years old by then.

when i found out that we were all moving to iloilo, i was okay with it. before we left, i dragged my helper with me to uye's house in that far place just so that i could say goodbye to him. and that was it. i've never heard of him ever again.

i know his complete name. that's it. i didn't know how to trace him. my mom tried calling every "lim" she could find in the directory, but each time, it was a wrong LIM.




if you're my multiply friend, you'd know how i feel right now. because. hahaha. i admit it openly!!! that it all feels weird!! knowing that we're not kids anymore and we have more to worry about.. back then it was just playing house house, tracing and coloring books, watching tv, hanging out at each other's houses and eating at the terrace. but now there are more things to think of and it's just weird. i cannot believe that we are texting after 10 years of not hearing from each other. :) of course, i'm sooo thrilled to finally have found him. or. him finding me. HAHA.

i feel weird, but it's okay. :D
i'm happy. :D

current LSS. :D

time..
i've been passing time watching trains go by... all of my life..
lying on the sand watching sea birds fly...
wishing there could be someone waiting home for me...
something's telling me it might be you... all of my life..

looking back as lovers go walking past..
wondering how they met and what makes them last..
if i found the place, would i recognize the face..
something's telling me it might be you. :D
it's telling me it must be you. :D

so many quiet walks to take, so many dreams to wake..
and there's so much love to make..
i think we're gonna need some time.. maybe all we need is time.. :D
and it's telling me it might be you... all of my life..

i've been saving love songs and lullabies...
and there's so much love, no one's ever heard before...
something's telling me it might be you..
and it's telling me it must be you...
and i'm feeling that it'll just be you..
all of my life..

maybe it's you i've been waiting for all of my life. :D


this is definitely on the playlist on my wedding day. :D

something that brightened me up.

i love smosh. :)
i love this. :)

i hate my boobs.

but sometimes it helps to think that i'm more blessed than the others. BWAHAH.

but today was not my boob day.
i went to the music workshop today. learned a lot of good things from our musical director, sir noel.. and we also learned a new song from the play itself.. so.. it was good.
we then had lunch at world topps.. and then josh and i went to the CADs ORGreps PROD number rehearsal... learned really hard steps. WHEW. and then went to the ENTAyaw rehearsals.. we were complete for like 30 minutes. WOOH. But finally, we were done with our blockings and transitions. and we just need polishing and stuff. so. i'm positive about it.

today just required a looooot of movement, and i'm just sooo tired. my bra wasn't cooperating with me, i think i need to find a bra that feels like it's not there. suggestions anyway? not wearing a bra is not an option. although i think it's very comfortable, i also think people around me aren't going to be comfortable. rofl.

and so my bra wasn't cooperating, i had a hard time moving around. every step, i needed to fix my bra. but then i don't think it was the bra. i think that if i had smaller breasts, i would be more comfortable moving around.

and i was more pissed when i arrived at my dorm to the smell of stinky dishes. i had to wash them, and i couldn't move around the room because there were too many stuff lying around and i needed space to just fall and sleep on the floor. arg. i don't know if i'm making sense anymore. i'm just really really tired.

and i realized a lot today.
it was just a really bad day.

i woke up pissed off because of things i cannot put here in my blog.
i'm sorry but i was just pissed off at most of the people i saw today. "most". NOT ALL.
what was probably a good part of my day was the CADs rehearsals. because it was productive.
i'm not saying that the music workshop and the entayaw rehearsals weren't productive.
they were. i just love dancing.

i realized.
i don't like being rushed. i like to do things on my own pace. i know whenever i'm slow or i'm too fast, and i know when to adjust. i don't like people nagging me, reminding me what to do because I KNOW WHAT TO DO. I KNOW. I DONT NEED PEOPLE TO REMIND ME. (unless i ask them to, or unless i badly need it)

i don't like being pushed around. literally and figuratively. today i was pushed(literally), and it pissed me off. i don't know. maybe, it's psychological. maybe it's something related to me not wanting people to tell me what to do. because i know what i'm doing and what i ought to do.

i don't like people stepping on me, figuratively and literally. LALO NA ANG LITERALLY. HELLO, TANGA KA BA, ANG LAKI KO NA NGA DI MO PA AKO MAKITA. i was stepped on today, a lot of times by a lot of people in different parts of my body and it pissed me off. nakakainis yon. even if it was an accident, nakita mo na nga ako don tapos aapak ka pa. tanga.

sorry. it was just a bad day.

i hate people who are insensitive.
i hate people who are so full of themselves, they ask you things about you so that they can prove they're better than you.
i hate people who keep talking about themselves, they don't listen anymore.
(psychologically, the people you hate reflect who you are or who you want to be. and if i'm like that,

i don't care.)

and last.
i don't like people touching or talking to me about my issues regarding my self-esteem. i may seem very outgoing and loud and kapal, but psychologically i have a low self-esteem. i don't like people talking to me about it or asking me about it. i know how to handle my issues. and if i don't handle them well, then it's my problem not yours. lately i have been sensitive, and it's not funny.
(maybe because i haven't gotten my period in the last two months. and this is just a MAJOR PMS.) but it's not funny.

i'm tired.
i'm sick.
i'm pissed off.

night.

cut me some slacks.

---- hahaha. don't think i'm that stupid. HAHA. i got that line from the book "the more the manyer" HAHAHAHA

i'm feeling full today. i ate corned beef sandwich and i want to puke. i feel like i've eaten enough to last for a lifetime. i cannot eat more. and i already want to sleep but i'm so full, i don't want to die yet. BOO.

so i'm going to blog instead.

A few days ago, like last Wednesday, i went to the auditions for KWIK-E, our newbie production. Yes, i wasn't a newbie anymore, but then our newbie production last year was cancelled and so we were allowed to audition for this. COOL. And so, my first ever audition for a play in enta went good. It was a good audition in the sense that i didn't feel bad, that i didn't think i didn't do my best, or that i didn't think that i didn't have a chance at passing the auditions. :) I just had to be kapal to survive auditions. :)

(thank you ena for the screenshots. haha.)

so there i was in the auditions, auditioning for role of Eileen from Eyeball. I was also asked to read the role of Dulce from Isang Libong Tula Para Sa Dibdib ni Dulce. HAHAHA i laughed when i saw the script that kuya Kalil gave me. HAHA. And then Leinard asked me to read Jovy from a play i'm not familiar of. :) HAHA sorry. oh well.

results came out today. :) and i'm somewhat happy for the role i got, i think i can pull it off. I HOPE SO. :) HAHAHA. Although i didn't get what i wanted, i'm so okay with the role i got. :)

I'm part of the play, St. Anthony Pray For Us. :) The story is about Toinette(my role), a woman in her midlife who is a single mother(separated from spouse) and who is a mess.
(ehem) And while she is going around looking for stuff that is lost, she keeps on praying to St. Anthony, the patron saint for. uhhh. finding lost things? i guess. HAHAHA. anyway, but since St. Anthony can't be there for her all the time, he sent an ANGEL to find Toinette's lost things. The story is pretty interesting. Talking all by myself. (because i can't hear the angel right.) SO. BETTER WATCH OUT. :)
St. Anthony Pray For Us, is one of the 10 plays in KWIK-E. :D There will 9 other plays performed every show, so. BETTER WATCH OUT FOR IT! HEHEHE. :D :D :D

i'm pretty excited. :) thank you ENTA for this opportunity. :) HAHAHA


ON THE OTHER HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND.


i have tons of things to get done asap, so in case i get lost, i have this blog to open. :)

SATURDAY SEPT 13
- BENTAW2: MUSIC WORKSHOP 9-12am, BEL207
- ENTAyaw! rehearsals afternoon
- CADS orgreps prod num rehearsals 6 onwards gonzaga exhibit hall
- give Felo evals for Batibot-Olandes (ENTA NSTP)

SUNDAY SEPT 14
- host SPEED FAMILY DAY San Jose Covered Courts (needed there by 830am)
- ADMU-UE game Araneta Colliseum 4pm (leave at 2pm!)
- text subjects/participants for experiment on Monday

MONDAY SEPT15
- Experiment at 10:30-11:30 AM CTC301
- ENTAyaw! rehearsals afternoon!! ASAP ASAP ASAP
- CADS rehearsals at Henry Lee Irwin theater with TECH 5:50-6pm
- 1st Script Reading for KWIK-E at Faculty Lounge 6-9pm

so far. i have it all under control. :D

i love cherry pie picache.

okay.

i've been told a million times.

that i look like cherry pie picache.
and everytime i react, people keep on saying "she's pretty naman ah"
well, yes i agree. but. but. but.
there are reasons why i do not want to be compared with/to her, which i cannot explain.
so enjoy teasing me while my patience is still long. :D (it may break anytime. haha)

so why am i blogging about cherry pie picache. :)



i was watching this teleserye on ABS-CBN, "Iisa Pa Lamang"
and Claudine Baretto and her were fighting.. and this was how the conversation went:

Claudine: PAG NALAMAN KONG IKAW ANG PUMATAY SA TATAY KO, AKO NA MISMO ANG PAPATAY SAYO!!!
Cherry Pie: PWES!! PUMILA KA!! DAHIL MARAMING GUSTONG PUMATAY SAKIN!! AT MAS NAKAKATAKOT SILA KESA SAYO!

and that whole episode of fighting and her appearing in every scene was just soooo awesome. :) i cannot explain. every line she threw at her enemies were so powerful, if i were cherry pie, i'd feel like i "K.O.-ed"(think tekken) my opponent with my every blow. :) hands down to the scriptwriter, and also to Ms. Cherry Pie for delivering the lines excellently. *kowtow*

i just love every line she said. and i think i'm going to like the soap. :)





but now i have to clean my room. it looks like crap.
it looks like a basurahan na tinubuan ng kwarto.
cha is going to fix her corner too. after. what, 4 months? no make that 6.
it has been this way ever since you left for Bangkok. :))
i'm not going to post a picture of her corner
(sorry cha, it's for your own good. HAHA)





so. seeyah when i seeyah. more updates soooooon. :)

ADMU-DLSU

Last September 6, thousands of students, daddies tagging along their misises and babies, fanatics, basketball lovers, and let's not forget the scalpers, came to Araneta Colliseum to witness Ateneo-LaSalle 2nd game for the season. :D The place was flooded with only the colors blue and green, and each school roared their drums and cheers at each other.


OKAY IT'S A STRUGGLE TO PRETEND HOW TO PRETEND TO BE A WRITER. BWAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH

guess what. i was on www.fabilioh.com AGAIN! HAHAHAHHAHA. this is just funny. HAHA

i saw the people in front of me posing, and i saw the photographer down below aiming the camera at them. i tried to grab oli but she and deni were talking, and so...
I POSED. I SMILED. hahhahahahahahahahaha. i just loook stupid. i wanted it to look like it was candid. BUT NO. hahahahhaha. this is just fuuuunnnyyy. hahahaha



I was two hours early for the game. Oli, deni and i were seated at Upper A because ________.
So i camwhored.
and i love the shirt btw! :D











As for my dearest Kirk Long, he didn't play. That is just so sad. Sitting in Upper A and not seeing him play is just dear life. :( But it was foine. The game was good. :) Ateneo was always leading. :) Rabeh Al-Hussaini was sooo good, did he drink more basketball-enhancing-hormones-drink? HAHAHAHAHAHA Jai Reyes got good at shooting 3point shots! Chris Tiu, as always. haha. Nonoy Baclao was good too. Somehow, for some strange reason, our players got good. and i'm not complaining. GOOD JOB ATENEO!!! :D

can we take down your tarps now. let's go environment friendly please. :D HAHA
oh can i keep Kirk Long's 10x Life Sized stand along Blue Eagle Gym? Imma bring it inside our dorm, in the quad. :D

The final score was i think 65-57? hahaha. i forgot. oh well.
GOOOD game.

ONE BIG FIGHT!!!!